[CONTENTID2]If You Stay[/CONTENTID2][CONTENTID1]

 

 

loud

 

 

 

their room is drenched in the inescapable noise of morning

another long night gone

he sits up in bed to witness her white tank-top glued to his bare sweat-laced chest

his Xinling greets him most affectionately as she has always done

encouraging him to move forward

 

 

 

another today

 

 

 

 

another tomorrow

 

 

 

he draws the soft cotton fabric from his skin

reluctant to let go for a tender moment he holds it up in morning's sunlight

before placing it back onto her side of the bed

neatly on top of her skinny black jeans her aviator sunglasses

and the chichi heels she had wore so faithfully on their last outing

 

 

 

I won't fail you I'll definitely find love again

 

 

 

it is a promise

 

 

 

he calls in sick again another today another tomorrow

to find love again it is a promise a walk a search until the same love

he sees many women pass by like speeding cars on a highway

mostly tall with brown eyes mostly slim and pretty but not his Xinling

none are fit to be his Xinling's successor

 

 

 

another week gone

 

 

 

gone gone gone

 

 

 

he cannot return empty-handed

his Xinling will be angry with him

his Xinling will be unhappy if he is to die alone

he cannot afford to waste anymore time

he must find her whoever her may be

 

 

 

I'll find her I'll find love again

 

 

 

it is a promise

 

 

 

every night a different woman a search for intimacy

them he does under different names under different pretenses

every night hoping infatuation will turn to affection

hoping affection will turn into love

it all disintegrates when they unknowingly touch her pillow his Xinling's pillow

 

 

 

dress quickly and get out get the out

 

 

 

jaejoong

 

 

 

I'm trying I'm trying I need more time another today

 

 

 

another tomorrow

 

 

 

it is his last chance he cannot fail

his Xinling will be angry with him

help me help me help me she squirms beneath him

in time I will love you in time I will love you too he hugs her

tighter tighter tighter squeezing all the love and life out of her

 

 

 

I promise I will make her mine I promise

 

 

 

it is a promise

 

 

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