Another day passed means another spy act involves. But the difference is, i don't have to hide myself. Yes, i'm transparent. And because of the same reason, i couldn't touch this said man.

 

I'm a lost spirit (yes, ghost). Well, the catcher (the one in charge for returning all the lost spirit to where they're belong-either heaven or hell) already met me long time ago. But somehow, they can't sent me to the nirvana because of some reason they don't know. But yeah, i'm kinda in relief to hear that. Maybe nirvana will be full of angel that beauty as hell (or heaven) but.. who need angel when god is here?

 

Oh! God is here.

 

Kidding God, i mean Kai who has feature better than any of your angel.

 

He dress in casual tight jeans with oversize grey shirt that made her more like a runway models- he usually does.

 

someone approach me "hey!"

 

Ugh. That annoying catcher.

 

i keep my eyes pinned on that runway man, not bothered with the fact a new subject is added in this paragraph "what?"

 

"you spying that man again?" the catcher who called Sehun walk beside me with his usual poker face and i realized, Sehun not tilting his head to me. He just keep his head straight to the road and his headphone set on his ear. Maybe to avoid the people noticing him talking to nothing.

 

"yeah" i nod "this is my one and only job i got while nirvana insist to rejects me" i keep walking behind that flawless tan man until he take a seat on a cafe, then Sehun and i take a seat beside him. He look so perfect sitting there.

 

"gosh" Sehun now open his macbook "your face is whipped"

 

" off, you lonely poker catcher" i cursed. is he mocking me because he's the only one who could seen my figure? because i myself, can't see that. how could i? i don't even have a reflection on the mirror.

 

he huff "kyungsoo-ah today i asked Suho-hyung, he kinda my supervisor. I asked him why can't i found that bifurcation point of your soul. Then,he said.. it seems that you don't fully awaken or conscious about your new identity as a spirit. Not a person anymore"

 

I rolled my eyes "then what's your point? I denied my self that i'm not human again? That i don't visible to normal human eyes?" i try to grab the tissue case "and i can't even grab things?"

 

"but you could moving them with your magnetic field force,theoretically"

 

"oh Sehun please! I'm fully conscious that i'm a ghost. Okay? I accept the fact. Besides, i could follow all the hallyu artist to their private life without called sasaeng, and go to all k-pop concert for free.. if denial is the main problem, then i'm not. I know i'm a spirit. And i'm not that desperate to denied it" then i shift my gaze to that perfect man. He look so stressed and troublesome. The eye bag under his eyes are prominent and it made this handsome visual look tired. maybe he is.

 

I realize that Sehun's gone now. So i goes to that man and place my head on his shoulder. It's terribly sad. i can't feel how strong his shoulder is, how his temperature felt like in my hand, and mostly is i want to know how my lips felt like when i touched his.

 

Look how he sip his coffee like he starring Starbucks CF like this. Slowly, with his sharp gaze looking around, and... and-

 

Oh gosh. He looking at me.

 

Oh no. No. No. Noo don't kaai do noot or i'll be breathing!!

 

He suddenly smile "Chanyeol?"

 

Oh, right. There's someone beside me who's grinning widely. So without further ado, i move aside or Kai will felt his goosebump arise because of my magnetic field make a contact with his system.

 

*

 

Just.. wow. His room is way too organized for a boy. All the thing's set in grey coloured in more than 50 shade. This is the first time i visit his home (because well yeah. Running man is on air after 4 so i left him right before he's off). So many picture in the wall, clipped with paperclip on a long yarn, crossing accross the room. Look like it's his bestfriend because-oh he's not. It's his boyfriend because bestfriend won't kissed on the lips.

 

"you, show yourself" i hear kai say to nothing as he laid himself on his bed "i know you're here"

 

Oh, crap. It must be because that thread is moving so he noticed me. Damn it.

 

He exhale "it's okay. i just want you to stop following me around. I have enough stress and you make it worse. You know you made me grow goosebumps and it's creepy"

 

There's nothing i could do with that. How can i? We're in the different wavelength. Different dimension.

 

So i make sure i left with that ribbon laid near the door pulled with me.

 

*

 

Sehun tap my shoulder "Kyungsoo".

 

I force my head to shift my gaze from the dancing Kai to him "i enjoying my angel doing ballet. Can you hold it untill he's done?"

 

Sehun keep talking "i pay the ticket for this recital not just like you who sneaking into this building without noticed. Suho told me again. Sometimes, when your lovers tears fall and stained your skin, you can't go untill he's let you go".

 

Sehun got my attention. "..so, maybe i have someone who can't accept the fact that i left them?".

