xiumin stirred as the light shined brightly on his face he groaned and slowly sat up

"what time is it" he mumbled yawning and rubbing his eyes cutely he got out of bed and made his way down the hall to the bathroom once he got to the bathroom he locked the door he didn't want the exo members to walk in  on him while he was showering or on the toilet (it's happened before and ensued a awkward conversation) besides he didn't want anyone to see his fat body espescially not the exo members he couldn't bare it he looked in the mirror and sighed his eyes were puffy and red from all the crying he did last night he had little dark circles on his pale skin with another sigh he made his way to the shower turning it on once it got to the proper tempature he peeled off all his clothes and stepped in he started to wash himself

*FAT PIG* the words rang in his ears he scrubbed alittle harder

*TALENTLESS COW* he scrubbed harder

*FAT PIG GO HOME* he scrubbed harder his skin started to turn red

*JUST DIE!!!* he scrubbed harder his skin started to form blisters then his movements halted and his washcloth dropped he sniffled and right then and there he realized he was crying 

*knock knock*

"yah xiumin you've been in there for a long time are you ok?" A voice rang out behind the door in what xiumin thought was sehuns voice

"y-yeah I'm fine" xiumin said his voice almost cracking

"arasso then can you hurry up I need to get ready so me and luhan can get bubble tea" sehun said happily but then again when ever it come to bubble tea sehun is always happy xiumin wiped his eyes and turned off the shower

"ok I'll be out shortly" he said then he heard sehuns footsteps as he walks away xiumin gets out the shower and grabs a towel drying himself off he winces as he does this his skin still raw and sore from the excessively hard scrubbing he wraps the toilet around his waist and unlocks the door as he walks to his bedroom he bumps into a sturdy chest xiumin looks up to see luhan smirking

"s-sorry luhan I don't see you there" xiumin says blushing slightly 

"no probs my chubby boazi if you will excuse me I'm gonna get ready so sehunie doesn't strangle me in my sleep for missing bubble tea time" luhan said as he walks past xiumin winking sending the poor blushing boy into a walking tomato xiumin runs to his run and closes the door grinning like a fool but still he can't help but feel alittle pang in his heart

*chubby boazi? Does luhan think I'm fat? And when did luhan give sehun a nickname?* xiumin thought bitterly he shoke that though away and processed to get dressed he walked out to see everyone ready and dressed walking out the door 

"where is everyone going" xiumin asked 

"oh me and Chen are going to the movies" lay said

"yep me and kris are going shopping" Tao said excitedly 

"You already know where we are going xiumin" sehun said xiumin nodded in understanding 

"where are you going?" lay asked

"just walking around" he replied

"do you want to come with us?" Lay asked

"no I'm fine" 

"ok bye" Chen said as he grabbed lay and all of exo m including xiumin walked out the dorm----------------------------------------------

xiumin smiled as he walked down the street feeling the fresh air whip past his face the sun shining on his skin it was moments like this tha-

xiumin tumbled to the floor

"yah watch it fat " the man said glaring down at xiumin xiumin looked around to see if anyone was behind him he looked back at the man and pointed to himself

"M-me" xiumin stuttered

"yeah you are you retarded or what" the man said snorting rolling his eyes

"s-sorry" xiumin said looking down 

"better be" the man muttered walking away

xiumin got up and walked to the bakery trying to forget the whole encounter he walked to the counter and ordered a sticky cinnamon bun with a chocolate brownie and a chai tea latte he sat down at a table and shortly after the waitress came with his food he thanked her and started to eat feeling the sweet warm sticky substance as he took a bite ok his cinnamon bun all of a sudden he heard laughing he ignored it but the laughing got louder and he looked back to see 3 girl laughing and stealing glances at him xiumin felt uncomfortable so he got up and decided to leave asking the lady to box up his food so he could take it home

"were they laughing at me?" Xiumin thought

*of course they were who wouldn't they see a fat pig chowing down on a big plate of sweets* his conscience said

"I'm not fat even luhan said so" xiumin stated proudly

*hah do you really think he likes you he's just saying that to make you feel better he doesn't care about you he never will hahaha* xiumin got pissed but the laughing keep going he tried to shut it out but that was all he heard

"SHUT UP!!!!" Xiumin yelled clutching his head people stopped walking and stared xiumin felt the gazes his way and he got up and sprinted away making sure to throw away the food while he was his tears blurred his vision and he fumbled with the keys once he was in the dorm he slid down the door burying his face in his knees bawling his eyes out 

"that's it I'm sick of being fat I can't take it even luhan thinks I'm fat I want to be skinny." xiumin said trying to catch his breathe he started rocking back and forth chanting the same word over and over skinny skinny skinny

right then and there he made it up in his mind that he wants to be skinny and he'll do whatever it takes.....

even if he died.......

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hi sorry guys I've just been so depressed lately I didn't even have the energy to update so I hope it's ok it took he a couple of try's since the stupid internet keep going off and my computer deleted the chapter thank you guys till next time😋