Jaejoong would always believe in the word forever. Ever since he and Yunho met, they will always say that they will be together forever and for the rest of their lives.

But it seems like forever is one of the most painful and abused words ever spoke by a person or ever been heard from a person’s mouth. Hearing forever made the other sad and his heart will shatter into pieces.

Such word as forever would change its meaning. For Jaejoong, forever was all a word play, a word that gives false reassurance, a comforting lie. In the middle of a tough time it can be pushed and used to something of a reality, a possibility but never been proven by any two people can achieve together once they put their minds, hearts, souls and wills to it. But not in every person’s hope of it can be true because to be honest, there is no such word.

A word like forever is nothing but a lie. One word of a dream too good and too perfect, and one day you will wake up to witness and see the same old bed, the same scattered clothes everywhere, the same small apartment with the same smell of vomit and medications and good old misery in his very sanity that was still somewhat sane amidst all that he’s been through for everything.

But what truly gives the meaning of a good and perfect dream was seeing himself with the same man he promised to spend forever with, still being beside each other and loving each other. Then waking up to realize how everything changed. They were still together but he dreads every waking moment beca