What if? 

-Kim so eun POV 

Today's the first day of the script reading for 'inspiring generation', a romantically historical drama. I play one of the lead female character. 

"Oppa, do you know who else is going to be there?" I ask my manger as we walk to the elevator of the tall building where the script reading takes place. 

"Hmmm..I know this guy named Song Jaerim, he's from SM entertainment and his stylist is one of my close friend, he's going to be playing one of the main supporting character. That's all I know." Manger oppa tells me. 

*ding*- the elevator door opens. 

Abruptly, as if the air has been knocked out of me, I gasp lightly. 

Standing in the elevator is handsome guy. Something about his eyes captured all of my attention. His hard pitch black eyes tells the story of pain and loneliness. My heart tighten a bit. 

It felt like forever as we stare into each other's eyes but I quickly broke off first. Shyly looking some where else as I take a step into the elevator. 

"Ah, Jaerim, how have you been?" Manger oppa suddenly bursted out. 

'Oh so this is the guy manger oppa was talking about..' I thought to myself. 

"Oh hyung, I'm good thank you. What about you? It's been quite a long time don't you think?" His husky voice sends invisible electrostatic shock to my heart. It pump wildly. 

'What the hell is wrong with me? This is definitely not me....' I ask myself. 

"Yeah it has, oh this Kim So Eun, she's my kid." Manger oppa says jokingly to my embarrassment. 

"Ah, it's a pleasure to meet you." He says looking down at me but this time his eyes twinkle with amusement. The once pitch black eyes now turn into a scenery of a starry sky at night. 
I felt relieve for some weird reason. 

"Yeah you too." I reply casually, regaining my composure. 

So for the entire ride of the elevator, manger oppa and him chatted while I kept quite, thinking to myself. 

'You are 25 years old, So Eun, not a 16 year old girl meeting her crush for the first time. For god sakes, you're a professional actress, paired up with many handsome costars, worked for 10 years in this industry and now you decide to harbour a school crush on someone whom you just met only 10 seconds ago?' The inner battle in my head continued until we reached the room of the script reading. 

As the director gave out the first greeting speech, introductions and encouragement speeches, everyone follow suite. 
Once everybody has finished they introduction, it is time to start the script reading. 

As the working process continues smoothly, every now and then I got the feeling that someone's staring at me and strangely enough, the feeling wasn't the kind that makes you gross out or on edge but rather comforting like a secret guardian angle protecting you. Because I was so focus and determine to do good in this drama, I didn't bother with the feeling and discarded it. 

When it was Jaerim-ssi time to make his appearance as Mo Il-Hwa. His husky voice grew dangerously the more he got into character. His eyes burns with determination to nail his lines to a T. 
All the while, as this is happening, my heart skips a beat...something about him just really caught my attention and it's not just his looks. 

-Song Jaerim POV 

'She's beautiful. Just like a fallen angel.' That was the very first thought that rocketed to my mind the first time our eyes met. 

Her gorgeous brown eyes sparkles like a billion stars. Pretty wavy hair that cascade down like a waterfall reaching the middle of her slim back, with a slight parting over on her small shoulder. She's beautiful. 

Everything else didn't seem to matter to me because it was as if everything else faded away and all I can see is her. I really didn't pay much attention as I should have to the things that is going on, rather I am too busying stealing secret glances at SoEun-ssi. 
Her smooth, almost velvet like voice had my ears perked up. The aura around her commence a sense of confidence and elegance, something I find really attractive in a woman. 

When it was my turn to read the script, the only thing I had in mind was to impress her. 

(Filming day) 

Since it was the first filming day, everyone is really friendly but the males on set were extremely friendly to So-eun and that definitely set me off. I hated everyone of them who stared at her for more than 3 seconds. 'I'm slowly losing my mind because of her' I thought. 

The females on set have tried to get close to me but I have no interest in them so their efforts went into vain, but the good thing that came out of this was the hinted jealousy seed that was planted in So-eun as she saw the females who threw themselves at me. 

Slowly as the days pass and filming became more comfortable, we became closer. It started with our stylist becoming close friends, then our manger and soon after we saw each other more frequent. 
Little by little we started to talk to one another, soon phone numbers are exchange and before I knew it her guards are being ripped down and so has mine. 

Our would search for each other the first thing our foot steps on set. It became an addiction of outs to be near each other, while we have breaks or whether we have days off. 

(Last day of filming) 

"Oppa, how do you feel now that we have successfully finish filming?" My So-eun asks. Her eyes holds a depth of sadness in them, as her bright brown now no longer shine brilliantly. 

"It feels weird. I don't know if I like it or not. What about you?" I ask staring deeply into we eyes. It's just me and her on set, while everyone else have left to prepare for tonight's party for finishing filming. 

"I feel...sad..." She whispers, looking away from me. 

"So-eun-ah...why are you sad, darling?" I ask even when I know exactly what her answer will be. 

"You know exactly why...we won't be able to see each other anymore... I'll be busy with my other projects and so will you..." The more she explain, the more lifeless she sounds. 
'My heart ache to be with you So-Eun-ah...' I thought.  

The saddest thing about being a celebrity in Korea is that your relationship dictate your career. Sometimes it can be a break through but the majority of the time, it'll break you. If netizen supports the relationship you'll be fine, in fact the likelihood of you getting more projects increases and vice versa, if they don't support the relationship then the chances of getting projects decreases. 

Because So-eun and I, both have dreams of succeeding in this field of the entertainment industry, we both know that a relationship now is going to ruin our career. It won't work. 

-Kim So Eun POV 

(3 months later)

Our last hug ended the night filming ended. Everything was back to normal in some sense. However over the period of time he and I spent together, the more I began to crave for his attention. The more valuable our time together became. Every passing day after filming, our calls and texts grew less, he's busy with modelling, upcoming drama and movies, while I have a hectic schedule with filming another drama and 2 new movies. We don't have time to call or see each other. 
Eventually my feelings for him buries itself deep inside my heart, taking up all the spaces and my defence also grew. And for the first time in my life, both my mind and heart only wanted and needed one thing and only one person. Song Jaerim oppa. 

"So-eun ssi, there have been an offer for you. It's from we got married. They want you to join them, they've found someone who is perfect for you." Manger oppa tells me excitedly over the phone. My heart sank to the pit of my stomach. 

'I only want Jaerim oppa...' My heart pleaded. 

"Okay." Was my answer. My mind wage in the pros and cons of this deal, the pros are that I get to promote my projects, promote my company and myself, show a new side if me instead of the innocent cliche type. The con, my partner is not going to be JaeRim oppa, the likelihood of that happening is very slim. That thought alone was enough to end the deal for me. But I decided against it. 

(Filming we got married-first meeting) 

This morning I got a mission card from the stuff to officially meet up with my partner. A blind date. 

"Hello." I greeted the staffs, who are in the restaurant.

"Miss, this way please." The waiter tells me. 

"Ah yes..." The nervousness is apparent in my tone. 

After reading the mission card they gave me, I try to calm my bursting heart. 

"Okay, calm down. The guy isn't Jaerim oppa, so you'll be fine. This is business. Your heart belongs to Jaerim oppa, so no need to worry about anything." I gave myself a little peep talk before following the waiter into the pitch black room. 

(Inside the black room) 

"Let's play a game." The familiar husky voice enters my ears. 

"Oppa...?" My voice cracks. 

"So-eun ah..." The voice I've missed everyday suddenly appear. 

"Yeah...it's me..." I answer with a grin plastering my face. 

And for the first time in months my mind and heart is finally at ease. 
And maybe, just maybe this will work out for us.