Taeyeon's pov

I took a step outside our dorm and inhaled the fresh air. It was suffocating me inside because we are throwing a party to celebrate the success of i got a boy. While the other members enjoyed having a party, i dont enjoy being in a party. i guess i dont enjoy the loud banging music and the smell of liquor inside the room, although it made me happy seeing how the other members would dance around the house and being the usual dorky snsd. 

I went inside, lowered the music volume and 

"Sorry guys, heechul oppa called and he told me that he would buy me dinner to celebrate our comeback's success. You guys just continue without me. I'll be back late." 

"Yah, he's not buying us all dinner? that stingy oppa." sooyong grunted 

" You've eaten like a whole portion of samgyeopsal and you still want to eat?  Its okay taengoo, you should go now. heechul oppa probably been waiting for you. come back early kay? " jessica smiled 

"okay guys, have fun. bye." 

I got inside the car and breathed a sigh of relief. Once again, i lied to my members, i cant tell them that im going to take a stroll down the memory lane. 

Achieving the dream of being a singer was never easy If it wasnt for jiwoong oppa, I wouldnt be the Taeyeon, i am right now. Jiwoong oppa is my energy source, the only one that believes in me more than anyone in this world. As a small kid, jiwoong oppa would always take me to the beach at night while making sure we dont get caught by our mom. It was our secret hiding place. 

Being a trainee was tiring and difficult, there are times when i would want to give up, but jiwoong oppa would always say " I cant believe my little sister is so selfish, you cant just keep that beautiful voice to yourself, you should let the whole world hear you sing and show your talent, that way i can always be proud of you." There are times when i would sneak out of my dorm and go take a stroll along the beach with him. 

It has became a habit for me to take a stroll along the beach when times are difficult, when they announced that i was going to be girls generation's leader, i cant help but feel the immense pressure that i was going to bear, at that time the only place that calms my soul was the sea and the only person that was able to do that was jiwoong oppa. 

He never disappoints until that accident which changed my life forever.

After an hour of driving, i finally reached the beach.

The moon is up there hanging in the lonely sky, despite the dark gloomy night, rays of moonlight shone on the sea making it glimmer in thr darkness. The waves crashing againts the shore. The gentle breeze that touches my face, a tear escaped from my eyes,  i missed this place, it has been 4 years since i have been here. This used to be my most frequently visited place but since that accident i can no longer come here without breaking into tears. It has too many memories of him, of my happy childhood. 

 lost in my thoughts, i didnt realize someone sat beside me.. 

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