Lying in bed, Sungjong grabbed out his ipod and placed on his headphones. Lately he hasn’t been able to sleep without listening to a certain song. The song has reached the top of his play list and he was sure he’d be screwed if anyone ever found out what it was. The voice was just so soothing, calming, breath taking, and so much more. He could only wish he was able to sing that amazingly. That or have the very owner of the voice sing him to sleep. Sighing, he his side as he pressed play and closed his eyes. Hearing the leader’s voice in one song, completely alone, made him fangirl big time inside. The makane had never had these feelings for anyone before, not even before debut. Was he falling for the leader? Sungjong doesn’t want to admit to that. It would be too strange. He couldn’t like his leader, so he is admiring him… right?

Punching his bear, he knew that wasn’t it. If it was just admiration the older wouldn’t be on his mind so much, he wouldn’t have his heart race so badly, his face wouldn’t flush, nor would he tremble at the older’s very touch. He use to dislike the older so much, like back during Sesame Player. The leader made him so very pissed. Always bossing him around, telling him what to do. What changed though? Nothing has… has it? They all moved to a new apartment, but that shouldn’t have changed anything right? Sungjong sighed once more. Maybe that was why. Mostly since now he was sharing the same room as the leader. He couldn’t sleep at all anymore. Rolling over again, his eyes glanced across the room to stare at the leader’s sleeping figure as he pulled his teddy bear close. If only he could sleep beside the other, it would make things so much easi-… It wouldn’t. He probably wouldn’t get any sleep at all. He’d end up staring at the close features, admiring each and every one of them. Sleeping to the sound of Sungkyu’s voice was good enough for him.

Glancing at the time on his ipod, he noticed it was 1:15am. He’s been in bed since 12:30 and still haven’t fell asleep. Giving up on any nap time, he threw his covers off him and scooted across the room as quietly as he could. He knelt down beside the older’s bed as he admired his sleeping features. A part of the makane knew he shouldn’t be doing this but he just couldn’t help it as he brought his ipod up and took a quick picture. If any of the other member’s knew he’d be screwed for sure. Biting back a small accomplished smile, his right hand involuntarily invited itself up to Sungkyu’s face as he began to lightly brush across the smooth cheek. He couldn’t help but wonder what would happen if the older knew his feelings, his actual feelings. Thing’s could become awkward and he might even want to change rooms… Then again it was because of minor room changing that he ended up with the other anyways. Resting his head by the other’s bed, he was lost in his own thoughts as he ran his fingers down towards the other’s lips. He wanted to feel those lips on his own terribly bad, on his skin and everywhere else. He blushed at his own thought and just furiously shook his head to get the erted ideas out.

Listening to the soothing music as he watched the elder sleeping really made him calm. He couldn’t help but smile to himself, completely unaware of his own surroundings by no until he heard a growing voice of annoyance.

“Yah, Sungjong. What are you doing?” The makane couldn’t help but jump back completely in shock as he dropped his music device. Glancing up at the male that was now sitting in bed with a slight irritated look, he swallowed hard before averting his eyes else where.

“I-… I… C-couldn’t sleep. I-… “

“Was it because of that scary movie from earlier? …” He heard the older sigh.

Scary movie? … Right! They were all watching some horror movie before going to bed. He completely forgot since the whole time he was busy clinging himself to the leader, which made him completely happy. In return he only gave a small nod, finding it an easy solution to everything.

He noticed the older scooting more towards the edge before patting the empty space between him and the wall. “Come here… You can sleep with me for tonight, just don’t wake me up again.”

Sungjong felt his face flush deeply at the kind gesture of his leader. Never did he thought the older could be so kind to him as he gave one more nod before grabbing his ipod and climbing into bed with the other. He made himself comfortable under the covers of the other before lying down beside him. Finding the horror movie a good excuse, he decided to scoot as closely to the other as possible as he made sure his music was low enough so only he could hear.

