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choi junhong (n) : perfection

Girls always dream of their Prince Charming. They go about thinking that the world is a garden of roses that is just so beautiful. They think that the world is oh-so-kind and loving and that it's just a wonderful sight to see. Well, for me, it isn't as so. The world maybe a garden of roses but every rose has its thorns. I think you know where that came from. It's because roses are people and the thorns are the flaws. The world is filled with them and I am no exception.

I am a girl who isn't as perfect as you try and put it. Even if you say that I'm beautiful, I too have my flaws. I tend to get attached easily, get hurt easily and envy too easily. In general, I for one am someone who feels a little too easy for my own liking. I  first thought of it as a bad thing. I thought that my naiveness would get the best of me, get me hurt in the end. Choose the wrong people and just choose the wrong things in general. And to be honest, when you came in my life, I thought I was going to go and choose wrong once more but I was so wrong.

In the beginning, you gave of a presence that has always somehow scared me. It isn't as if I was scared that you'd hurt me physically but it was merely intimidation. Perhaps,  I've always wanted to protect myself and this was my instincts telling me that you were a bad thing, something that would give me some sort of pain. And how it did. It scared me how easily you stepped into my life. It was so easy for you to become my friend. It didn't stop there however. No matter how much I tried pushing it away, you still managed to get not only to my mind, but also to my heart. You made through all these supposed barriers that I created for myself so that I wouldn't get hurt.

That was when I wanted to get some reassurance, something to prove to me that whatever I was feeeling was real. This was the time I immediately went to some close friends and one of which was Jimin. He gave such crappy advice that I wanted to hit him. I swear, that boy is so lame but it ended up a good thing. Instead of me wanting him to prove to me that I was inlove with you, I ended up being the one revealing that I do have affections for you. That was when I knew it was real. I knew that I needed to tell you.

Then certain complications went up. There was once an anon that said they liked you and Jimin immediately asked me if that was me. To be honest, I wish it was me.  I wished that I had even the slightest guts to say it even just in anons but I'm a coward. I let that get to me and have someone confess to you beforehand just as someone did to me. It was funny, really. I thought the universe had  some much fun at making me a great joke.  My life was a joke, really.

Not for long though. I decided to take things in my own hands. At first, I was really stuck between 'If it's meant to be then just let it be' and 'If you really want it, then go get it.' Truth was, it wasn't supposed to be a choice between them too. I had to act on one and the other will follow. So I did. And if I might say so myself, it brought me the greatest thing that I could ask for - you.

I don't think I could ever express how scary it was to confess to you. Good lord, this was it. It was the time I was so brave and yet, I got so scared. After all, I didn't want you to reject me. I didn't want you to find it awkward. I just plainly didn't want to lose you to something as dumb as my feelings. I'm just so glad that the thing that scared me the frights was the one who keeps my fears at bay now.

Ironic, huh?

I don't think I can stress this enough but our love story does not make sense at all. It never does and I don't even think it's bound to make even the slightest sense, to be honest. That's alright with me though. All I have to know is that I am deeply in love with you.

Every princess needs her prince and I guess that that role is already taken by you. I may not be a princess. I don't do demure as much. I can't always be cuddly. I mean, I can be but I just don't tend to be as much. I guess that I'm still somehow rough around the edges. However, I am so glad that you became my prince even through all the thorns that this rose has.

You made me the happiest girl that there is in this whole world. Actually, you made my world. You were able to get me out of the usual, boring, realistic world and into yours. I'm glad that you chose to pick me. I can't stress enough how much being a part of your world means to me.

I get to see all the wonderful sides there are to Choi Junhong, what could be better than that?

You are Best Absolute Perfection at its finest. You never fail to make smile. You are just that humorous, I guess. That or you just make me smile for no goddamn reason at all. After all, just with your presence, I am made the happiest person that I could. Thank you for making me smile and always being the reason for them along with all the laughter with all the good times you've given me.

You also never fail to be a gentleman. I love that about you. You are just the perfect prince that I could ever ask for. I know that you might argue with me that you aren't perfect but to me, you are. You'll always be perfect no matter how much flaws you may have underneath.

 I'll take you in both our good and bad days. I'll take you everyday. I'll accept every word that you say either cheesy, romantic, or just pure nonsense. I'll make do with even just the little time that the world might give us. I know that we can't be perfect in the ideal sense but to each other's eyes, we'd be perfect. No matter how many thorns you may have, and no matter how much you may hurt me with thme in the future, I will still take you. I love you so much.

 I told you that I would be the one on my knee, right?

 Well, I actually won't be and I don't even want to get married so soon, truthfully. So can we get one of those promise ring things that Seo unnie mentioned? I want to get married to you someday, I'm sure of that but maybe not so soon. Let's give way to the unnies and oppa's! So let's just get one of those things, alright? I want to spend forever with you so let me promise you that.

So what do you say? Let's get one of those and promise each other as we count the days together until forever.

It will be paradise. I, who has fallen in love with no other place to. Go back, my wings have been taken away. Even though I lost my everlasting life, the reason to my happiness. You are my eternity Eternally Love.

PROMISES: Choi Junhong, you are the love of my life. I promise to be a good girlfriend. Along with that, I won't hit you, at least not all the time. I might just hit on you. That sounds better, right? Also, I promise to be a giving girlfriend that'll give you all the love ( and booty ) that you want.  I'll give you all of me along with the dumbness that I have and all the innuendoes that goes with being my boyfriend. I love you, heh. I can't think of other promises right now but anything you want, then, I shall give it.

credits to fallen angel