Bestfriends are like Glasses , when we drop them ,they broke.

 And when they broke , they hurts.

  Well, I'm the type of person that sometimes causes strangers to friends to bestfriends to strangers [Again] .I hurted their feelings sometimes and also embarrassed them.It's happen to me for years now . Back when I was in kindergarden , I did make friends but they ignored me.Then after that, going in to the chinese school , I make friends and I have bestfriends but in the end,we became strangers. I was hurted though then in 2009 I moved to a new school . I was timid making friends because they are not the same but then I maked one. She's some kind of tomboyish but then we became friends only because of some several issues. 

  Then in 2010,I moved to a new class which is the first class . At first , there's alot of students came to my place.Introduce themselves and chat with me like that. After months goes by , I met this girl . Her name is Correen. Then we became closer and closer then we fought . But we became close again until now . Then in 2012 , I became close with this girl called Agnes. When the first time I saw her, I felt that she's a open minded person , fun , funny and friendly . She's a smart student though . I really really really wanna be her bestfriends . Then after that we shared some stories about korean groups then we make fanfics each other .

  Then in 2013 , we were in middle school . She sat behind me at first . Then we talked about things and korean groups again then after several months , our homeroom teacher moved us . I sat with my bestfriend and she was at the back . I went to her place everytime until she admits that I'm her "Besties". We're close until 2014 which is this year but then , the time came .

  12/09/2014

  The day she ignored me . We did talk but not alot. I think it's less than 10 sentences.We barely talk then when I saw her message in the group chat that she was mad at me because I embarrased her . I felt guilty, I did not realized it though . After that , I apologized her in chat . She replied me but she was mad . I just felt like I'm a troublemaker . She even said that why I can't apologise face to face but , I have reasons . It's not that I can't apologizes face to face but it's just that I'm timid at it. I still remember when I apologise face to face and it didn't went well . And I don't want that happen again . Even my parents I apologise through calls and messages . But she said she advices me alot and I didn't listened then I do it even more until she felt annoyed . Well, I'm not a advice listerner even my parent's advices I don't listen . Even my siblings and relatives . But , I think it's a lesson for me though . I can accept that she don't want to forgiving me because I have been across this line alot . To be honest , I'm a total loner , I hide my feelings but don't dare to tell . And when I lying down on my bed , my past haunts me everytime and I cried . But I really want her to be my friend back but it's hard when You broke a glass and it's only can be stick together but they still hurt . That's what I though . 

 But if you're reading this , I am so sorry what I have done and please , let's be friends like we use to do .