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I walk out the door. It was already night but I just needed to get out. I'm all drain out. I just need to hear myself think.
I ran to the only place I know where I could release all the tension on my shoulder and just scream on the top of my lungs. Letting out all those words I couldn't say. I'm just emotional.. I've been crying all day from the stress I received from work. Thinking that when I come home, I'll find peace. That 

maybe the stress would just end from there but all of it was just a measly hope that wasn't happening either way I wanted it to. Right at this point, my eyes was just pouring tears out. Right then, I just needed a hug. I'm so tired. My heart is drained. I'm tired. Tired from this endless fight that just continues right now.
When? Just when.. When will we get back to the time when we just love instead of this endless bickering we both are doing now.
It's like we've gone distanced.
It just me now, isn't it? I look toward the ground. It was so dark now, but I continued to sob really hard. Why is it down to this now? I said consciously. I'm crying alone, without a shoulder to cry on. The memory of us together came to fill up my mind. I remembered when we would just laugh, and smile in each other embrace. He would be there for me when I was crying, like now, to comfort me, to made the pain go away. Or like the time when I would touch his  face gracefully and look at him lovingly as he would put his head on my lap. When our eyes were filled with only each other, but now it all left in the open. We had no more. I don't have any reassurance to this relationship we have. I wanna know if, but right now, at this time, I just don't know anymore.

My eyes were dry out. No more tears could possibly form. My two eyes were all sore and swell up now. I headed back. I got to the neighborhood when I spotted Myungsoo. I didn't want to see him just yet. I didnt want to let him see the me right now. To be honest, I just had hoped to stay out long enough that he'll just head to bed but he was here. Waiting for me to comeback. I hid, so he wouldn't see me. I guess, he was looking for me. My smile slowly came, watching him pant like an idiot and from the look on hi