i still remmember the first day i met him i ever saw him. i never actually listen to big bang songs but sinse that day i became the biggest v.i.p fangirl ever well i dont want to take you wait too long this is my story with him

flashback

taeyeon pov:

"bye yuri im going".i said as i hold my phone

''where''she asked

''i have to see baekhyun''.well i was going to exo dorm i drove my car as i start thinking about the whole dating issue well it wasnt real to me baekhyun is like a little brother to me i know he see me more than just a noona but what about myself i cant stand living in big lie and today is the day im ending all this act...im going to break up with him.

exo dorm:

i open the door i saw chanyeol with irene

''sorry did  i interrupte anything''i said as i look at them

"where's baekhyun''i ask

''in the studio"he answer

"thanks'' i get out from the the dorm i start thinking chanyeol and irene are dating?.i cant believe it as my tears start to fall

''noona wait''chanyeol said he was running

''what''

''i dont have any feeling for irene''he said

''and why are you telling me this''

''you know i love you''

''well too late''

''but...''

''chanyeol your going to get confirmed dating with irene tommorow and you still wanting me to be with you there time that you will forget me maybe you will fall with irene the same way you fall for me''

''but i dont want that''

''but chanyeol im with baekhyun''

''we better forget each other''as i ran will the story is i fall in love wtih chanyeol but sm choose baekhyun to the whole issue so me and chanyeol cant be togother especially he going to date irene the member of red velvet the who suggest to the company about the baekyeon thingy to get chanyeol after all what i did to her im the one who make her enter sm will someday she will regret.

studio:

i walked in the studio as i heard weird noises looking i walk and walk open the door. as i scream i just saw baekhyun in the floor with some random prospitute.

''taeyeon its not what you think''as he start dressing his clothes

''i was helping warm her cold body that all"what seriusly he couldent find a better lie

''who the hell you think i am"

"no taeyeon wait''

''baekhyun lets just end this i dont love you''

''what do you mean"

"first you cheated on me and now you say what do you mean baek i thought you will be the only one in the world who cant hurt me but i was wrong let break up''

''noona wait''

''bye baek i hope we will never see each other again"i leave the studio crying why this is happening to me i hate my life i thougth  having a boyfriend will kill the lonelyness i feel i was wrong right now i wanna die more than everthing in the world why just dont end up my whole life right now i dialled number

phone call:

"hi dara"

"oh taeyeon i miss you you used to calling me everday or you just forget easily my little sister''what do you hear right now is right  park dara is my big sister but we kept a secret we two discover that 4 months ago sinse then we start spending time togother i love now like how i love my members or maybe even more.

"tae are you crying"

"yeah''

"what happen''

''well first the love of my life who share the same name as you is dating some one while my so called boyfriend had cheat on me with some "

''wow tae..''

"i just hear yesteday that jessica said to yuri that she hate my guts"

"why she would hate you''

''i dont know you choose sinse her crush g-dragon confesse to me or when donghae choose me over her...she think  that i steal everthing from her the boys she like more than that she think that i steal tiffany from her happy''i said that while sobing

''i dont know what to say"

"well to get my problem more easily my life is so screwd i dont want to be in this world anymore"

"tae your scaring me what do you mean"

"you know very well what i mean dara i want my heart stop beating''

"ARE YOU CRAZY YOU THINKNG SUICIDE"

"sorry dara but i cant stand living anymore"

"no taeyeon please we can make this work''

''i dont know bye dara"

"no taeyeon dont hang up''

end of the phone call:

sorry dara for the first time you didnt really understand my feelings and no one will and now what is the best way to suicide killing myself with knife or jumping in the han river well that hard there's so many first i need to write a letter  of my members.i finish write my letter it was so sad oh im crying right now that it today im going to jump in the han river and that will be the ending of the legendary gorgeus y ahjumma kim taeyeon i never thought i will end up like this never.

T.O.P pov:

gaah im so tired of recording i wanna get rest"hey seunghyun can you go and bring me a cofee with chocolate honey flavour''that brat seungri said that gee why he always take advantage of his makney position not fair

"hey hey im not your little maid here"

"but but hyung i thought you love me"

"i do but stop using your makney spot"

"oh gosh hyung if you hate me just say it and im not gone bother you again"

"seungri this is not what i ment it just..''

