As i watch him bid his goodbye to our fellow members. A slight pain struck my heart. Am i ready to live for the next two years with out my beautiful cat-eyed dongsaeng.

Tears that i have held back betrayed my facade. I never meant to fall inlove with him. And that was just dead wrong since i know that hangeng still owns his heart. I walked towards my room. Our room to be exact. And hid underneath the white sheets of my bed. And there i cried my heart out.

The door opened and closed gently as the foot steps neared my bed. I shifted, facing the wall and hugged the bedsheet tighter.

"jungsu-ah, gwen chana?" he asked as he sat behind me.

"deh, gwen cha na." i replied in the barest whisper.

"save that to someone who doesnt know you,teukie." he lied down beside me. "you can't be always a relieable leader forever. If something's wrong you can tell me. My ears are available to hear you out."

"i'm ok,heechul." i sighed. "i'm just tired."

"ok. If you said so." i felt him get off the bed. "wookie's cooking dinner so fix yourself before facing them. They already had too much stress because of me."

I stared at the ceiling for five minutes. Then followed what he said. I took a shower and slipped into my sweatpants and a white shirt. I was drying my hair when the door opened once more.

"hyung, dinner's ready." ryeowook informed me. His face tells that he's worrying.

"i'll be out in a sec." i forced a smile to ease him abit.

He nodded and went back to the others. I took a deep breath and released it slowly.

"yah! That's my meat,hyung!!"donghae whined at heechul.

"i'm leaving soon so just let me eat what i want."heechul smiled and shoved the meat in his mouth.

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