“Are you okay? I’m sorry she needs me again tonight.” He said.

“It’s okay, I’m all well. Just take your time.” I replied, as I slide down the sharp blade against my skin again.

I lost count. Truth to be told, I really had lost count. Ever since his ex came into the our happy picture and claimed she ‘unexpectedly’ and currently carried his baby. It was an understatement to say I was surprised. I was beyond traumatized. This is the 2nd time for me to face this kind of . I thought my ex-ing-boyfriend case was enough. But seems like my life challenges had not satisfied of slapping me in the face. This just had to happen.

“Baby, I am really sorry…I know I’ve promised you to come home for dinner but..” He tried, yet again, to apologized.

“Hae.. You know there’s still a lot of time for it right? It’s okay. I can wait.” The blood was dripping down on the floor like a huge waterfall. I managed to convinced him, while scratching a fresh new pattern on the back of my elbow.

“But—” “Hae-ah~ I’m hungry…You said you want to cook for me?” That voice. Her voice just had to appear when I was talking to him! She had had him for the whole week! Can’t she just give a little moment for me and Donghae to have a private time at least on the phone?

A new angry scratched against my red-almost blue skin.

“Yes, yes. Please wait. I am going to.” I heard he responded. How sweet. And now the tears is flowing the same amount as the blood. I just don’t care anymore.

“Baby, I- I have to go. Please take care. Okay?” He concernedly reminded. I internally scoffed. Take care? I have to take care of myself meanwhile she got you spoiling her all day long?! Nice one, Donghae.

“Sure. Don’t worry too much.” I don’t even know why I said that. It’s obvious on how you didn’t even care about me that deep anymore since she came. 1 phone call only after 2 weeks, not to mention the limited duration of talking.

I qui