 

Sehun nods "do you remember someone?".

 

I roll my eyes "i don't even remember my face". with that, Sehun raised his from the seat, and left.

*

Today, i'm sitting by the river (yes, like on them because i don't belong to this world i do whatever like a sir). I love to see the sun rise this river given to me. It's clear, quiet and desolate.. But most of everything, calm.

 

It's calm until someone call my name with that bear-like roar from the river banks.

 

Now, scream "kyungsooo!" repeat "oi! Kyungsooo!!!".

 

I walk slowly, towards him "sooo early in the morning, catcher".

 

"kai wants to meet you".

 

Wait. What ? "..am i hallucinating or what?".

 

Sehun shakes his head "kai. Want. To.meet. You"

*

"how can you meet him?" we walked through the crowded myeongdong to reach kai's apartement.

 

Sehun keep his head to the road "he came to me in when i was having my coffee on the café he ussualy came. He saw me on his recital and i was talked to nothing. Then he ask me if i could help him and guess what?".

 

"the problem is.. Me".

 

"yes" sehun then waving to someone who has that blinding smile.

 

"hi sehun" he greet warmly "lets go".

 

I walked beside kai so i could watch him close. I love ho his brows knit into one and his pouty lips tell sehun what his problem.

 

We arrived at the 12th floor of the building and come to his 50+ shades of gray room.

 

"So, let me straight this. You want to get rid from him?" sehun concluded.

 

"no" kai decline "all i want to know is, who is him and why he is tailing me. Just that. I'm kinda.. Curious".

 

"and remind me again why you curious to him?"

 

Jongin look to the ceiling that full of photos "i don't scared with his presence". Then kai took one photo of him and his boyfriend who grin from ear to ear while they grab big lollipop on each hand.

 

"oh my. ing. God" sehun cursed in whisper

 

"this is my boyfriend. He died 4 months ago from car crash"

tears star to welling in his eyes "i felt so familiar with that scent. But it's too weak so i'm not sure. I just want to make sure if it's him or not".

 

"it's him" sehun says suddenly.

 

"what?" i gasp.

 

"what?" he wipe his tears "it's kyungsoo?"

.

.

.

What the hell is happen here?

 

"it's him" sehun says, then smiling "i don't know if its luck or what but he's my assignment. Somehow, i couldn't turn him into the right material so he can't go from this world. Did you cried on his funeral?".

 

Kai sobs "what kind of question is that? Of course i am".

 

"your tears is absorbed to his skin. And it made kyungsoo's bifuraction point-the thing that made a soul changed into the lighter one, a spirit-is closed. That's why, he's changing but all he became is static magnet field. Do you want to feel him?".

 

Oh crap. He will touch me right??.

 

He is. Kai's hand streched and cross through my head. He flinch a little than tears start to welling in his eyes again. Somehow, he look right into my eyes.

 

"kyungsoo?" kai sob "kyungsoo-ya?"

 

Sehun take his hand and place it on my left chest "it felt stronger here".

 

Kai nods "kyungsoo, are you hear me?"

 

I nods confusely. "sehun, he's the reason i-".

 

"yes" sehun nods "he is". It's for both of us i think.

 

Kai burried his face on his right palm while the others still inside me "kyungsoo.." kai cry and sob pathetically "did you still remember me?"

 

"he's not" sehun answer it instead "when people died, they don't remember most of the thing. But kyungsoo is.. Somehow attracted to you then following you sometimes".

 

Kai nod and tears falls along with is movement "i know it's you.." sobs "i always felt it".

 

Then with that, something in my chest feel warmer. If i could cry, i cried right now. But nothing fell from eyes but pain. I don't know ghost can feel something like this "tell him i love him too, sehun. He's the best human i ever met. I can feel it. He's the best thing could happen in my life and after"

 

Sehun smile and tap kai's shoulder "he said, he love you too. You're the best human he ever know".

 

Kai cry harder and his body shaking crazily this time "kyungsoo.."

 

Sehun tap his shoulder again "now, you already know it's him. But he can't goes to where he belongs to if you not let him go".

 

"no!" kai snap "i want him to keep being here. It doesn't matter whether i can't seen him or not. I want him. Just to know he's being here already calm my mind".

 

"but you can't" a voice coming from behind. Sehun suddenly stand up and bow towards him. I guess, this is suho.

 

"if you doesn't let him go, he'll be stuck forever in here. You have life to live. But him? All he can do is wandering around the city without able to touch anything. He's nothing in this world. You'll forget him, find somebody new because time is applied to you. But him? Soon, he will become lost soul and satan will take over it" suho says sternly.

