MEMORIES

I thought, i have forgotten her. I thought my brain has been restarted so i don’t know everything about her anymore, yeah i thought i did it untill she appeared again right in front of my eyes, and in that damned 1 sec, every ing single things that we did in the past replaying in my head.

Past

“oh...you wake up? Did you sleep well?” she ask while cooking

I’m backhugging her and put my head on her shoulder “Yeah, i did....what are you cooking?  It smells so good”

“firstly, can you let me to cook our breakfast freely? I can’t cook if you keep hugging me like this”

I’m laughing “why should i? Just for a breakfast? You are my best breakfast anyway” i start to teaser her, give a seductive whisper in her right ear which is her biggest weakness

“Seriously Bomi, i need to cook our breakfast”

“well...well” i release my arms around her “you are better for a dinner rather for a breakfast though” i smile

“Yah! You ie! You won’t have your breakfast this morning”

“Okay.... I heard there is a new cafe in front of our office, they said the have many beautiful waiters..........”

“DON’T EVEN DARE TO THINK TO COME THERE”  she shouts loudly.

I like if Chorong being protective over me, the way she jealous, the way she mad just make  me so in love with her, even more and more.

“But...”

“Yah Yoon Bomi, do you wanna die?” she gives me her death glare which means  that i have to shut up and just wait for my breakfast instead. I”ll just sit down in my chair before Chorong turn to be Hellrong.

 

Now

I Don’t know what brought me here, i don’t know why I went to this place, and i don’t know why i got to see her here with someone’s  arm around her. She looks skinnier, and tired. She must be so busy being a CEO’s wife, i guess.

 

Past

“Yahhh....guess what?”

Chorong seems to think something, but then Park Chorong is just being Park Chorong “Eummm...you know...i hate to guess, so...”

 “Yah! Is it so hard to use your brain even just for a second?”

“And is it so hard to just tell me anyway?” she shouts back at me

Sighs  “exactly park chorong” i whispered but i think she could hear that as she hit my arm

“Ya! Don’t do your Hapkido here”

She pouts cutely “ne....ne...so what?”

I smile brightly “I am promoted in my Job”

“Really?”

I nod “yeah...and i think im ready enough to ask for Mr. And Mrs. Park’s permission to take their dearest daughter to me”

I reach her hands, and put them in my chest “and, are you ready to be taken by me, Ms. Park?”

With her teary eyes, she nods “Yes, i am ready to be taken by you, Ms. Yoon”

I hug her tightly and so does she.

 

Now

Jung Eunji comes without guilt and give her motherly smile instead

“You are so late” i said

She gives me her lame explanation as usually

“Yah, we have been being friend since we are child, 30 minutes late is not problem for us”

I just nod “so what took you so long from your house? I think your home is way nearer than mine. Or you were too busy with girls? Again? The Japanesse girl? Or the Chinesse one? Which one this time, huh?”

She hits me “Yah!”

“So  what?”

She smiles shyly, and this isn’t Jung Eunji, i mean she is the most shameless person that i’ve ever met so far.

“ You know, she is a high-schooler”

I got a shocked for a moment “Damn you Jung Eunji! Don’t play with kid”

Eunji  is the scariest friend that i’ve ever have tbh.

“do i look that bad in your eyes? Im not playing this time”

I rolled my eyes “This is for 47481646th you said the same sentence, that “Im not playing this time” words are just bull that i have heard thousand times, you know?”

“I have never been this serious before, and you know that”

I decide to trust her “So, who’s the unlucky girl this time?”

“Why you sound like my enemy now?”

I laugh “well...who’s she?”

“She goes to my dad’s School. I went to their school to gave something for the headmaster because my dad told me to. When i was about to back, i saw her was crying alone in the basketball court, seemed like she was punished there, so i came closer to  her and we talked for a few minutes” Instead of listening to eunji’s story, my mind is flying to the past memories that i had with Chorong during our High-school period

 

Past

“Yah! Stop crying”

But chorong keeps crying

“Stop crying or i will stop you” i start to

“can you stop being a ert for a moment? This is my first time being punished like this, and it’s so embarassing to stand up here in the basketball court, everyone is looking at me” she tells me with tears keep falling down from her pretty eyes.

