“And the winner is Team B” Daesung’s thick voice rang through five pairs of eardrums, sending vibes all over their owners members, their shaking legs threatening to cave in any moment now. Their eyes that had been crying for the past hour, could now only stare into the space before them, not acknowledging the loud audience screaming their lungs out, when that was all he wanted to do too, scream until the pain was gone. Team B had won. The show was over. Their long trip to this very crucial moment had just ended. Their efforts, hopes, dreams were shattered away in half a second. They looked at each other, their hands spontaneously reaching for one another and their fingers knotting together.

Taehyun could feel a lump deep down in his throat. He knew he was about to faint any moment now but had to hold it for a bit longer, at least until the cameras were off. The tight grip on his hands from the other members gave him enough strength to last for the next few minutes until the confetti rain had stopped. He glanced up at every member, despite telling himself not to, knowing the sight would break his heart more than it was already broken.

Seungyoon was looking down at his feet, using the shadow of his fedora to hide his flowing tears and runny nose. He promised himself he won’t let his group down despite having his hectic solo debut schedule and to give his all to them. That his years of training by their sides won’t go to waste. He thought that as a leader, he had to show how strong he was, but Taehyun knew more than anyone how sensitive he was. You have been strong enough Seungyoon hyung.

Seunghoon had his eyes pressed into a tight line, tears overflowing onto his cheekbones and slipping into his lips cleft, joining with his snot. He was looking up at the bright lights shining for the winners, his sobbing getting louder. He looked pitiful. It wasn’t his first survival show. It wasn’t his first loss. And yet he failed again. Taehyun knew he couldn’t even imagine how much pain Seunghoon was experiencing right now. You deserved to win this one Seunghoon hyung.

Jinwoo had his head slanted downward and his shoulders lifted up, expressing shame with his whole body. His eyelids were already swollen from the previous crying, looking lumping and pulpy with the tears enveloping them. A red liquid was sliding from his nostrils; blood. His hyung was bleeding from his nose. He hadn't slept for days, anxiety and nervousness were draining his whole being. He had ran away from his house, trained for four whole years without stopping despite all the discouraging circumstances that could’ve led him to. His only hope during those hard days was being told that he would debut soon. And here he was told that his dongsengs were just given that chance before him. You worked hard enough Jinwoo hyung.

Mino, Mino was totally different compared to the others. He was looking up at the fireworks exploding in the sky with empty and dry eyes. He wasn’t crying. He wasn’t shaking. And his hold was loosened. He looked almost inexistent. Taehyun swallowed hard at the heart wrenching sight. Mino had just lost for the third time.

The first was when he had to give up on his dream of becoming one of Block B’s members. He was almost destroyed back then. Having to part ways with his precious brothers and being unable to share his dream with them. Yet, he didn’t surrender. He joined another company, that promised to debut him as their next group main rapper. Mino could see the light again. But a shadow was brought upon his dreamy career; a ballad group.

He was going to be a ballad group rapper. That was far away from being what he wanted. He knew he would never be able to fully show his skills, that he had to tone down his speech and change almost the majority of his rapping technique that he made and built over years. But he complied with that, having only that debut opportunity offered to him. The group debuted. However, they went unnoticed. How could Mino be a bright star when nobody was paying attention to his efforts or even to his band members, to whom he had already gotten attached to? His previous group was already attracting all the attention. How could he face them when he had brought only failure to his current one?  Mino had always blamed himself for everything that happened, as long as he was involved. But he didn’t give up yet. He decided to give it one more try, and make their groups more known, participating to their company little events and releasing his frustration as a rapper during small hiphop shows. But everything was vain.

The group disbanded. The company that was too new couldn’t take more losses with fewer benefits. The members took different paths, looking for other ways to fulfill their dreams. Mino didn’t know what to do though. He was ready to give up once and for all until YG happened. Mino couldn’t believe it when he received a call as well as an email asking him to come to YG secret audition. One of the most successful and powerful companies wanted him, and that was enough for Mino to regain all his passion.  He didn’t hesitate and decided to showcase all his skills from rapping to beat-boxing as well as composing by preparing demos, betting all his chances. He got accepted from the first round and proceeded to his training with the members of his new team. But little did he know another obstacle to his career was awaiting him. He believed he could overcome it. He had lost twice. He wouldn’t let it happen thrice. But here he was, experiencing his third and last failure.

Mino glanced at Taehyun who was intensely staring at him. A sad smile curved upon his lips before he mouthed a silent “sorry”, alarming the maknae. Don’t leave me Mino.

A.N: *throws tissue papers at everyone* Sowyyyyyyyy ;;-;;

This is just a Christmas Special. I didn’t forget about my other fics T^T I promise to update them as soon as I can.