Eunji’s POV

“I have my first anniversary with Chorong next week. What should I give to her?” Bomi asked me while searching couple stuffs in Internet

“why asked me?”

“of course, because you are an expert”

I laughed “No, i’m just a player”

“Haha..no difference”

“Yeah...” i smiled.....well, just try my best to look happy.

So this is me. Jung Eunji. And she is my bestfriend since I was baby, Yoon Bomi. We live together in a same apartment, our parents bought us this apartment because our parents are good friends as well. Beside being good friends, they are also known as business-mate who has the biggest company in Seoul. But, everything has its “but”.

“Yah! Yoon Bomi” someone came in to our house “i’ve been texting and calling you since morning, but you didn’t text or call me back. Do you wanna die?”

“Cho-chorong ah”

Yeah, our “but” is Park Chorong. The girl whom Bomi date with, and the girl that i love....secretly of course.

“You don’t have to fight here though. Please go outside, Sir and Ma’am” i said jokingly

“It’s not funny, Eunji” Chorong said

“Chorong-ah. Let’s talk outside”

“But—“

“Kajja” Bomi pulled her hand and bring her out.

Sigh. How can i life this way?

“Yah Jung Eunji you are a player. You can find thousand girls out there. But how can you end up falling in love with your bestfriend’s girlfriend? Are you crazy?” i said to myself

I don’t know. It just happened. I mean I’m falling in love with her just like that. But, what can  i do? This is love, you know. You can be in love whereever, whenever, and for whomever, even your bestfriend’s gf. But, why? Why it should be me? There are many people out there, but why me? I never wished to be in love with her. But i am. I never wished to love her. But I do. Love is difficult. Well...at least just for me.

Someone entered our house, and it’s Bomi

“did she break something, again?” i asked

“no this time”

“You two need to stop fighting. It’s so annoying to see her shouts and yells like that in our house? I need a better life though” i joked

“she just loves me too much”

I laugh in my pain “Haha, i guess so”

*****

Right after i woke up, there’s something smells so good from our kitchen

“Is Bomi cooking?”

So i walk to the kitchen and not find Bomi but Chorong instead

“Mwoya?”

She turns her head back to look at me

“Oh, Eunji-ya, wake up already? I cook something for you two to eat”

Sigh “You must have nothing to do in your home, this is so early and you came all the way here just to make our breakfast? I heard that your grades are bad, what will you do with that?” I asked sarcasmly

“Ayyy don’t talk about grades in Holiday”

“Ya..ya..ya whatever”

She puts all the breakfast that she prepared on the table, she does look like a Woman, i mean not a girl, but a women. And she looks so pretty with that apron on her.

“Anyway, i didn’t see Bomi” i tried to look for a topic to control my thought before it goes too far

“ I don’t know but seems like someone is taking a—“

Before Chorong finished her sentence, a familiar loud voice suddenly heard

“Omo my girl is here. Let’s see what we got here” she took a seat right in front of me and put a big bread in her small lips

“Ya! You idiot. Eat slowly” Chorong gives her a glass of water

“Where have you been? Came like that and eat these all. Chorong cooked these for both of us”

She laughed“I was taking a bath, i know she will come here”

“well...whatever” i said and took my bread before Bomi eats them all.

“so, what’s your plan today?” chorong suddenly asked

“Yeahh, i have to go to Daegu. You know, my job isn’t easy”

Chorong pouts “you really have to go there?”

“except you want a jobless girlfriend”

“Yah! Why do you always leave her?” I asked. She always leaves Chorong because her job. I hate to see Chorong in our house all the day just waitting for Bomi. I hate to see her sad, and tired of waitting. I mean, i’m here, why would she wait for someone that always leaves her, here i am...the one who always stand next to her.

“You know that I don’t want to leave her like that too, don’t you?”

I nod “do well on your job....and you love life” i pat her back and leave them.

I do love both of them, but seeing them any longer just breaks my heart.

“Eunji-ah” a sweet voice called my name, and i’m sure that voice belongs to Chorong.

I turn my head to look at her

“Chorong? Why are you here?”

