Today is a school day . My best friend, Aaron picked me up to go to school . Another day of hiding away my feelings for Aaron . I get weaker and weaker each day . Seeing Aaron with another girl, hurts me so much . But i can still withstand . I've been keeping this for 10 years . You must be impressed .

10 years keeping this from him ? You must think im strong . But No, your wrong . I'm not as strong as you think . I may look tough on the outside . But inside of me, its hurting like hell . There's no single day, that no tears dropped . When Aaron is near, i try to force a smile out and just pretend to be okay . But once he left, i'd let it all out ..

Aaron: Gui Gui, are you there ? (waving his hand to my face)

Gui Gui: oh, sorry . (force a smile)

Aaron: C'mon, let's walk to school .

Gui Gui: (nods) ok .

Aaron looks at the girl who walks by . Who's she ? And why is he looking at her like that ?

Aaron: Gui, remember i told you that i like someone .

Gui Gui: Yeah . Aaron: She's Rainie, I like her . (points to that girl, who walked by earlier) Best friend, can you help me to court her ? Please .

I felt tears stinging through my eyes . They were about to fall . But i held it in . It hurt enough saying, he likes another girl . Now he wants me to help him get her ? God, why are you so cruel ?!

Gui Gui: Su-sure .

Aaron: Thanks, your the best !

Gui Gui: I know . (let out a fake laugh)

Aaron: I'll talk to you later, Gui ! (goes to Rainie)

After he left . I rushed to the bathroom . Not bothering that i bumped onto someone .

Guy: hey ! watch where your going !

I didn't bother to listen to the guy i bumped to . I just ran to the bathroom and locked the door behind me . Tears quickly streamed down my face .

Aaron ?! why ?! Why can't you see me ?! Why can't you see my feelings for you ?!

I fell down the floor . As more tears fell down the cold and hard floor . I guess me and the cold floor are alike .. LONELY .. God, why can't you make me happy ? Why am i always sad ? I've never been happy, in my whole life ! Do you hate me that much ? If you do, then what's the use of me living ? Why can't you just take me right now ? I hate this ! it hurts too much ! Why do you like to see me suffer .....?!? God... Why are you so cruel ?!