Of course, because Chorong is the most favourited student by all the teachers in this school, she always got the 1st place in everythings, Art, Academy, and even sport especially hapkido, she is the perfect standart for  a student in this school and also her cute looks add the positive points of her.

Thinking about how i am being a lucky one to be her girlfriend out of those thousand students who confessed to her make me decided to said to my teacher that i left my book as well. She couldn’t do this punishment just by herself

“You have your book, right?” she asked me

I nodded

“Why did you say you left your book, pabo?”

I think for a moment “i want to be punished together with you. I want the whole school to know that the perfect Chorong is being punished together with her girlfriend. You know, it’s such a honor to be here with you, Perfect Chorong”

She smiles “You are stupid”

“Yeah i am”

“it makes no sense, give me another reason”

“ehhmmm......because I can’t let you cry, it likes that i have to make you smile, because your smile is my drug”

I stop my sentence for a second before i start to talk again “and i will do everything to get my drug”

She laughs because of my cheesy words.

“Nah, you look prettier with that smile on you”

She smiles brightly, and i think her smiles is really my drug, i mean why does a smile could be so addictive like hers?

“i love you” she said with wide smiles

 

Now

“what the are you thinking right now? Oh dear God, i had been telling you a 12467Km story and you didn’t hear at all?”

“w-what?” Eunji’s satoori wake me up from my thought about Chorong

“No...no....forget it”

“Ayyy, you know that we have been friend since we were child, right?”

This time, Eunji’s turn to sigh “Y-yeahh, whatever”

“So, what’s her name?” i asked

“Naeun...Son Naeun”

“Nice name. Is she pretty?”

“of course she is”

“really?” i asked doubtly

“Don’t understimate my standart bicth”

I laugh “well...well....so why didn’t you ask her out? It’s impossible if you don’t have her kakao ID”

“Ye-yeahh but she isn’t as easy as another girls. I’m affraid that if i ask her out too soon, she might be uncomfortable with me. She is different, and it makes me want to know her more.”

“Wow, are you jung eunji?” i can’t believe my ears, did eunji really say those words? I think she is so serious this time.

“let me tell you, this is the most serious Eunji ever” she said seriously

 

Past

“DON’T COME HERE ANYMORE” Chorong shouts madly inside her room

“Please let me explain”

“there is no to explain anymore, i saw you were kissing her”

“FOR THE GOD’S SAKE PARK CHORONG, I DIDN’T KISS HER. LET ME IN! PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR”

No respond

“Please...”i say weakly.

This misunderstanding couldn’t be our reason to break  up. This is really a misunderstanding, and i need to explain the truth.

“we can’t end up like this, Chorong-ah please open the door”

Nothing respond untill i heard the sound of an open door, and it’s chorong’s room door.

I enter her room before she close it again.

“Okay” i hold her shoulders “she was the one who kissed me, it wasn’t me. You know that Hayoung have been liking me since so long time, right? She forced me to kissed her, and it just happened like that and you came. I didn’t cheat on you, and will never”

She doesn’t say anything

“You trust me, don’t you?”

She still doesn’t give any reaction, so i decide to give her a kiss in her lips. The kiss of love, the kiss that she didn’t see when Hayoung kissed me.

That kiss wasn’t so long though, because i only want to show her what “kiss” it is.

“You know the difference right now?” I asked her

She nodded slowly

I wipe her tears “You are the only one for me”

“Promise me?”

I nod

“are you serious?”

I nod

“this is the most serious Bomi ever”

She smiles “I trust you”

 

Now

“Bomi, is something wrong in your head right now?”

For the 2nd time, Eunji’s satoori wake me up from my mind

“errr... i think i need to go to toilet”

So, I get up from my seat and go to toilet.

“” i cursed myself from what i see right now “why did i go here? You are so dumb yoon bomi” i keep blaming myself.