“Bomi is preparing”

“ohhh” i nodded

There’s no one who makes a sound for a few seconds before Chorong starts to talk again

“I sometimes so tired, you know”

I smile “because she isn’t normal? Well, we are the same”

She just laugh

“Do you think that she loves her job more than she loves me?”

I look at her, confused of her question “Isn’t the answer too obvious though?”

“Obvious? I really don’t know the answer”

I took a deep breath “you can’t be compared to her job. I mean, she loves her job, but you are everything for her. Her job isnt even a comparison.”

She starts to smile “do you think so?”

I nod “Yes, I do”

“So, how does it feel has a Journalist girlfriend?” I asked

“Tiring.”

“And...?”

“You know, just tiring.”

“But at least she could treat you with her own money, unlike me” i smile weakly “i’m just using my parents’ money, playing with the girls, and all I know is having fun”

“You aren’t that bad”

“But still, i am bad”

“Eumm....i think you need a girlfriend”

“I like a girl”

“Oh ya?” she asked doubtly.

Of course, Jung Eunji  is a popular player, and it’s quite impossible that she likes someone. I think, that’s what Chorong think right now.

“But she never likes me”

She laughed “Yah! Jung Eunji! How can you said that kind of statement?”

“Player is a human as well”

“Allright...allright...” she pats my back “have you even try to confess?”

“nope”

She hits my arm “how can i have such stupid friend?”

“Yeah i know im stupid. But confess to her? It think it’s quite impossible”

“Why? Just for your info, whoever it is, she would be moved and touched if you confessed to her with sincerity. So if you are sure that you really love her, why not try to confess first?”

“im not sure, I think she has girlfriend already”

“Errr....it isn’t easy. So, what will you do? Give up just like a loser? Or fight for her?”

I shook my head “I don’t know”

“Heiii. This isn’t Eunji that I know”

I try to smile “but now you are seeing the real Eunji”

“Nope. Eunji I know is someone that always fight for everything”

“Am i like that?”

“Yeah...at least in my eyes” she said jokingly

I give her a wide smile

“Thanks Chorong-ah” I messed her cute bangs

“Yah don’t do it” she hits my hand and fixed her messy bangs “Bomi likes my bangs the best, so it must looks pretty all the time” she said with her cute voice

“I think you are prettier without bang” i take a look at her face “ah..no...you look cute with them. You have to keep them on” i said

She nods cutely.

How can i not fall in love with this cutie?

Sorry Bomi, but i’m so in love with your girlfriend.

Chorong’s POV

I try to smile and be positive. Well, Eunji is right. All i need to do right now is keep supporting her and be a good girlfriend.

“Eat this for your lunch later” i give Bomi a lunch box

She smiles “You really don’t need to do this”

“Ani...it’s okay”

“allright, thanks. I promise you, i’ll take the breaks after this, so we’ll celebrate our first anniv together. It’s my promise”

“I’ll definately will look for another boy or girl to spend my time with in our anniv if you break your promise” i said jokingly

“YA DON’T YOU DARE”

I laughed “Ne...ne...arraseo. So, be careful on your way, you need to stop if you feel sleepy. Don’t answer your phone while driving, when you arrived, you have to call or text me. Okay?”

“you are scarier than my mom”

I hit her at arm “Ya!”

“awwww” she winced

“Hei, don’t be so over-reactting, it’s nothing than being left like this” i pouted

“ayyy, don’t start it again” she scrambled my bangs “so, i’m leaving. I’ll call you when i arrive. Tell Eunji if you want to go somewhere, she will take you there. Love you” she gave a kiss on my forhead

“ne..be careful”

She nods and then enter her car. I keep staring her car leaving this place untill it dissapear from my look.

“so where will we go today?” someone asked

“Eunji?” i take a look at her “getting ready already?” I asked. She already in her outfit, it amazes me because 10 minutes before she was still in her pajamas

“that Bomi already told me to accompany you everywhere since 2 days ago, so...”

“well....well....” i  stopped her before she complains too much like she always does “since it’s only 6 days left before our anniv, I would like to go to the mall, look for a great gift to give for Bomi. What do you think would Bomi like?”