“Good night,” Was the last words spoken by the other, back facing towards him before he replied with the same words and falling asleep with a smile on his face.

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The next morning, Sungjong yawned and stretched out comfortably. He actually had a really nice sleep for once and he had almost forgotten why. Turning off his ipod, he threw it back on to his bed before looking around the room. He found out he was the only one there and couldn’t help but frown. It wasn’t like him and Sungkyu were dating so why did he expect the older to wake up beside him with a smile on his face? He only sighed before climbing out of the bed also. Walking out into the living room, he noticed the leader speaking with Woohyun. Woohyun was an unspoken rival his. It wasn’t like he didn’t like the other hyung, but fans paired him and the leader up together so much that his heart ached. Deciding it’s best to just get ready for the day, he made his way to the bathroom without drawing any attention to himself.

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Once he finished, he walked out of the bathroom with a towel over his head with fresh clothes on. His hair was dripping wet and he wasn’t even in the mood to dry it for once. He heard the other members cracking up jokes about how Apink’s dorm was not far from theres and how they should all visit. Of course Sungkyu also participated in this whole silly idea they had and Sungjong couldn’t help but feel a tug at his heart. Of course every member was clearly straight in this group and having Apink near them would fire up their hormones and need of getting laid. Sungjong had a 0% chance of getting with the leader and he knew this so well.

“Yah, Sungjong. Want to participate? Since today is our day off we’re going to go have some fun!” Sungyeol spoke with pure evil behind his voice. The makane only shook his head.

“I’m… going to pass. I don’t want to get in trouble for stalking female idols~” Sungjong spoke as he stuck his tongue out at his ridiculous hyung.

“Don’t be such a party pooper. There’s 7 of them and 7 of us. We all can have one!” Dongwoo spoke with a grin. Sungjong only rolled his eyes as he continued shaking his head.

“Yah, if you all want to go meet them then do it by all means. As for me, unless they can do female dances better than I can I won’t be interested~” And of course no one did do them better than he did. He knew this well and in a way, he felt slightly ashamed of being so cocky about it. It shouldn’t be such a good thing that he was more amazing than a female at creating S-lines and doing amazing body waves. But it was all the truth. Without another word though, he walked back inside his room completely uninterested in what the other members were going to plan up next.

Falling on to his bed, hair still soaked, he picked up his ipod and placed his headphones back on before listening to Sungkyu’s voice once more. He heard all of the members evacuate the dorm and knew they were all going to have fun with the females. Why did he have to turn so weird and fall for the leader? Sitting up, he grabbed his stuff bear and started beating at it once again. His punches were thrown at it with no mercy as he huffed out in annoyance. After a few minutes he decided to stop and embrace the bear as he paid attention to the song. Fingers went to turn the music up louder as he imagined what it would be like in Sungkyu’s embrace, to have his voice right by his ear whispering sweet nothingness with his eyes closed. He wanted everything the song was speaking of from the singer himself. He knew it was more than impossible. The younger felt his own heart ache at the very thought of wanting to be just a bit closer to someone he can’t have. Why was life so complicated?  The makane completely immersed himself into the song, not letting anything in reality bother him.

Without even noticing when, he felt the towel on his head move to dry his hair. His eyes fluttered open when he felt the bed dip and he looked up to come into contact with someone that made his face flush red. Almost instantly, his hand reached to turn the music off as he swallowed hard. If the leader asked, he could say that he was listening to their album. Glancing around nervously, he wasn’t sure what to say asides from the obvious. “W-… What are you doing here?”

“Making sure you don’t get sick leaving your hair wet.” The leader replied with little to no emotion as if it was the most obvious thing on earth.

“Shouldn’t you be with the others though?”

“How could I go when there’s the youngest member that’s staying home? They can all take care of themselves.” He felt his face heat up more at the caring words as he just rubbed his cheeks against his stuff bear. The leader really didn’t make things any easier for him.

