“Here again.” He whispered in his self while filling his eyes with the beautiful scenery of the nearby park covered with red and orange leaves of maple and as he released a cold breathe and looked up to the bright blue sky, a sign of a beautiful weather for all the people whose striving a good and happy life, he looked tensed as cold sweat forming in his forehead and palms.

“But today I’m sure.”  His hands unconsciously picked a cigarette from the pocket of his school coat.

He grinned as he didn’t imagine that this cigar had been always by his side during this kind of situation.

“ ahaha… my baby” as this boy kissed his last cigar in his hands. Just seeing a cigar gives him more confidence.

His tensed face changed into more peaceful, as he lighted the cigar between his lips and breathe in all that minty smoke until it lasted.

He stretched his left arm holding the cigarette and his right hand grasping on the cold metal rail. The cigarette was flown away by the cold breeze, slowly falling from the top of an eight storey building.

I wish I can just fall like that, slowly but surely. What if I just ended paralyzed and not dead.” Imagining him ended up in a wheel chair with many apparatus that will keep him alive but living like in hell.

“Aish I don’t want that, just seeing this eight storey building I’m sure, I’ll be dead” with his both hands tightly holding in the rails, and half of his feet was touching the ground.

His eyes suddenly became teary as his past flashbacks from his head.

“COWARD!”  as he still can’t forget the last word from his younger twin brother, as the blood sticked in his hands as he wiped it from his brother’s wounded head. “Leave me, you coward, they’re coming, I know you can’t fight, so run, you coward” he slowly walked while witnessing his twin brother’s death.

“Tae, I know, I’m coward to leave you there and let you die. But look at me now I have the courage to face the fear of everyone in this world, DEATH!”

 In my dreams I’ve done it several times, but today, I found my courage.”  as the cold wind kissed his tears away in his face.

His eyes were closed but he can clearly heard the noises from the school ground. He just opened his eyes as he was irritated by the consecutive sounds of a gadget, and a voice from a boy that is like teasing him from afar.

“Go on, do it!” it’s the voice that he clearly heard.

“Aish!... You--…” a very blinding light is what he saw as he opened his eyes.

His eyes opened wide as he can’t believe on what he saw. “ahh”

A minute had passed and he shouted towards the boy on the near building.

“What the f-*Y*!” he angrily shouted. “Are you taking pictures of me?... how can you take a picture of someone who’s taking a suicide, don’t you have any respect?!”

He’s on the verge of his anger as he was became more irritated by the boy who just continued taking pictures of him, and didn’t even care a word that he shouted.

“AH, so you like it, huh. You know what I’ll just kill you first before I kill myself. Just stay and wait there.” He climbed across the railing of the rooftop, as he still watches the boy continued taking shots of him.

“What the heck, is wrong with that guy. Did he think, I’m just playing, For now, I’ll just kill him first, or we can both jumped and die. I think that’s a better idea.”

Like he said he went to the other building where the boy was, and he just laughed as he saw the rooftop was clear.

“He’s gone” his eyes were fixed on a feather trapped on the rooftop fence. “He’s an angel!”