“Aishhh this question again. I really don’t know all these anniversary gifts thingy. I never have a anniversary, my relationship always end up with i’m being caught with another girl. You know that”

“Yeahhh, as expected, Jung Eunji”

“Ok..ok..let’s stop it and just go instead”

I nod “okay”

*****

Eunji’s POV

I see her happy face after getting the gift that she would give to Bomi. She must love Bomi so much.

“i hope she likes this” she keeps on staring those couple rings

“Of course she will, it’s given by you eventhough i think this is so....yeah...you know”

She gives me her death glare “so what?” she asked me “Do you wanna die, huh?”

“W-well, i think it’s so c-cute tho” There’s nothing you can do when chorong starts glaring at you like this, or you will end up in hospital.

She smiles happily “i know right?”

I nod and smiles awkwardly, im not being over-reactted, im really scared right now.

“I hope you confess to that girl, so we can get a double date. It would be so good”

I smile weakly “oh....that’s just too imposible”

“seriously Jung Eunji, don’t act like you are so innocent”

I just laugh in my pain.

“do i know her?” she asked

“are you curious?”

“just wondering who is the girl that able to make our Eunji being so stupid like this”

You are the stupid one Park Chorong, it’s not me.

“You know her” I answered without thinking.

My heart keeps on beating so fast, i couldn’t think properly right now

“Really?” she shocked “who? Maybe i can help you if i know”

No! I can’t tell her. Her feeling isn’t the same as mine. If I got rejected, it’ll be so awkward for us to meet, and everything would be worse. So, no!

“Let’s enjoy our date instead of talking about her” I said, trying to change the topic

“Date? Bomi will kill you”

“i don’t care. Who tells her to leave you? No one, so...”

“Well, you’re right though. I’ll cheat on her a bit haha”

I smiled. Seeing her laughing like this is the thing that i always want to see. It’s like her happiness is mine too, eventhough sometimes i can’t help it when i’m feeling so broken because all the reasons she laughs is only Bomi, and never me.

“Why not try to cheat on her for real?” DAMN! MY MOUTH! Why did I ask her such stupid question? Oh my Godness, im dying now.

“Sorry, what?”

“No-nope..just j-joking”

She looks at me confusely

“ayy....d-dont take it too se-serious” i said, still with my trembling voice. Ugh my throat tho

“w-well....it was just a joke anyway, so let’s move on”

I sighed deeply and thanked God for not confessing in such dumb way.

“for how long Bomi will stay in Daegu?” i changed the topic again.

“3 days if it goes as the plan. But yeah...you know, she never on time”

“I know that very well”

She laughed “i think you know her better than i do”

“of course, we’ve been together since we were kids, don’t be jealous to me, but i know who Yoon Bomi the best”

“so, do you want to reveal some secrets to me?” she asked

I act like im thinking “but there is no something free nowadays. You should pay for something”

She gives me are-you-serious stare

“Why? You don’t want to know? There are some embarassing facts about her. Well..if you don’t want to pay, it doesn’t matter”

“well.....what do you want as the payment? Ice cream? Chocolate? Or.......”

“kiss on the cheek” i said quickly, and without thinking of course.

I mean i wouldn’t say that because im still healthy enough to do that.

“Okay” she said

Oh my......can someone just kill me right now? How can i life with this over-loaded stupidness?

“ah...you don’t need to. I will tell you for free anyway” finally i can control myself

“that’s better” she smiled

“have you ever seen this pic?” i showed her the 5-year-old Bomi picture from my phone who is crying, and....

“she was so chubby, omo why so cute”

“yeah cute, except the fact that she took her clothes off because there’s an ant in her pants”

“wait?? Ant?? Is she affraid of....ant?”

I nod “no one knows about that except me, Jung Eunji”

“tell me another secret”

“do you want to know about her first love?”

“she never tell me about that” she said

“She never told you? Omg, even her girlfriend? Ok oke, so i’m here for that” i said proudly

“Yah! It’s not something that you to be proud of”

“you don’t wanna know? Okay then”

“aishhh talking to you is so frustating” she pouted cutely

“ne..ne..i’ll tell you”

now she looks at me excitedly, waiting for me to tell her. I don’t know in your eyes, but now in my eyes, she looks so damn cute.

