Life has been hard, without her... The days are longer and boring.There is never anything intersting. I live my life day by day missing her, thinking 'Does she miss me too?' only to be answered by silence. I haven't seen her for a year, a very long lonely year. I often wonder how shes doing, If she's okay.I really want to see her, but I can't...She hates me....She wont ever love me the way I do. She's too busy loving somebody else, someone better than me. I still remember what she told me the last time I saw her , her exact words still remain in my mind,' I wish I had never met you!'. You know that really hurt, being childhood friends, knowing eachother so well, I never thought she would say that, those cruel words. I mean I get it ,she was angry, she didn't know what she was saying. Yet it felt like she was speaking her heart out, her feelings,those she had kept deep inside her. But you know what I forgave her like the good friend I am..

 Now you may be wondering why I left? If I forgave her whats the reason I left? Well I myself don't really know the reason either. One hour later after the incident I found myself on a airplane flying to the other side of the world and for some reason I wasnt regretting anything, I felt that it was the right thing to do. This way I would forget about her ,but as you can see I failed terriblaly.. During this past year alot of things happened, and I'm sure your wondering what sort of things happened , so stick around a little longer