White T-shirts, black fur coats, black skinny jean, clutch, luggage, black sunglasses, two inches black high heels and my hair tie in a messy bun. Chick style. Perfect airport fashion. Walking through the airport with the sound of my heel reached the floor. People started to stare at me. Don’t even care about it. I let out a heavy sigh. Hmm.. I start walking to the ticketing counter. Why does the counter so far from here? Uhh… As I walked I saw a man running to a woman. He cried and asked the woman not to leave him. I stopped and watch the ‘live drama’ in front of me. People around me also watch them and start whispering. The man still cried begging to the woman but unfortunately she just left with no expression on her face. Just as I though and I start walking again to my destination. When I got there I saw a very long line at the counter. I guess it’s a long wait. I goes at the very back of the line and wait for my turn. Opened my clutch, take out a piece of chewing gum and chew it. Yummy.  I looked around. The airport is filled with family and lovers. I recall back about the ‘live drama’ I saw just now. The man cried. The woman with no expression and I remembered.. flashback.. to that day.

     I dashed to the airport but when I get here I was too late. The plane just took off. I was late by a split of second. If I know, If I realized it sooner this would never happened. I fall to the ground crying as my heart out. I don’t care the people staring. I don’t care about anything! I let all of my guilt, anger and sadness out  ̶  I sat down on a bench at the garden near the airport. Try to take a fresh air. He was very special to me. He’s the only one who cares for me. Not like the rest, they just want my money. But he’s different, never ask for my money or anything. He said he just..need..me. He is tall, fair skin and a messy hair. Always make me laugh with the stupid jokes he made. I laugh as I remember that. “Kim Jongin. Kai.” I whispered his name enough for me to hear it. Kai is the reason why I crawling out from my ‘hole’. I’ve been hiding in that ‘hole’ for half of my life. He takes my hand. He’s like my lifesaver. He is my lifesaver. If it wasn’t because of ‘he’ maybe me and Kai still talking and laughing like we used to be. He. My father. He’s the one who send Kai away from me. He’s is the one who separated us. He’s is the one who  make me hiding in my ‘hole’. He’s a monster.

When he found out about my relationship with Kai, he didn’t hesitated to hurt us. He even hired a guy to kidnapped Kai. He tortured him. He said he do this for my sake but no! He only doing for himself because he’s in the politics so he can’t have any rumors or scandalous. It might just ruin him and I hope he’s ruin. Me and Kai have tried to run away but we always got caught. He have eyes everywhere. He knows what we’re doing, where we are, all of it. Before Kai go, he meet with Kai . I don’t know what he told Kai but I know he must have told Kai something worst. Something that make him go away without telling me. Now..I can’t do anything maybe crawling back in my ‘hole’. Me and  ̶  “Miss? Miss? Excuse me Miss?” someone calling me?  Coming back to reality. I look at the person who calling me.  “Yes?”

     “Where are you going Miss?” said the lady.

     “Me?” I looked around and I’m in the airport. “Oh. Paris.” I gave her my passport. She checked my passport and gave me my ticket.

     “Do you want to take the economy class or business class?”

     “Business.” 

     “Thank you Miss Jessi Ho for choosing our airline and have a nice trip”

     “Welcomed” I smiled. I walked to the Starbucks and order a cup of coffee while waiting for my flight. I remembered back while I was waiting at the ticketing counter. I had some imagination. “I hope I can get some ‘drama’ like that in my life but.. there’s no true love. Unfortunately.” I take my coffee and goes in the waiting room. Waiting for my flight.