“Noona where are you? What are you doing?”

“Taeminnie I'm at the kitchen, cooking. Wae?"

He comes down and sits at the kitchen's counter

“Are you hungry already?”

“Deh”

“Chakkaman”

I pat his head.

“What are you cooking today noona?”

“Spicy chicken stew”

“Chicken? Is hyung coming?”

I nod and grin at him

“Aishh both of my sister and brother in law is a chicken maniac”

“Yah Lee Taemin”

“Yah Lee Haru”

We both laugh.

“Minnie can you help me do the dishes”

“Deh noona”

He walks to the sink and starts to do the dishes.

“Ah noona, today when we have a break while practice dancing, one of my friend say that if I have a long hair, my face is same like you noona. They say that I'm pretty boy”

“Chinca? They say that to you? Of course we look the same. We are sibling right. Never mind, go and find a girlfriend then”

“Shiro, I will wait till I reach Jinki hyung age”

“Arasseo”

Ding Dong

“Noona I will go and open the door for your oppa deh”

“Yah”

He runs and left me at the kitchen

I walk to the living room and greet him with a huge smile.

“Come in hyung”

I reach to him and kiss his cheek.

“Thank you for the kiss chagiya”

He smiles.

I really can melt with his smile every time.

His smile is to die for.

“I’ll go and freshen up first, have a sit oppa”

“Deh”

“Noona, I will go and meet JongIn in a while, we want to practice for our assignment”

“Eat with us first before you go”

“Deh noona”

I smile and walk upstairs to freshen up.

“How are you Taemin?”

“I'm fine hyung”

“How is your study going?”

“Great. I’m really happy studying there hyung”

“Good to hear that”

“Why is noona taking too much time?”

He goes to the stairs and shouts for my name.

“Noona! Lee Haru! Palli noona I'm hungry”

“Deh. Just wait for a while can you? I'm coming”

I walk down stair while tying up my hair in a messy bun”

“Let's go and eat”

I hug Jinki's oppa hand and walk with him to the dining table.

Jinki oppa looks at me while we walk.

Somehow his eyes display something else but I just let it slide.

“Haru”

“Deh”

“I have something to tell you”

“Sure oppa, we can talk about it after dinner neh, Minnie is hungry”

He nods.

I can sense something different with his expression.

He always smiles when he is with me.

He will kiss me first when he meets me.

But not tonight.

I was the one who kissed him first.

I think maybe he is too tired with his work and shrug the uneasiness away.

We then ended up sitting on the dining table and start eating in silent.

No one talk.

Not even Taemin, he is busy with his phone while he eats; his bad table manner that I can’t change.

“Noona, your cooking is so delicious today”

He said when we finished eating.

“Thank you Minnie”

I answered him with a smile.

“I’ll do the dishes before going out”

“No need Minnie, you can go now and make sure you come back early. Don’t wander around aimlessly. Arasseo?”

“Deh noona”

He runs toward his room and grabs his things.

“I’ll get going now”

He kisses my cheek and bow to jinki oppa before rushing out.

“Aigoo this kid. Always running.”

I chuckled and found out that Jinki oppa smiles a bit.

“You should sit first oppa; let me clean this up”

“Let me help you deh”

“No need oppa. I can do it myself but you must help me when we are married. Okay?”

I say that but I’m blushing like mad.

I steal a glance on Jinki oppa but he keeps his head down.

I heard him sighing.

Am I saying something wrong?

But he did propose about marriage last time.

I’m confused with his attitude today but I choose to stay quiet.

Its better I guess.

I proceed to bring all the dirty dishes to the sink and start washing it.

While I was busy doing the dishes, a pair of hand hugs my waist and soon my back make a contact to his body.

“I miss you chagi”

He whispers on my left ear.

His voice is low and deep.

Exactly the way I love.

“I miss you too oppa”

I answer him while smiling without taking a break from my work.

He rested his chin on my shoulder and we stayed like that until I finished.

We then walk out and sits at the garden.

“Drink your coffee oppa"

“Deh, I will. Later”

He said it with a bit stutter.

I smile nervously.

He is becoming more and more weirder.

Oh God.

Why do I feel nervous now?

My heart really is not in a good condition.

I can sense something bad will happen.

Will something bad happen?

I take a sip of my coffee to warm my body

“Are you cold? Let’s go and talk inside.”

“No need oppa. I’m fine”

“Chincha Haru yah?”

“Deh”

He takes his coffee and takes a sip.

Slow and carefully.

"Just the way I like"

But there is no smile on his face.

I confirm now that something is not right.

I can’t contain my curiousness and decided to ask him.

“Oppa what do you want to talk about?”

“Deh?”

“You said you want to talk about something”

“Deh. I.”

He sighs, unable to say it in one go.

I just look into his eyes; wait patiently for him to start with thumping heart.

