I don't like having friend I mean you could say I have trust issue but that's not my fault when I was in kindergarten my class had a class pet it was a hamster but he sadly died and I was the one who took the blame for his death as much as I said it wasn't me no one believed even my quote on quote friend didn't even own up to it they killed our class pet by over feeding him I was their escape goat even since I refuse to trust anyone 

I woke to the obnoxious sound of my alarm I rolled over and reach for my bedside table searching for my alarm I turned it off once I found it I got off my bed and stretched I exited my room and went to the kitchen to find my mum preparing breakfast "Hi honey."my mum said 
"Morning."I said while yawning 
"Are you going to school today?"she asked I nodded as my reply and if your wondering why my mum said that I don't usually go to school I usually just stay home waiting until I have to go to work I work at supermarket I work the counter
"Here you go."my mum said snapping me out of my daze 
"Thank."I said while stuffing my face with my breakfast

I eyed myself in the mirror then straightening my skirt I was ready to go I bolted out of my room into the kitchen I kiss my mum on the cheek "Bye mum."I said 
"Ok don't forget to work hard."she said I then ran out of our apartment i and walked to school but I was interrupted by a girl she look like a geeky girl but she also looked like a model I knew who she was her name was Hana she was on the phone saying I love you and I'll be there she must have a boyfriend and I'm not going to tell you how I know her at lunch I would always find a way to be alone I was the type of person who tried there best to avoid social activities my dearest mother thought I needed counselling so I now go to counselling as much as I don't want to go to counselling I also don't want to make my mother worried so I have to go 
I mean it's the most boringest hour ever all that happens is the councillor asked me questions and I nod to all of them beside the point back to the women she was brunette and had what looked like flawless skin she was basically flawless and she was on the phone with her boyfriend a girl that pretty must have a even more beautifuler boy I've always liked reading novels about romance they all seem to start similar about a girl who stumbles apon a good looking man longer story short in the end the boy fall in love with said girl and they live happily even after I've always wanted that but I'm to awkward I envy all of the girls who have men bowing at there feet I want that but my incapability of using a make up brush and the fact that I don't talk to anyone is in play I had finally got to school the bell rang I rushed to my class but of course I'm late "Great Bom you first day of school and your late."I thought I bursted into my class and everyone look at me I put my head down a walked to my desk I sat at the back row of desk I sat at the right corner I liked sitting there because I could look out the window although I couldn't help but spot a similar looking brunette it was Hana sitting next to a blonde-haired boy he almost look like a girl he was looking at the brunette girl "He must like her."I thought I wished someone could look at me like that the rest of the day went smoothly I had counselling then I went home 
I was preparing for work tomorrow I work on Mondays, Thursdays,Saturdays and Sunday and I had counselling on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Fridays 

2 weeks later 
I had counselling today and I forgot to have my haircut So I decided to put my long hair into a ponytail but by the time i had counselling my hair had returned to it normal state I had my famous bang that almost covered my eyes. I was waiting for Ms Yang and as time passed I decide to pull out my pad of paper I decide to start writing song lyrics until the blonde-haired boy f