I am Changed
Healing Me, Jekyll
It is 8 in the morning. I wake up and look at the table beside my bed. No message.
Robin definitely did not show up last night, too. It is already a month since he left.
"Goo Seo Jin, let's not see each other again. Don't seek me out again."
The truth is he never left, he is just a part of me right now. He is me, I am him.
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Knock on the door, and I hear the creak sound from its opening. The woman, she smiles at me. I am giving my best smile and I am just happy.
Is this it? The normal life I have yearned for years? If it is, I would not ask for more.
"Did you sleep well?" she asked me as she walks towards me, breaking my thought.
"Never better. How about you?" I asker her back. She comes closer to my bed and sits beside me.
"It's been a long time actually since I can sleep early. I am dissapointed because I am dragging this all away by myself. It should be sooner I give you this brand new life. I am sorry." She grabs my hand and caresses it.
I immediately pull her in my embrace. "I am happy right now. Just seeing you here makes me happy. No need to be sorry. I am more sorry."
She deepens her head to my embrace.
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"How do you think about this, Sangmunim?" she shows me a new concept for her new circus parade. It will be their 40th anniversary soon and I know this is so important for her.
I look away from my tablet and immediately see her proposal. It is good actually. I already can imagine a beautiful parade with colorful costumes and decorations. Not to mention they will also bring the circus animals too. It will be a huge anniversary party for them and a good event for Wonderland, too. Ah, still business. Yeah, I am still Goo Seo Jin, by the way. The only thing is I don't look at her circus proposal indifferently like the first time I tried to chase them out of Wonderland. Aissh, nasty me.
"Sangmunim?" Hana-ssi asks me again.
"It's good. It's wonderful. Ryu Sangmunim will definitely accept this idea. No worry." I smile at her. "Anything I can help you with?"
Her eyes widen. She chuckles right away.
"Why are you laughing?" I ask her.
She still laughs. I must be having a very confused look right now.
"Can I not help you?" I ask her again.
Finally, she ends her laughter and puts her serious face.
"Sangmunim. I don't even know the day like this will be coming. I mean, with you. Like I said before, you must be really a warm hearted and good person before, and even now." She says these words with sincere look in her eyes. "I am happy that I could be having this kind of conversation with you like this."
"You know I am more happy since I could always see and make you smiling all day. I am glad you make me changed." I said back to her.
"You are free, Goo Seo Jin." she just smiles.
"That actually sounds better, huh?" I .
"What?" She put her confused look.
"Seo Jin-ah. Try it. You don't love your Sangmunim (boss). You love a man named Goo Seo Jin. I am not a Sangmunim anymore by the way." I look at her longingly, waiting her response.
"I am changing. I am changed. And you are the reason. Thank you for always being by my side."
(Goo Seo Jin)
"This ride is unpredictable. But, I ride it and enjoy it. Then, I love it."
(Jang Ha Na)
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