“Bo-bomi” she called out my name. Park Chorong called me.

Damn it! Her voice calling my name is still the same, exactly the same. Please my sweat, this isn’t the right time to come out. Am i shaking right now? ! what’s wrong with me?

“Ye-yeahh” i said in trembling voice.

Ugh what the is wrong with my throat

“How....are you doing?” she asked and her voice sounds as trembling as mine

“I-I am doing good. How about you?” i think i’m starting to able to control my voice.

“me either” she asnwered my question

 

Past

“Let’s break up” she said with cold voice

“W-what?”

“Yeah...let’s break up. I don’t love you anymore”

“Sorry....but...”

“No, it’s over now. Im leaving”

I’m trying to catch her hands, and i caught it

“No... we can’t break up. I don’t want to”

She looks at me with cold expression “But i want to. Please stay away from me from this day, this hour, this minute, this second, and from this moment.”

She released my hands from hers, and my soul left my body as she left my house.

From that day, that hour, that minute, that second, and from that moment, Yoon Bomi is no longer Yoon Bomi. The cheerful Yoon Bomi has dead.

 

Now

The atmosphere here is so awkward

“Ehm...so....bye” she said and about to passed my body but I don’t know what makes me pulled her hands like what i did in the past. I didn’t mean to, but my heart did.

“I need an explanation” again, my heart really doesn’t make a good teamwork with my brain. I think to just let her go, but i don’t know, my heart want an explanation maybe

“about what?”

I smiles weakly, this time i decide to do as my heart wants “about you were leaving me” i said.

She looks uncomfortable

“do you know that i am so dead when you left me? I can’t help it, but my heart still beating so fast when i see you” my tears start to falling down, i’m trying to hold it in, but the more i try, the more it’s falling down

“ OH GOD.....WHY DID YOU LET ME MEET HER HERE???” i can’t hold it anymore, i release all the tears that i was trying to hold. I pushed her back to the toilet and lock the door.

“I need an explanation” i said once again.

She starts to cry

“You want an explanation huh? Okay, it’s because I dont love you. I dont love you. I dont love you anymore” she repeated the same sentence 3 times.

“look at my eyes and say that”

“.....”

“PARK ING CHORONG, LOOK AT MY EYES AND SAY THAT ONCE AGAIN!!!!”

She doesn’t do anything

I laugh in my pain “Hahaha...i guess i’m the stupidest human being in this world. How can i let you left just like that without knowing that you were lying? You were lying when you said you don’t love me anymore, right? Please say yes”

She gives no respon

“Chorong-ah, i still love you. What can i do about that? Should i die? It’s so hurt right here” i pointed at my chest

“Please, let me free! Im feeling so dying! Why are you doing this to me? Please let me free from this feeling” i cry harder

“Bomi-ah” she called out my name with hoarse voice “please life happily, don’t remember about us anymore. I have my own family right now. I have a hushband, and childs. I still love you and forever will be like that. But what could i do? My parents want me to got married with him. The day we broke up was a day before i start my life as His wife. I couldn’t tell you because i don’t want to dissapointed you. But if i was brave enough to told you, we might be still together right now”

“but you can divorce him and we can start from the begining again....”

“no...i can’t and we can’t”

“but you still love me, and so do i”

“Love is not enough”

I smiled weakly “Yeah...your parents won’t never let a girl marry her daughter. Now i get it”

“Bomi-ah....”

“keep smiling” i wipe her tears in her cheeks like what i used to did in the past

“Bomi-ah....”

“life happily with your family”

“Bomi-ah....”

“Don’t do your hapkido to your hushband” i try my best to laugh

“Bomi-ah....” her tears keep faling down

“I love you” i give a small peek in her cheek before leaving the toilet

Im now leaving, leaving all the memories that i had with her.

 

I still love you.

And will always do.

Even in my next life, i will still love you.

Whoever you are in next life, i think i will still love you.

What should i do with that?

Should i die?

But i will still love you.

I think my heart was made only to love you

Exactly, you are my drug.