It had been 3 years.   3 years since I left that town.   3 years since I changed into a different person.   3 years since she left.   My break up cycle was longer than other people's. We were so close, so attached, so in love with each other.   But as they said, the harder you fell, the more painful it will be when it all ends.   I used to think that we wouldn't ever be apart. We were the perfect couple, though not really accepted by our parents.I believed that we would prove to others that true love does exist, but I guess I was wrong.   Sitting near the window, I watched as the rain poured down mercilessly.I always thought that raining was a sign. A symbolism of the heavens being sad.It was also raining in my heart. Except that the raindrops were all red in colour.   A teddy bear stood out in this dull room. It's pink fur and shining brown eyes absolutely mismatched with the darkness emitted by the walls.   I bought it on an impulse. Seeing that it was her birthday soon, and that she had always wanted a teddy bear. The aunty from the market asked me whether I'm giving it to my girlfriend. I said yes.   Suzy ah.   Will your birthday just pass again, like that? Nobody celebrating it, nothing special about it. Remember the times when we use to drive up to the peak of the hill to see the stars and I would tease you by saying that that will be all for your birthday present?   At the start, I couldn't take it.   Your voice, your face, your actions were like songs i set on repeat in my head.   Now that you're no longer part of me, I feel like my heart had been taken out from my body.   I held onto my phone so tightly, hoping that you would call like you used to and then after we got tired of talking we would chat on message.   I got better as the days passed though. I didn't think of you as much. I slowly drifting away, keeping memories of you locked up in the deepest part of myself.    I had wanted to leave quietly then,trying my best to be as mean as possible, but you wouldn't let go. It was then that I fell even harder for you, to the extent where I don't think that anything could make my love grow even more because it was at its maximum.   When you told me you would leave your house and abandon your inheritance, I was sure that this person infront of me would be my future wife, and I wouldn't let go no matter what