“YOU’RE SO DAMN CAPABLE OF HURTING ME KWON JIYONG! WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU TO DESERVE THIS KIND OF PAIN?!” I yelled at him. I’m crying hysterically and I’m an emotional wreck right now. All the love that I have for him was wasted.

“Taeng~ I love you.” He said. But he didn’t dare to come near me, to even console my broken heart. Those three words ‘I love you’ become the  dirtiest words I’ve ever heard.

“I told you a million times that I love you, Jiyong. You said you love me too. The only difference is I didn’t lie to you.” I said in almost a whisper. I’m breaking, I can feel it my bones are shaking, my muscles are twitching, my mind is racing and my heart is aching.

“If I wasn’t enough for you that you needed to find another while we were together, then you should have just let me go from the start. She was not a nagger. She was prettier, ier. She was everything that I couldn’t be. The two of you shared the same ideologies. She was more mature. She... was everything that you ever wanted. So why did you waste your time on me?” I asked him. I was almost pleading to know why he did this to me. I need answers.

“Let’s stop this Taeyeon. Let’s not be together anymore. I’m leaving.”

And just like that he left me hanging. I was left in my apartment feeling weak, I felt so vulnerable.  My question was unanswered. I don’t know how long I was there just looking at the blank ceiling but eventually Jessica came to my aid. I told her everything and just like that we were both crying. She’s crying because of me and I’m crying because of him.

Two years of love and lies. Two year till we said our goodbyes.