“Haru”

“Hmmm”

“I think we need to take a break on our relationship.”

I just can’t believe what I heard.

Did he said that he want to take a break on our relationship?

He does not even look at me.

Did he hate me now?

“Op oppa?”

My eyes start to get teary.

He sighs again.

I quickly wipe my tears before he notice.

The cool weather and the shocked news make my head dizzy.

“B but why oppa?”

I ask him.

No, I plead him for an answer.

But Jinki oppa.

He did not answering my question.

He keeps his head down and stands up.

I walk toward him and shake his arm.

“Why oppa? Did I do something wrong?”

He keeps his silent.

He is not the kind of person who will do something like this.

He is not the person who will make others heart ache especially if it’s me.

I know something is wrong, but where?

“Oppa please don’t. Oppa look at me. Answer me oppa”

He pulls his hand off of me and back facing me.

I am surprised.

My sweet and kind boyfriend is showing his back on me.

He is calling it off.

I know right at that moment that he is not giving any thought about our relationship.

“How could you turn away after you take my heart oppa?”

I feel my knee weak and I slumped on the ground.

“Haru”

“You don’t love me anymore right oppa? I can sense something is wrong when you arrived earlier”

“Haru”

He kneeled in front of me.

I look at him and he avoids my eyes.

“Answer me Oppa!”

He then sits beside me and palms his face.

Is he regretting?

“Haru, I do love you. I love you more than myself. I’ve told you before right?”

He looks like someone in trouble.

“You did oppa and I believe you. But now, why do you want to take a break from our relationship if its not because you had enough of me?”

“Don’t ask for the reason. I I just don’t know how to explain it to you Haru yah”

“I’m too childish right oppa? It’s because I’m immature? You don’t like that I’m being childish around you oppa?”

I tried to reason out some of the things that pop out from my head.

“But you say that you love it”

I stare at his eyes.

My vision blurred due to the tears forming in my eyes.

I wipe the tears away.

I don’t care about how messy I am right now.

I need to know.

I need an explanation.

“No it’s not that”

“Explain to me oppa. I need to know why”

He just keeps his head down, not looking at me and keeps silent.

“Oppa”

Silent.

I wipe my tears again and face him although he did not look at me.

“Fine. If you want it. Why don’t we just end it oppa. No need a break”

“Deh?”

He looks at me with teary eyes.

So he does not even look at me because he is crying.

But why?

He suggested the break up.

 “No! I love you. I just just..”

“Love me oppa? Like this? You broke my heart into pieces oppa”

“I just don’t know how to explain it to you”

“If you don’t want, then don’t. I don’t want to force you. If this will make you happy, why don’t we just end this?”

I said finally.

“Haru yah. Jebal.”

He is crying now.

How I hope I can wipe his tears and hugs him to calm his down.

I just want to know what is troubling him.

But I don’t think I’ll get any explanation tonight.

Maybe we should just end it.

He then moves closer to me.

I quickly stand up and walk in.

I’m tired of this.

As I reach the living room, a pair of hand hugs my waist.

“I will explain it to you”

I stand still to give him some space before he explains it to me.

He pulls my hand and leads us to the sofa.

He sits down and pulls me to sits on his lap.

I let him do it.

It might be the last time I can be this close to him.

He hugs me again, burying his head under my chest.

“It’s Kwang soo hyung.”

He stops and pulls me closer to him.

“That day when I told you we hang around at L café, he saw you. He says that you are really beautiful. He keeps telling me that he will get you although you are married. He says that he will do something to you if he doesn’t get you.”

I smiled.

So it’s Kwangsoo oppa.

All my worried earlier is such a waste.

He is being prank by my elder cousin.

“Oppa”

I cup his face.

I know he loves me.

He is just to kind.

He wants to make sure everybody around him happy.

“Is that why you want to break up?”

He nods.

“You know how kwang soo oppa is right oppa? He loves to prank people.”

“But he looked serious chagiya”

I chuckle

“Aigoo Oppa, that's what he applied in his acting class. He will never do that”

“Chinca?”

“Oppa, he knows that we are dating, he just want to tease you. Kibum already told me about that. I thought you knew it already”

“No. I don’t know about it chagi”

“Is that the thing that makes you want to take a break on our relationship?”

“D deh. I don’t want something bad happen to you chagi. I just love you so much. You are my life.”

“Oppa. No one will take me from you. I love you so much too oppa”

I wipe his tears. I kiss his eyes.

He smiles and kisses me.

“Oppa”

I called when he pulls away.

“Deh chagiya”

“Promise me that you will never do something stupid like this again”

“I promise. I will not do something like that again”

“Aigoo my cute oppa”

I pinch his cheek and kiss it.

“One  thing for sure. I like you being childish chagiya. Don’t you ever said that I hate it arasseo”

“Deh”

I smiled and hug him.

"Saranghae Haru ya."

 

 

The end