“w-well...” i’m so nervous right now, because my heart can’t stop beating. I need to control myself, so i take a deep breath and then tell her Bomi’s first love story.

“Bomi felt in love with this girl when she was 15, they went to the same high school, but they were in different class”

“so how did they meet?” she asked excitedly

“Bomi was getting a punishment and she was told to mop the toilet floor, and coincidentally that girl went to toilet. She didn’t know the floor was slippery, so she slipped and then fainted. Because bomi felt guilty, she took her to school health unit and wait for her until she woke up. Since that accident, Bomi kept coming to her class and they dated for about 8 months”

“why would she had to faint though? Just slipped and then fainted? Stupid Bomi, it was just a trick” chorong said jealously

“are you jealous now? Should i stop it?”

She shook her head “i want to know why they broke up”

“Allright...that day was their graduation. She asked Bomi to broke up with her, because her family want her to go to college in Singapore. So, they broke up”

“Just like that?”

I nod

“how do you know about this? Is this accurate”

“you doubt me? Let me tell you, she was crying so hard when they broke up, she didn’t eat for a week, and it made me crazy”

“okay...okay...stop it”

She looks so envy. It’s so obvious

“You are cuter than her, so there’s nothing to be envy about” i pinched her cheeks and she just smiled.

Seeing her like this is more than enough for me. I can’t make her be mine, but who cares anyway? As long as i can be with her like this, It’s enough for me.

“thanks” she said

“for what?”

“for being by my side when Bomi isn’t around”

I look at her deeply “just if you know, I do it because i love you”

I really want to say that, but yeah....i’m still healthy enough to do that.

“It must be so tiring to accompany me all the day like this”

I shook my head “Nope, it’s okay”

“I promise, i’ll treat you Ice cream”

“I’ll wait for that” i winked at her

******

Chorong’s POV

“So, you can’t back? Even on our Anniversary? But you promised me”

“Sorry” Bomi said

“You shouldn’t promise if you break it.....you are liar, i hate you” i hang up the call and threw my phone and all the things around me.

Damn you, Yoon Bomi! How could you do this to me? I’ve been so patient all this time, but seriously, on our first anniversary? You even promised me.

I can’t help it but crying. This long-awaited day end up like this?

“is something wrong?” someone entered my room and a familiar voice asked me

“Eunji” i saw the owner of the voice

“What’s wrong? Your room looks so.....messy”

“can you give me the tissue on my desk?” I asked with the tears keep falling down from my eyes

She doesn’t say anything and give me the tissues while looking confusely at me

“your friend is such a jerk. Promised and broke it? Who is she so dare doing this to me? Don’t let me see her face, or i’ll kill her”

No respond because i think Eunji is confuse right now

“She doesn’t know being left and waitting for her like this is really really not easy. I definately will kill her when i meet her.”

“....”

There’s no respond from Eunji.

“Eunji ya...are you still there?”

Still there’s no respon, so i turn back my head to see Eunji is still there or not, and she’s still there.

“let’s go!” she pulled my hand without a “Ya” from me.

“where are we going?”

“to the place where you can cry, laugh, scream and do all the things freely”

I have no choice and just enter Eunji’s car.

*5 minutes*

It didn’t take too long to go here, the place that Eunji meant.

“Wow” i’m amazed by the scene here

“do you like it?”

I nod “why i’ve never found this place before?”

“you should hang out with me more often” she said jokingly

“i guess so” i answered her joke.

So, she brought me to the mount. We can see the whole Seoul clearly here.

“Am I allowed to scream?” I asked

“Just do everything”

I took a deep breath before screaming

“YA!! YOON BOMI! WHO TEACH YOU TO MAKE A PROMISE AND THEN BREAK IT? YOU DON’T KNOW HOW I AM HAVING A HARD TIME BEING YOUR GIRLFRIEND, DO YOU? I CAN FIND SOMEONE BETTER IF I WANT, BUT WHAT CAN I DO WHEN I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH? DON’T SHOW UP IN MY EYES, OR YOU ARE DEAD”

Someone’s laughing right after i’m done

“Yah Eunji! Don’t laugh!”

She immediately cover with her hand and come closer to me.

