All my heart- My last first day

As she walked around Seoul for the last time she decided to take some different ways as she used to, just to see what Seoul has in store for her for the last time. Who knew what would happen on a chilly summer day?

She decided to visit the SM Entertainment building, the place she tries to get in to, the place where admirable people work and where her dreams began. If it wouldn’t have been for SME and their music, who knows how her life would have turned out now. She gained so much just knowing about Kpop and how it connects the world, that she is somehow indebted to SME. Her first group, her first hope for a bright and better future, that’s what it stands for.

Regardless of her situation and position as an unknown figure, a shadow dancing in the dark, an anonymous, she wanted to visit this place. It may sound foolish, but her dream was to come to Seoul, to visit this place that seemed so nice and different from the world.

So she went, it couldn’t hurt to just stand in front of the building and peek inside, would it?  What bad would that do? So she thought about it on her way there, listening to Super junior.
Kyuhyun sure was cute at that stage, she daydreamt as she went there. Not long ago Super junior had a mini concert in Seoul and she wouldn’t dare to miss it. Who else could say they saw their favorite group in South Korea, Seoul?
The way his voice made her heart melt was sinful, his eyes showed his youthful charm and his dancing improved so much over the years, that she could just look at him in awe. Was that last smile really for me? She thought, thinking about the girls that surrounded her, or was it for one of the others?

And before she even knew it, she was there. Safe and sound in front of a huge Building that screamed sophisticated, talented and made her feel the barrier she can’t escape. Sighing she saw a mass of people standing there waiting for something, well it can’t hurt to take a look, can it?

So, without further warning she dared to get nearer. Every step she took made her think about what she could see when she would be able to catch a glimpse. Could I see him or someone else from Super junior?
Her stomach felt weird, excitement and worry mixed together, a smile on her face with shaking hands. She was a total mess. So many emotions run through her mind, that she didn’t know which one was the right  or the most important one. Just meters away from the crowd she tried to regain her senses, “I’m not such a crazy fangirl”, she said until she would believe herself.

She checked her hair, her cloths and walked confidently towards the crowd.
“Excuse me”, she asked a girl in the crowd who mustered her from head to toe, “What are you guys waiting for?” Now a few girls turned around to look at her, but no one was answering. Wow are these girls nice, until she heard a voice trying to speak English with her “Super Junior is coming”, she felt such joy after hearing that, that the girl who answered her got the biggest and brightest smile she could ever give someone. “Thank you”, she said while trying to enter the crowd somehow.

She pushed, she squeezed herself together, let people poke her or even hit her but there was no way possible way to get through this wall of obsessed fangirls. “What to do now? I want to see him up close just once, then I could go back as the happiest girl on the planet”

She was looking around, the crowd was blocking the entrance, there was no way a human could enter the building or exit it without being smashed.

Thinking about it made her wonder, “Who spread this information? Is it really believable? But the most important question here was, “How do they enter a building when something like this is happening? It clearly can’t be the first time, so is there a backdoor or a service entrance?” I should check it out, I bet I would have more luck with that. A sinister smile crossed her face, barely managing to not let her evil laugh show. She tip toed away, unknowingly for her a few other girls followed her like she is made out of money, concealing their presence like little ninjas trying to kill their prey in the best moment. wandering around on cloud seven made her blind and turned her deaf, the loud steps of her tiny crowd went unnoticed, their colourful outfits that shined brighter than the sun couldn’t compare to the flashing and dazzling light of her Kyuhyun. To her surprisement  there was a backdoor and something was actually happening. People were entering and escaping this building but none of them seemed familiar, it wasn’t that disappointing because at least she knew it had a backdoor. So she spinned back on her heel and only now noticed fangirls screaming, attracting more of them. It somehow was like a zombie movie, in which noise turns them into meat wanting brain-dead animals. If you think more about it actually it really reminded her of such a scene, should she be the hero and safe that poor damsel in distress named Kyuhyun or should she be the leader of the brain-dead and get a mighty piece of that hot stuff. Both sides had their up and downs and both were deemed to fail miserably, but would she leave with dignity intact or would she turn utterly shameless and run up to one of these cars and glomp the nearest person? Honestly this decision was rather hard for her to make, but she decided to not disturb the people going inside or coming out of the building, she tried really hard to escape the crowd, she fought, she pitched and shoved them away but these fangirls suddenly got supernatural, inhuman powers and were harder to move than the wall of china. There were like the ocean tossing her around wherever they wanted her to be and they would surely eliminate her if she was in their way. Wild screams she barely understood, a lot of glomping, kissing and hugging broke out. She stood there shocked and helpless, “What should I do know?” She was pushed against walls, while the celebrities where harassed and the wave of fangirls never seemed to stop, more and more girls and boys started to fill the parking lot. Some fans even brought their car and blocked the street, there was no way in or out of this mess. “Did I start all of this?” security people helped some Kpop-stars, actors and actresses inside, but it didn’t really change a thing, her back against the wall she started to panic, to many people at once were here. “Oh hell no I don’t wanna get a panic attack, everything is going to work out and be fine.” Suddenly she started to feel dizzy and a hand grabbed her shoulder  and started to talk to her, but she understood nothing and was looking at it weirdly. It was like alien language with a lot of ish and a sounds. “Please just help, safe me” was all she thought as  she was looking at that person with pleading eyes. What else was she supposed to do? She could hardly breath, she was scared and couldn’t even really see anything and the constant screaming of the others was unbearable. Before she even knew it she got pulled into the building. Normally she would be super happy, jump up in joy and hug everyone she sees, but she out after noticing she was inside with a few other people.