“I’m old enough to take care of myself though, despite being the youngest”

“I don’t really believe that. You haven’t eaten anything since you woke up, aren’t you hungry?” He could hear the worry behind his voice. The leader was too caring when they were alone like this. He felt the towel become removed from his head and couldn’t help but look up at the older in bewilderment. “Come on, I’ll make you something to eat.”

Sungjong just shook his head, not feeling hungry at all. “It’s fine hyung. Go have fun with the others”

“Yah, I’m the leader. You’re the makane. Last I check you’re suppose to listen to me, not tell me what to do” The leader’s voice came out stern and Sungjong couldn’t help but pout heavily at it.

“I’m not hungry though. I said I’m fin—“

“You’ve been beating that bear ever since we moved here, and surely you don’t beat it every night from what I remember. If there’s something wrong, you should let me know” The makane could only bite on his bottom lip being found out. What excuse could he make up?

“I-.. It’s nothing, hyung.” He could feel the other sigh before feeling a hand run through his brown locks.

“Sungjong-ah. You sh—“

“I said I’m fine!” The makane gave the leader a big pout, trying to make the other drop the topic.

The leader only sighed before nodding, giving up. “Alright, If you nee—“

“I said I’m fine, hyung. You’ll become an old man faster than the Super Junior members if you keep worrying like this.” The makane couldn’t help but tease. He felt a flick to his forehead and couldn’t help but release a small whine as he placed both hands over the area in pain. “Y-Yah!... T-That hurts.”

He received no reply from the other as his eyes were shut closed and he was trying hard to rub the pain away. A few seconds later he opened his eyes and he noticed his very own ipod in the hands of the elder. His face flushed furiously as he leaned over his bear, trying to grab at his device. “Y-Yah!!! T-That’s mines!”

“It’s yours yet my song is most played? That’s a bit surprising.” He could hear the smugness in the older’s voice as he grabbed the device away. “I-… It… It’s because …” He tried hard to think of an excuse but couldn’t come up with much of any. He wasn’t sure what to say. “I just… relate to the song. T-That’s all!” He heard a small laugh emit from the older and instantly threw his bear at him. “Yah! Leave me alone. Don’t flatter yourself!”

The elder seemed completely un-phased by his words as he only looked across the room in a slight daze. “Yah, Sungjong-ah. What would you do if I said I knew someone liked you?”

Sungjong couldn’t help but flush. Would it be the hyung himself? It can’t be… right? There’s no way since Sungkyu would actually fess up to it himself. Despite being shy Sungkyu wouldn’t use such means to confess. Maybe he didn’t go because he knew someone in Apink liked Sungjong and is trying to get him to meet her. Sighing, he shrugged. “I don’t know. Do we know her?”

“Him.” With that simple correction, Sungjong felt his heart beat racing against his chest. Him. He wasn’t sure what to say with that. “I-…. Is.. he in the… group?” He didn’t get why he hesitated. There’s no way it would’ve been the so—a nod only confirmed it for him and he couldn’t help but prayed it was the elder. He wanted it to be the elder so bad, to make his dreams come true. Glancing up at his facial features though, there was no signs of any emotions on it and he couldn’t help but frown slightly by it. “Who is he?”

“Ermm.. Hoya.” Sungjong couldn’t help but go ‘oh’ because he already knew that. He knew Hoya liked him, Hoya even confessed. Though, Sungjong already told the other he wasn’t interested because during that time he wasn’t interested in anyone, not even dating. Now he is interested in the leader and yet Hoya still comes up. He just fell back on to his pillow and shrugged.

“I already knew that, hyung…” He felt a light nod come from the older male.

“R-Right. What happened then? Are you two secretly dating without telling the rest of us or something?” Sungjong couldn’t help but sit up and glare at the older. What kind of joke was that?

“Are you stupid, hyung?”

“You shouldn’t be so mean to your leader.” He spoke with a grin, ruffling up the younger’s hair. Sungjong couldn’t help but feel annoyed still at the way the elder spoke. It was as if his feelings weren’t obvious at all.

