hey seulgi!      okay, this is kinda awkward but well, it feels great to write a letter for a friend.     let me start first. how are you? you know, it's been like almost a month since I don't see you. I bet you're having fun in palmdale, california. well, it's normal in seoul here like negative one and that's normal, right?     I wrote this like a few hours before your flight to california and I am so sorry because you see, the handwritings are messy and that's your fault for not telling me that you're going to california.     because at least, I told you a day before I flew to london. eh, wait. okay, that made us even and I deserve this. sorry for thr fuss. I'm weird, you know and I hope you're not having a hard time to read this crap. it's readable, right?     happy birthday, kang seulgi!     I hope you read it on the right time because when I checked the web that you're like 17 hours late in california and I guess it's morning at palmdale and you better already wake up.     actually, I have lots of things to be write but I just don't know how to express them in words and don't blame for being such a stiff writer because it's true that it's kinda awkward to write this to you. forgive me, seul.     the last time we actually have a very long conversation was like almost years ago maybe? even though, we did talked like a few weeks ago but I mean the time when we really talk about ourselves and lots of things was like 5 years, as I remember.      yeah, the time when I was still the dumb kim jongin and you were still dorky kang seulgi, the only girl who like to hangout with me because that time, I was a total nerd. you were taller than me that time but now, who's the shortie one?     you're the coolest girl that I ever met, like seriously. you don't mind at all when you started being friends with me because yeah, who wants to be friend with a guy with thick lips and dark skin, right?     you're still look pretty great even you're getting older lol.     well, I really mean it. you're still the carefree and awesome kang seulgi even though we don't really see each other. hey, I have a spy okay lol.      I'm sorry for everything. seriously, I never thought about abandoning our friendship. I may be busy but that couldn't be an excuse for me to not talking to you. I'm so sorry for being a terrible friend, I really am.     thank you so much for understanding me. I know you will but I just can't let things happen just like this. you know, I miss talking to you. sometimes, I just want to run away from all of this and do things that I like. like playing video games all the time, eat chicken and talk to you.     I'm really glad that you make it here with us. I know, it's really hectic and busy handling our two worlds in the same time. but I know you'll always manage to take care of yourself and even everyone else well. I'm so proud of you. you deserve to have all the loves too.     you're doing perfectly great. all the practices and promotions, you deserve them. you show the world the true you and you'll always be everyone's favorite. it's really tiring and killing but I know, you will never give up easily.     seriously, 'happiness' is so goo