“Why are you so cute even when you are mad?” I pinched her cheeks

I don’t know, but suddenly my tears falling down and it doesn’t stop

“Aishhh, don’t cry” she wiped my tears but it won’t stop anyway, so Eunji hugged me tightly.

“Chorong-ah” she called my name with her deep voice. She never called my like this.

“Park Chorong” she called me once again.

But I don’t look at her, and just stay in her arms who are hugging me right now. I don’t know, but this is so comfortable and warm.

“Can you just hug me like this?” I’m begging her

She doesn’t say anything and i considered it as a “Yes”.

“you don’t know, it’s harder for me to love someone that would never be mine” she said while still hugging me “your case is nothing compared to me”

I don’t say anything, and just listen to her.

“she is so pretty, and I think it’s one of the reasons why i’m falling for her” i heard she laughed.

As what i asked, she still hugs me tightly and continue her story

“i’ve never been so addicted to a smile before, but then I see her smile and start to be addicted to it”

I’m just smiling with Eunji’s story “she must be so in love” i thought

“But she’s only waitting for someone, and it’s not me. Im the one who always there beside her, but she hasn’t ever look at me. Am I invicible, huh?”

I’m not sure though, but Eunji’s story feels familiar, so i keep listening to her story

“and what even worse is, she is my bestfriend’s girlfriend”

I need a few seconds to understand what she said, and right after realizing something, I pulled away from her hug

“Eunji.....” i look at her, at her eyes

“It’s you” she said staring right in my eyes

I shook my head “it’s not the right time to make a joke like this, and this isn’t funny at all, you know”

“I love you, Park Chorong. I don’t know since when i’ve been doing this, but when you are around me, my heart can’t stop beating so fast, my hands are sweating, i can’t think properly, and i don’t even realize, since when i have a hobby watching someone’s smile, but i’m so happy when i can see your bright smile, and you don’t know when you are smiling, my world stops, capture that precious smile, and yeah...that’s my hobby now, seeing your smile. Eventhough Bomi is my friend, but when you are with her, i feel something strange in my chest, and then i realized it was something we call jealousy. I denied it at first, but i can’t help, I think it’s really love”

“E-eunji...” I’m so speechless right now

“you told me to confess to her, so...I’m doing it right now”

“But....”

She smiled weakly “see? I told you it’s impossible”

“But....”

“am i rejected right now? Ahhh....what did I expect? Of course I would be rejected” she said with her smile, i don’t know but looking at her teary eyes right now make me sure, it’s a fake smile.

“Eunji-ya”

I really don’t know what to do right now, im feeling so guilty and feeling this isn’t right.

“It’s okay. I was too sassy to be in love with you. It’s not your fault, don’t feel guilty” she tried to comfort me, while she herself maybe worse than me inside.

“I do love you, but it’s not like that”

“it’s okay. I know it” she still gives her smile

“but still.....i’m sorry”

She tries to hide her eyes, but everyone can clearly tell that she is crying now
“i really have no chance anymore?” she finally asked what she has been holding in.

I really don’t know what to do. I feel something for her, but im not sure if it’s love in that way. And i’m still Bomi’s girlfriend, i’m still her bestfriend’s girlfriend.

“well...I think it would awkward for us to meet each other, so i’ll go and let you happy with Bomi. Don’t bother me. I’ll try to forget everything today....although im not sure whether i can or not”

“No...you won’t go anywhere” I don’t know why but i can’t let her go

She doesn’t listen to what i said, and keep on walking.

I didn’t even realizing that my shirt is so wet of tears and just staring at her leaving me, until she disappears, and there’s no Eunji in my life anymore.

*****

Since that day, i’ve never met Eunji, and I broke up with Bomi. Not because she broke her promise, but because i feel something strange after Eunji confessed and after i wasn’t able to see her anymore.

“whoever it is, she would be moved and touched if you confessed to her with sincerity”

So, this is how that sentence works.

I just realized that i have that “feeling” after i know that she loves me and she even willing to hurt herself just to made me laugh and smile. How could I be so stupid that i didn’t know anything about Eunji.

People say “We know that we love someone when they aren’t around us” and i think that’s what happened to me right now. Thanks Eunji, you taught me precious thing.