Love is pain. Pain is love.

The past haunts me. Every night the nightmare comes out and eats me alive. For the past 20 years, I have been living like a lifeless soul. I was living for Myungsoo. If he wasn't so important to me, I wouldn't be living. Holding him in my arm, I feel at peace. No more nightmares. Myungsoo, why do we have such a hard life? I know for sure that in the future, you will have to face my brother Woohyun. I don't know if I can protect you against him...I am powerless. My power have been draining ever since you were locked away and your memories were sealed. Your blood is what's making me strong...if only you knew how weak I am. 

I know that I have to hurry up and find out what is making me so weak. Is it age? Is it the blood thirst? I have to find out. I got no time left...

"Sunggyu?" Myungsoo mumbled, distracting me from my thoughts.

"Yes, my love?"

"What's wrong? You know you can tell me anything right?" Myungsoo said, with a frown on his face.

"I know. Nothing is wrong, my love." 

I kissed his cheek lightly and his ears turned red.

"I am just worry about you." He said, looking away.

I turned his head so that he can look at me in the eye.

"I don't want you to be worry about me. I can handle anything."

"This isn't your battle alone, Sunggyu. This is our battle. We are in this together." Myungsoo said.

I smiled sadly at him.