The day rose to a warm sunny day, then I looked out of my window seeing the ray of sunlight peering into my room.

 

I turned my body to pick up my phone and noticed the date, June 8^th, 2015; today is graduation day. A long sigh escaped my lips as I thought about my plans.

 

“I can’t do it” I thought to myself as I covered my eyes with my arm

 

My heart was racing just thinking about him. He has been on my mind so much lately and it has been slowly killing me. I got out of bed slowly as then I made my way to the bathroom to freshen up. As I finished getting myself ready from the bathroom, I walked back into my room and sat on the bed; then he popped into my head again, you Choi Junhong.

 

My feelings for this guy started to spark during February of 2015, but I had the longest crush on him. My crush started out during my junior year during my AP Psychology class. At first I wasn’t too fond of him, and I didn’t care much about him. Then I started to have a crush on him when I noticed how smart he was, then after the little things; like his smile captivated me. The way he glanced at me when I stated something in class, the way he looked at me when I spoke to him; it drove me crazy but not that crazy. During my junior year my feelings for him wasn’t clear since I was so blinded by my academics.

 

I never understood the feeling of infatuation before, my friends would explain it to me but I never understood it clearly. Then as I entered into my senior year of high school, I noticed how much I do like this guy. Everything about him started to drive me crazy, just having his presence around me made me so nervous. I wanted to hide my feelings until graduation day, the day that I was going to spill everything to him.

 

I remember a time when my heart raced as I saw him look straight at me, my palms started to sweat as I looked away. I didn’t want to see him; I didn't want to be in the same room as him, I didn't even want to be there. Then as I calmed myself down, I heard his voice; “Are you okay?”

 

“Yes I am, don’t worry about it” I said

 

“If you need help, just ask me” He said

 

I couldn’t help but feel a type of spark there; I couldn't help but feel my feelings grow for him each day.

 

Then I thought to myself clearly; I am going to confess, I am going to do it.

 

I entered into my school and saw a bunch of my friends. They all greeted me with big smiles. We conversed amongst each other, sharing each other’s feelings about graduating and how we felt about going to college. Then as we chatted my friend Jae looked at me and put up two fingers like a peace sign. This symbolized his codename #2 which is his ranking in our class.

 

“YAH! Jae! Stop that!” I said as I smacked her hand

 

“Hey, this wouldn’t be so hard for you if you just listened to me, and confessed your feelings last week” Jess said

 

“Shut up” I murmured under my breath

 

“Really though, what are you afraid of?” Sabrina asked

 

“Him saying no” I stated

 

“But what if it is a yes?” Ashley said

 

“I don't know….” I said

 

“You know, you could have asked him to prom” John said as he crept into the conversation

 

“, shut the up. It isn’t that easy” I said as I smacked his head

 

“So when are you going to do it?” Elf asked

 

“Maybe after we go up” I said and they all sighed

 

“I wonder how this is going to end” Jess said

 

I sighed softly as I looked at them, they wanted me to have confidence in myself but I was always so nervous. I couldn’t really speak around him because I was afraid my face was going to turn red.

 

“Congratulations to the class of 2015!”

 

We all got up on our feet and threw our caps as I hugged Jess. I was so happy that I am going to leave this hellhole and in the midst of this celebratory moment. Jess turns to me

 

“Get ready” She teased and then I remembered what she meant and my heart dropped

 

As I was walking with Jess, we were trying to gather up the rest of our friends and then I noticed him from across the field. Jae pushed me and I glared at her smiling face.

 

“I will kill you” I said as I started to gather up my confidence to approach him

 

As I slowly made my way up to him, every step felt like it was making my legs feel weaker. I didn't even have to get close to him when I saw him turn his head and his eyes looked straight at me. I felt my body freeze, we were just a foot away from each other and I felt like he could hear my heartbeat. I wanted to turn around, but then my legs made their way towards him. I could feel my face turning red, and I couldn’t look at him. I wanted to see that smile of his, but I didn’t want to show him my red face.

 

“Con…congra….tlations…” I stuttered

 

“You too” He said

 

I felt my heart racing even faster as I looked at him, I saw his smile and I took a step back.

 

“May.. I talk to you in private?” I asked and he nodded

 

I brought him to a quiet area then I started to fidget my fingers, I didn’t know how to confess my feelings. This is actually my first time doing it face to face with someone and I started to get even more nervous. His voice woke me up from my train of thought

 

“So what did you want to tell me?” He asked

 

“Uhmmm…. How do I start this…. I never really… Uhh…” I said out loud and I heard him chuckle

 

“Just tell me” He said

 

I gave out a deep sigh, “Ireallylikeyouandifyoudontlikemebackthatiscool,iamusetorejectionitisnothingnew;maybeyoudontevenwantagirlfriendandiunderstandthattoo.soitsano?okay,iunderstand.bye” I said quickly as I was about to leave

 

“You didn't even let me answer…” He said

 

I turned around and looked at him

 

“Huh?” I said

 

“I like you too” He said

 

I couldn’t handle his answer, but I walked back to him and I noticed how red his cheeks were

 

“I understand how nervous you may be, I wanted to confess to you too… but I didn't know how…” He said

 

At this moment I was just speechless, I couldn’t say anything but

 

“YOU REALLY LIKE ME?!” I yelled out and he nodded

 

I squealed as I gave him a tight hug, and I heard him chuckle as he wrapped his arms around me. Then I heard it, I heard his heart; it was racing just like mines.

 

Then I felt his chest turn into a pillow and my heart dropped, I didn’t understand what was going on. I woke up quickly and felt my blanket drop off my shoulder, I looked around the room and noticed it was all a dream.

 

I wanted to cry, I felt my heart drop and I felt my eyes getting teary. Then I heard my door creak open, “Hun are you okay?” My heart started to race as I heard his voice

 

“It can’t be..” I said as I got out of bed and raced to my bedroom door, I swung it open and I saw him standing there with his messy hair

 

“You… You… so it wasn't a dream” I mumbled as he walked into the room and laid on the bed

 

“What stupid things are you saying this time hun” He said as he wrapped his body with the blanket

 

“What is today’s date?” I asked

 

“And they say the guys are the stupid ones in the relationship, June 8^th, 2019; its our anniversary” He said

 

I thought to myself “We have been together for 4 years…what?!”

 

“So are you just going to leave or come cuddle?” He said

 

I couldn’t help but jump on the bed; Hugging him and as I pecked his cheek “You are mines. Mine,mine,mine” I sung out

 

“Yeah, I know” He said as he kissed my cheek