I am not going to say sorry anymore...

I am not going to appologize for loving you.  

I was wrong, I know it and I hate myself because of it.

I hate myself because i let you do this, i let you charm me and I fell in love.

Am i a babo like you said? Yes, i am but back then you used to say it so sweetly like to a child.

I loved you when it wasnt appropriate, just like a child that laughes when something is sad...

Who is gonna be there now? For me, and for you?

Who is going to wipe my tears away while i try to choked them down.

The irronic thing was...

I was crying because of you...

The way I would hear my heart break everytime I stole a glance at you.

All those songs i used to love and replay all the time just to hear your voice.

I hate them now. Why?

Because you wrote them for her.

Who is going to listen to your problems?

Oh, yeah i forgot... She is going to do that, like she always has...

But i am okay. I will just keep deceiving myself that i didnt see his special smile that exists just for her. 

That i have never seen when he starts fidgeting in his seat when she is around.

He has her and i have nobody.

Why is it raning now? It makes me look so pitiful...

Sitting here in the rain while its pouring over me...

" AISH!" i yell out ruffling my hair.

I am so stupid, forgotting my keys on that damn party...

I dont even know why i ran away, it just when i saw him kiss her...

My feet started moving on themselves.

Its the only thing i see now.

Looking into the rain i remember her face.

She probably thought 

" Ah, that stupid girl... She really thought she could have him?"

"JISUN?!?" a voice makes me turn around.

Slowly looking into the feminine figure infront of me makes me feel even worse...

" S-sandara Unnie?" I whisper.

" Aish!! Dammit! What is wrong with this day?!?" I think to myself.

" What the hell are you doing here!?! Everyone is looking for you!!" she yells.

" Unnie... I love you but... Just, leave me alone." I say while standing up and walking away. 

Grabbing my arm she screamed at me

"YAH! Michyeosseo?!" ( Are you crazy?!)

"NE, MICHYEOSSDA!!!" ( YEAH, I AM CRAZY!!!)

At that moment I didnt know if my vision was blurry because of the rain...Or because of my tears.

The only thing i remember is feeling warm.

A hug.

My mind started wandering as i whispered

" Oppa?"

" Shh..."

 

So, its been a while guys... And dont worry there are mooore chapters to come.

Hope you liked it, and if u have any suggestions or oppinions pls leave then below.

I like talkin to u guys keke. Till the next chapter, annyeong!