 

"but.." Kai wipe his tears, his hand finally get out of me "i love him. You know how difficult my life is after he died? And now, we finally met again and you want to separate us?".

 

Suho then join to sit on the floor with us in circle. Kai's eyes now swollen and sobs escapes his mouth several times.

 

"how about this" suho place his hand in the top of my head, "i will make kyungsoo appears with the name of God. How if he tell you how his life is in this four months?".

 

I blink my eyes "you could do such a thing?"

 

Suho nods "but i have to spend half of my energy for it. Maybe it's the time to stay on earth to recover it. I kind of missing earth actually".

 

Then suho grab both of my hand. It's.. Kind of Cool. He close his eyes and spell the spell to activate the energy gate between us. Then it happen. The electron transferred from his body to mine, catalize the movement of my electron and made the spin my electron orbital turn downward, all of sudden i felt myself stiffen-maybe because of this forces made the rotation of the energy turn upside down and press the empetiness in my body became more rigid-and bam!. Suho no longer shiny and look so tired.

 

But i, can see my own hands. I can feel myself wearing suit from the funeral and

 

Gosh. Oh god i am really a kyungsoo. I'm kai's lover.

 

But i don't know what to do. Should i sad because i made kai become like this? Or.. Should i be happy because my love aren't unrequitted?.

 

"kyungsoo" kai pull me into his tight hug "kyungsoo-ya..".

 

I hug his back, equally tight "hi.. Jongin-ah" i burried my face on the crook of his neck "it's.. You".

 

Kai nod and kiss the top of my head "i miss you. Kyungsoo, i promise you one thing : i'll always be yours. Eventhough i can't see you after this, it's okay. Just to feel your presence, i already content".

 

I'm not answering that. I don't know what to say either. With the memory that's coming back to me, i feel the way Kai feel too. I want to be here. But.. How? This relationship won't work.

 

"Kai" suho open his voice "if you keep being stubborn like this, it's not fair to kyungsoo. You have life, but kyungsoo don't. Tell him kyungsoo, how was your life being the lost spirit".

 

"but" he unlatch the hug "we can have it. You will no longer lonely after this. I will talk to you everytime. And.. And sehun can help us right? You want to help us right?"

 

Sehun cough "well, yes i want to. But if kyungsoo refuse this, i will assigned to other soul. We can't meet eachother again".

 

"but-".

 

Suho cuts him "kai. I wil give you illustration about his life. It's like living in a jail with tv. You can't do anything. You can't touch anything. All you can do is watching them because your dimension is different. You want kyungsoo to live that life? How was your life before kyungsoo?".

 

Everybody wait for me to say a word. I inhale the oxygen onto my body and say "..it was lonely, jongin. I got nothing to do except talking with sehun and tailing you".

 

"remember, kyungsoo didn't leave you alone. He still watching you from up there" suho smile, and now i believe he's an angel "it's like having a long distance relationship".

 

"it's for everyone good"sehun add.

 

Kai look to me now. Right int the eyes. I can see my own reflection in that dark, ebony eyes. The love, hurts, adoration, and devotion.. Look so lively in his eyes. Tears rolling down his cheek in a hard stream.

 

He pull me back into a tight hug, again. He cried over my shoulder in a silence sob. He falls and breaks right inside my embrace.

 

"i.." kai sobs "i will let you go if you keep this go with you", he take my hand and slid a ring onto my finger.

 

Suho nods "if that's the only way you could let him go, it's all yours".

 

Then i can't hold the urge to smile while looking into the ring "you finally propose me"

 

He laugh between his tears and hold my hand tighter, shakes it "we finally married. This angels is the witness. But, there's something left here. One of you, should tell me to kiss him to prove our love".

 

Sehun roll his eyes "oh god. Just do it already!"

 

With a slow motion, Kai take my face between his palm and connecting our lips into one, perfect shape. Like.. I was meant to be there. His kiss is passionate, desperate, sad but drive me drunk somehow. His protective arm hug my waist and the the other guide my palms to swipe his jaw in a languid way.

 

I love him with everything i have and don't.

 

"i" a deep press on lips "..i let you go"

 

And just like spell, i feel myself unravel. Layer by layer, i got myself become lighter. Not jongin neither i am loose our grip to eachother. I inhale jongin smell, hope that it'll lasts in my mind. But my grip loosen as i converted into a holy spirit again. I saw sehun touch my back, but i barely feel it. The room getting lighten because this converting stuff produce blindingly light.

 

"i love you ever after, jongin".

 

In a blink, the light explode.

 

In the end, there's jongin alone. Sobbing by himself in the room. With ring hugging his finger.