''no hyung i totally understand it and im the one who thought we have special bond my fault my fault"

"ok i agree"

"really so your going to buy''

''yes''

''thanks hyung i love you''

''and i hate you"as i leave the studio i cant believe i fall in his trap again.

i kept walking and walking as i pass above the han river i have so much memories in this place the first place i decide to loose weight the first place i got my first kiss the first place i got laid with an some ahjumma maybe i should enter it wait what about seungri and his coffee nah he can wait i get close to the river as i saw a petite girl crying what wrong with her i get closer and closer as i finally know her kim taeyeon snsd leader why is she crying then she started to move oh is she going to jump from the river i ran quiqly as i hold her wrist.

taeyeon pov:

bye you little world i hope someday all people will remmber me painting my beutifeul face sclupting a statues of me that will be so awsome bye im going to jump right now ........

did i jump is this heaven why there's some one holding my wrist i turned around as i see a face of man"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA "i move as we both fell into the river.

in the next morning:

it was morning gah i dont remmember anything what happen why am i in this house wait i heard some one talking i turned and see "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THE "as i start punshing him

"please stop im not a i like older women even that i would never a woman"

"wait what you like cougar gosh your so weird"i said

"wait why do you look familliar a-are you big bang T.O.P"

"finally you reconize me''

''im sorry about yesterday"as i start bowing.

"its okay now do know where are we"

"you dont know''

''no.i remmeber that we both fall in the river"

''wait what if we were kidnapped"suddenly the door open an old lady came.

"arrigato"she said

"ah i think she japanese"T.O.P said as an ahjussi came

"ah sorry this my mom"

"oh you speak korean"i ask

"yes my lady"

"where are we"

"in japan"

"WHAT"we both said

"that true my mama find you in asleep on small fishing boat"

"b-ut we were in korea"

"well i dont know i wasnt there''

"well thank you for saving us" the dashing T.O.P said that i have to say he is way more attractive in person

"do you wanna get out from this house"

"of course"

''top'what were gonna do now"i ask agaih

"i dont know"

''but can i ask you a question for curiosity''

''what is it''

''why did you try to suicide''

''well its none of your buisniss"

"sorry''

''you shouldv let me die"

"what are you saying"

"i really want to die why did you stop me"

"i dont know''

"you really should learn to not bring your nose in other lifes"

"im sorry but why some one like you want die"

"what do you mean''

''i mean you have everthing what people dream of but your not appreciat it"

"i just dont know you would probably not understand only people who suffer from depression will understand it"

"try me"he challengly asked

"ok .. some times thats not enough you cant help to feel lonely and empty i want to be for once loved by some one who i love but it just seem i have no chance in love i mean a life without love is not a life ive always wanted love-relationship like my mom and dad used to have the way  my dad look at mom made me wish some one would look at me like that in the future.. their argument about remonte control was pretty hilarius their relationship was like ying and yang"then i heard him chukle

"your parents were fighting over the remonte"he ask while he was amused

"yeah"

"that was exactly what my parents do"

"really"hihi his parents must be funny"i thought im the only one who have parents fighting over silly things people dont know the taste of living life when your parents dont sleep in the same bed and always fighting who will sleep in the coush"

"you describing my parents"he said

"your in the same boat as me"

"i guess love is always insane right"he seem to know a lot about love  maybe should i ask him

"so what is love in your opinions"

"love is love there no other description will fits love can make you fly to the heaven love can make your heart beat love can make you hurt love can make you sad and injured love can heal wounds last thousand of years love do magic like you said life without love is not a life because love can make you have the best time of your life"i got impressed by him that make me question if i really did love chanyeol maybe it was big crush nothing more

"do you have girlfriend" i hope he doesent

"no i recently break up" im so screwed

"im sorry t.o.p-shi"

"no it okay and call me seunghyun did you ever go to japan"

"yeah for performing well what do you do if you ever go ot japan"i said

"i dont know ...watching sumu fight"i laughed my out

"what are you serieus"i couldent belive him

"ok im lying i like clubbing''he said

"you couldv just said  that"i said

"soooooo what do you think of big bang"he asked me

"there not bad well mr.lee sooman dont let us listen to yg music"that true he hated jang hyung suk guts for reason no one know well he steal his first wife that why xd

"hihi so im going to the airoport go back to korea i have shedule"

"me too"disspointedly said

"so can we see each other in korea"

"of course"

"promise"then he formed the promise sign with his finger

"promise"i said happily

end of the flashback:

that was the last moment ive ever saw him thinking how i was going to suicide just because baekhyun and chanyeol make me feel so stupid well i am i guess i was having depression.right now im on music show

"taeyeon"dara shouted i miss my sister she she look so pretty as usual

"dara unnie im so happy to see you"

"me too i need you to meet someone"in exited tone

''who''asking hope it not g-dragon or seungri last time i was with them they tried to hit on me

"secret"well i trust my sister she open the door and my jaw dropped it was

"t.o.p-shi"i was shocked

"for the second time call me seunghyun"then he reveal his dashing smile make my heart beat

"you know each other ok i better leave you alone"dara smiling evily

"so how are you taeyeon"he asked

"so fine and this is all because of you"i said shyly

"so happy you didnt suicide"he said

"so what are you doing here"what a stupid question

"i came to see you.you promise me right"

"yes of course...seunghyun oppa..."his face was happy because i call him oppa

"what"

"i like you"

"me too ive always liked older women but you proved me wrong"then he offerd me hug so i hug him a long warm hug.best day ever

the end