“I’m not being mean, I’m just asking a simple question. Surely if him and I were dating then we would be sharing the same room, right? Did you forget he was the one that decided to switch rooms with you?” Sungjong spoke with annoyance.

“Did you two argue than? … it’d be best to make u—“

“Hyung-ah!! Aish! Quit speaking like you don’t know! I have no interest in him! If you’re here to make me fall for him than you can just forget it! I’m not at all interested in going out with someone that I don’t have feelings for” The makane spoke sternly before falling back on to his bed, hugging his bear closely to his chest in completely annoyance.

“It wouldn’t hurt to tr—“

He chucked his bear once more at the leader, letting it fall to the floor this time before sitting up once more. “Hyung! If you want me to try it with him then how about you try dating me for once? You wouldn’t want to date someone you don’t like right? Just st—“

“I wouldn’t mind.” His hyung’s voice came out confident and bold. Sungjong was almost speechless.

“W-…What?... You’re funny hyung, I’m not in the mood.” The makane spoke.

“Aish… But Hoya really—“

“I really like you.” Sungjong’s voice came out boldly, a bit too boldly.

“I already know” Sungkyu’s voice was just simple and to the fact, it almost broke Sungjong’s heart.

“Y-… You know and yet…”

“It won’t work Sungjong-ah…”

“Because you like Woohyun, is that why?!” Sungjong felt himself tense up and blurt out. He didn’t know what came over him, but rejection was something he couldn’t deal with. Not now.

“I-it isn’t l—“

“It is so! You’re always with him! You’re so happy with him and everything! I’m just that little dongsaeng that burdens you, aren’t I? If you want him so much than just move into the same room as him! Just leave me alone! Don’t try to hook me up with someone in hopes I’ll do it first!” The makane blurted as he pushed his leader off his bed before running out of the room with his ipod in hand. He heard the older try to stop him, but he quickly placed his shoes on and quickly rushed out of the dorm before the leader could say anything else.

Running down the halls with tears threatening to fall down his face was hard, mostly when s were there and were trying to stop him from going on any further. Despite hearing their worried voices he pushed passed them all and continued running until he got out of the building. He felt the tears burning their way down his cheeks as he looked up at the rain. Pulling on his hood, he tried to make his vision less blurry by pushing the tears away. Why did the leader have to make things so difficult for him? Placing his headphones on once again, he pressed play. The voice of the elder rang through his ear as he caught his breath before running out into the depressing weather. He had no strength to click pass the song, he just couldn’t. As he ran he tried hard to wonder why he liked the jerk so much, the male that tried to set him up with someone else, the male that only saw Woohyun. Soon, he felt his legs giving out from running so much and came to a slow halt at a park.

Walking over to a bench, he sat down as he pulled his hood more so over his head in hopes no one would see him. He didn’t want to be bothered by anyone, he just wanted to sit and wait until he woke up from this nightmare. Maybe if he didn’t act so rationally and run out things would still be alright. He feared walking back to the dorm now, worried about the other members questioning him. Blasting the song up, he let himself get immersed in the leader’s voice. It broke his heart to hear it, but at the same time it really calmed him. Unlocking his ipod, he looked through all of the photos he had snuck of their leader. How charismatic he is, how handsome he looked like, how hardworking he is, and how sweet he really was. When he came up to the last photo, he felt his tears come harder. Last night replaying in his head. No wonder the elder didn’t hug him to bed or stay by his side until he woke up. Pulling his legs up on to the bench, he hugged them close as he buried his head in them. Sobbing silently, he didn’t even notice when an umbrella was placed over his head until he felt a presence by his side. He chose to ignore it though, figuring it was just one of the other members that tried following after him.

