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Words Unspoken 

When the lights start to turn off, I quietly go to meet you
A flower blooms in the world that’s only filled with thorns
Why? Why not?
They whisper and go against us
Why? Why not?
We’re so in love

Drip. Drip. Drip.

Tick. Tick. Tick.

These were the only sounds in this silenced apartment that was once filled with joy, with love. 

Filled with Happiness.   

She stood alone in the dark apartment and watched as the scene replayed in her mind. 

The words that were said can no longer be taken back.

The words that needed to be said were left unspoken. 

The heartbreak that never healed. 

The time when it all fell apart. 

“GET OUT!”

“No! Why do you always push me away?”

“I can’t do this. Don’t you understand what I’m going through? Don’t you know what people say behind our backs?”

“I DON’T CARE! I DON’T CARE WHAT ANYONE SAID!”

“You don’t get it do you, Son Seungwan…? I can’t do THIS anymore. I tried to be okay with it, but I can’t.”

“Stop… Irene. Jooyhun-ah… Please stop…” tears rolled down her face as she turned her gaze away from the older girl. 

She walked closer to the furious girl with tears dripping down her cheeks. She just wanted to hold her, in her arms. And just make everything go away. Make everything disappear. But even with her open arms, the older pushed her away. Shut her out, turned her back and walked away further from her. 

“Get out, Wendy…” she said barely audible over her loud sobs.

“No… Hyun-ah…”

“Get out.” 

She was dumb. She was... selfish.

She didn't love enough. 

No... she loved too much. 

Seungwan-ah... 

Don’t look at me like that
We’re just in love, that’s all
Don’t hate on us, however you’re viewing us
We’re just a little different
Just leave us alone

Dust had collected on all the contents. How long has it been now? 

She doesn’t even remember anymore. 

“We were in love, weren’t we, Wendy…?” She whispered, to no one in particular, picking up a small dust-covered frame sitting on the mantel of the fireplace.

She brushed away the thick layer of dust, revealing the happiness that once was. 

“Unnie why don’t you wanna take a picture with me?”

“Because you always make faces!”

“I do not!”
“Yes you do! But it’s cute.” 

She smiled mischievously as she pointed the phone’s front camera towards herself and the younger girl. 

“Another!”

“Really? My arm is getting tired…”

“Yes…just one more. I promise.” She replied and smiled sweetly as the older girl complied to her request. 

She raised the phone up preparing to take the picture, but suddenly felt something warm and soft against her cheek. ‘ 

“Ya! Son Seungwan!  How dare you steal a kiss from me!” 

With the stunt she pulled, Wendy earned herself a slap on the arm. But that didn’t stop the happiness they both felt. 

She ran her thumb across the picture once more. 

Her tears fell, dropped onto the bittersweet memory of what once was. 

I was a fool. I was blind. I was unappreciative. 

I took everything for granted. 

Above all, I took you for granted… 

I’m sorry… 

Can’t we live in a world where time stands still?
Why? Why not?
We did nothing wrong
Why? Why not?
We’re so in love

Clinging onto the photo for dear life, she leaned back against the wall and slowly slid down until she came to a rest on the floor. 

“Unnie ah~”

“But I don’t like chicken…”

“Please~” she pouted while holding up the drumstick to the older girl’s face.

“Why did we have to go eat chicken?? Can’t it be anything else but chicken?”

“Because you love me.” She said proudly. 

She sighed, closed her eyes and took a small bite to please the younger girl. 

She had always complied to her request, there wasn’t anything that wouldn’t trade to go back to those simpler times again. 

To be with her again. 

To be complete again. 

To be in love.

Once more. 

I should’ve told you. 

Tell Me What Is Wrong
Tell Me What Is Wrong
Tell Me What Is Love
Tell Me What Is Love 

I want to love however I want
I won’t change no matter what anyone says 

You always noticed how uneasy I felt when we were out in the public, and you had always reassured me.

You walked confidently beside me. Held on to my hand, as if it was your lifeline. 

But I couldn’t do the same. 

“That’s not right…”

“How can they…”

“Ah that is not normal…”

“But they’re both…” 

She was always a step behind or a step ahead.

She wanted to grab a hold of the hand that was always reaching out for hers, but she could only manage to let the fingertips brushed lightly. 

She couldn’t ignore the whispers, the stares, the judgment. 

Even though for her sake she tried her best. 

But she slowly grew wearily. 

“Unnie, what’s wrong? You’ve been quiet.”

“Ah nothing… don’t worry about it. I’ll be ok.” 

But it was never ok again. 

We argued. We fought. We cried. 

Said things that both hurt each other. 

“GET OUT!”

“NO! WHY CAN’T YOU JUST TELL ME WHY? DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG?”

“DO YOU NOT GET IT? HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY TO MAKE IT CLEAR FOR YOU? I can’t be with you…”

“Why… are you still not ok with this?”

“Wendy, I tried. I really tried.”

“Wasn’t love enough?”

“Wendy…please don’t…”

“I love…”

“Wendy please… stop.” Her voice wavering, she couldn’t face the girl. 

She felt the arms wrapped around her. Hot tears dripped down her cheeks, as she rested her head down on the older girl’s shoulder. 

“Get out, Wendy…” she said barely audible over her loud sobs.

“No… Hyun-ah…”

“Get out. Please…”

“No…Just let me stay like this for a while longer…”

“Son Seungwan… my Seungwan…”

“I love you…I’m sorry.” 

In the end, I was the one who let you go. 

But I’m the one who still needed you. 

The one who should be sorry. 

The one with words that are left unspoken.

All the things I couldn’t say, I should’ve told you. 

I’m sorry. 

I love you, the most.