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Hello everyone!

This is my first time writing a story like this. Hehe. Do pardon me though, it's been a while since I last wrote properly.

This is based on my own experience from before, so I hope to be able to bring you guys along with how I felt at that period. I made a few changes as to how certain situations turned out to make the story flow better. Also, I tweaked the story to fit a Korean high school situation as much as possible, but I'm not too sure of certain events - like when is summer/winter break etc (I'm from Singapore otl). In any case, I'll try my best!! :)

The reason why I ended up writing this story is actually a personal one. Since I didn't resolve the situation, I'm writing this as a form of closure for myself to get over this phase (since it's really overdue lol).

As mentioned, this is based on my own experience, so I have not plagarised from anywhere, and I hope no one does! Any coincidences are unintended!

Without further ado, read on! Hope ya'll will love it! Thank you~

P/S: Shout out to my best friend @babybearkpop for making the poster!

PP/S: I don't own any of the pictures/videos!!

With of lots love,

Nina :)

 

Foreword

When memories hit you, they come in waves.

You can’t do anything to stop it but to let it play in your head.

 

You made me sing a love song for the first time

Then you left me

You made me listen to a break up song for the first time

You stick around me like the lyrics of a sad song

-

The moment I started to grow up

Things didn’t turn out my way

You let me know this when you turned your back

The day you left me without any warning

My youth came to an end

-

You and I, I thought about the reason why we broke up again

From the many unanswered questions, I became an adult

-

Don’t speak too easily

Don’t envy us

Our youth hurts too much

Youth Hurts – VIXX

 

“People fall so in love with their pain, they can’t leave it behind. The same as the stories they tell. We trap ourselves.”

It hurts to hear that we are friends

I stand out of the line I’ll never cross

Though it hurts, I can’t just turn away

Hopeless Love – Park Jimin

 

My friends often asked me, “Why him? He treats you like .”

To the world he portrayed himself as a bad guy.

But to me, he showed that he can be sweet as candy.

When you love someone,

No matter how much they hurt you,

No matter how many promises they break,

You’ll still love them..

 

“I had armoured my heart so nobody could get to it. It was impenetrable. You tore through it like it was nothing.”

 

The “friend” label is a label I got to hate

The feelings I’ve hidden still remain as a painful secret memory

The photos that can’t define our relationship are a heart-breaking story

I’m sorry, summer, now goodbye yeah yeah

-

What do I say, We didn’t have to play no games

I should’ve took that chance, should’ve asked for you to stay

And it gets me down, the unsaid words that still remain

The story ended that without even starting

-

Baby oh no oh oh oh

I’m sorry that this is a monologue

Oh oh oh oh

Actually, I love you yeah

If only our long-time hidden secrets were revealed

I would hold you in my arms

Goodbye Summer – F(Krystal, Luna, Amber) Feat. EXO D.O.

 

I try to act like nothing’s wrong, but you have no idea how much it hurts inside.

And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.

— Douglas Coupland

 

Actually no, I’m still hating you, you who let me go

My frigidly cooled heart is still

Missing you

-

How can you smile so brightly

But looking closely, your face is sad

I know I’ve been there before

-

The love of my youth is ending like this

Please be happy

Even after a long time passes, let’s both remember

That we both had each other then

Missing You – 2NE1

 

As cliché as it sounds…

You had me at “Hello.”

Right from the start.

 

Do you even know how much you meant to me?

 

 

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babybearkpop #1
Chapter 7: YAH AUTHOR NIM, AREN'T YOU GOING TO UPDATE! PPALI WASEOYO!
g_gangles19 #2
Chapter 7: Oohh can't wait to see what happens next :D
Fighting!! ^^
g_gangles19 #3
Chapter 5: Oooh I can't wait!!
It sounds so beautiful, heck even the angst sounds beautiful xD
I'm really looking forward to this, hope you update soon ^^
babybearkpop #4
Chapter 4: I'M SO EXCITED FOR THIS! AUTHOR-NIM FIGHTING!!! AHHH I CANT WAIT ALREADY!
BabyMelody28
#5
Wow foreword got me like "Woah dude. Deepness gave me chills." xD