When he felt himself being hugged tightly against the other, he couldn’t help but feel better even though he didn’t want to be. He just rested his head against the unknown shoulder, wishing he could somehow make him forget all about his unrequited love. Without any warning, his headphones were pushed off his head and he felt himself being moved on to the male’s lap. “… You never let me finished…” The voice came so softly by his side, as if Sungjong would break out in more tears. When he realized who the voice belonged too, he had the urge to pull away. To push the other and run more. To forget that he even existed, but the arms around his waist just made it too difficult. “Let me finish, alright Sungjong?...”

The makane could only nod, unsure as to what else to do. It wasn’t like eh could leave even if he wanted to so what was the point of asking?

“I… really do like you, a lot Sungjong. So much that it hurts. When I found out you like me also, I was… more than happy. But, you mean so much to me that I won’t be able to bear it if I hurt you. Before I found out, I always tried to push you away from me. I did hope that you’ll continue to dislike me, but you ended up falling for me too… It’s difficult for me.” He could feel how nervous the elder was as he held him. He didn’t understand why it was so difficult for the elder and it was as if he read his mind. “We’re both males, both band mates… and I’m the leader. I can’t just take advantage of one of my members… Not when one of the others likes you. That’s why I was trying so hard to get you to like him. So that you won’t keep trying to go after me. I didn’t want to share the same room as you because I fear that I’ll end up losing myself and completely take ad—“

“Who said you had to hold yourself back? If you know I like you then you should know …. I want you hyung. I want to be hyung’s boyfriend, to be able to have kisses from hyung and wake up with hyung in the morning. When I didn’t see you this morning I was somewhat hurt…I…”

“Mianhae. I just don’t want you r—“

“Sungkyu-Hyung! Answer me something, do you like me?” Sungjong asked boldly as he looked at his leader straight in the face. He noticed the blush that came upon it as he nodded slowly. “Then can’t we go out? You’re being ridiculous and now we’re out in the cold rain because you’re trying to come up with reasons not to date me!”

He noticed his leader glancing away with a sigh. “I know… I just…”

“Don’t make up anymore excuses hyung… If you like me than… let’s just start dating. Please… The urge of it all has been killing me, I really want to be with you..” Sungjong spoke softly as he wrapped his arms around his leader’s neck, in hopes it would encourage the leader somewhat. “If you don’t want me then I’ll be making you regret it! Not by going out with Hoya but by teasing you to death around the dorm…. You’ll regret it big time!”

He knew the leader wouldn’t be able to say no to that. He might not have known the leader liked him but he did know his ability to dance girl moves amazingly had an effect on him. His cuteness also had an effect… actually, everything he did. Why did he never notice? Feeling the older sigh, he gave a nod. “You make it impossible to decline… Just don’t be disappointed when you realize I’m not the kind of boyfriend you want…”

“Yah, that’s up for me to decided. Stupid-leader-hyung. You need to make it up to me, my eyes hurt so badly from all of the crying….” Sungjong spoke in a whinny voice as he rubbed at his eyes. He knew how shy the older could be with skinshipping that was more than hugs and he was going to make sure he get him comfortable with it.

“W-What do you expect me to do?...”

“Kiss. I want a kiss.”

“E-Ehh? Yah! Sungjong. What does a kiss have to do wi—“

“I said make it up to me. I never said it had to deal with it. Now where’s my kiss?” Sungjong spoke with annoyance in his voice as he puffed his cheeks out. He only got Sungkyu to look away with embarrassment as he tried to balance the umbrella over them. Surely this will take some time.

“Stupid-hyung….” He sighed out, giving up. “Sing ‘Because’ for me then? …” His voice came out calm as he rested his head against the leader’s shoulder. Feeling a nod, he heard the song come out softly by his ear. Despite how stupid his hyung may have been, he was happy to be with him.

“I better always stay in your heart, Sungkyu ~” Sungjong spoke teasingly by his ear before getting off his lap and running off towards the direction of their apartment. Sungjong knew the leader had a red face before he closed the umbrella and ran after him. Despite the still rainy day, he couldn’t help but feel happy now.

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i apologize for fail. :C