A/N: Well this is chapter 4 of my daily journal . I write my journal like how I write my fanfics so I can get used to writing fanfics. Most of this is true except for the dreaming part. So to get you to understand my journal chapter I'll give you a little a bit of what's happening in my life: I'm not really confident person; I barely have any so i'm a bit timid around people I don't talk to. People (girls) at my school are really mean to me and my friends since we're considered weird and not normal. It doesn't bother me most times but it can be overwhelming. I have a crush on my college advisor at school. He really have this beautiful smile that makes me drool. hehe yeah youguess it ....he's Asian but still he's goregeous~. I know it's weird to like a grown up twice your age but I can't help it. I'm 14 turning 15 and he's 21 ... yeah I'm thinking i'm totally a lolita now but it's whatever. I hope you like this litlle journal thing maybe I'll do it again if you guys like it. Keep you updated on my progress with the elder.