Delicious food, drinks, amazing buffet, and performance from my former classmate that I couldn’t even remember who. It’s a party and I’m invited. You can call me a nerd or anti-social, but the truth is, I am not like that. I wear spectacles, always shows uninterested expression to everyone except the people I’m close with. I’m a person who will open completely to the one I can get along.

In this party, I couldn’t even find my close friends. I guess they didn’t come. I was standing there, alone and had a piece of cake and carbonate drink in my hands. I was surrounded by people that I didn’t know, feeling like a complete stranger.

I’m in a complete different world.

And then I saw him.

“Choi Min Ki!”

His name makes me shudder. He was standing among the crowd, but got more attention because he’s more appealing than others.

 I got a crush on him since an accident happen in my class once. I was talking to my best friends, about fandom stuffs,studies, and other normal girl stuffs. Then I was called by two guy who’s actually my classmate telling me that Choi Min Ki wanna know more about me.

“____-chan, Min Ki wanna be friends with you.”

“What do you mean?” I asked confusedly. “We are, friends right?”

“No, what we mean is, he want to know more about you.”

I got a hint of what they are saying at the beginning but I decided to ignore it. These two are called as prank duet so I don’t want to believe in them easily. Plus, I’m not a girl who would attract guys attention for god’s sake!

“I don’t believe in you.”

“It’s not like that, we are talking the truth.”

“I still don’t believe you guys.” I leave them without answer and went back to my friends. They were like “What? What happen?” I told them everything and they went flailing like crazy. I couldn’t help but blushed at the moment.

“Choi Min Ki! “ A friend of mine called him as he walked into the classroom. He seems clueless as usual cause he’s known as one of the heavy sleeper in class.

“Yeah?” He walked toward us and raise an eyebrow, giving a puzzled look.

“Is it true that you got a crush on her?” She pointed at me and Choi Min Ki had an instant eye contact with me,I was having strange goosebumps at the moment and felt my heart skip a beat.

“….” He turn away and ran out, I could hear him screaming faintly to someone. I was in total shock at the moment because he didn’t deny it.

“Probably he did have a crush on you.”

“……”

Since then, I always got him in my eyes. I begin noticing that he got flawless and fair skin, nice raven hair, cute baby face, his round eyes, his childish attitude always got me in awe. I suddenly realized that I’m falling for him unintentionally. I watched him everyday in school and I will feel slight pain and disappointed feelings overwhelmed me when he didn’t attend school.

Alright, enough of the flashback!

And there again, I saw him. In the spotlight of my eyes.

I almost had the cake shoved into my mouth until suddenly I saw people running to get shelter because it was raining heavily.

“Uwaaa!” I ran along and sighed at the moment I couldn’t find any shelter. A tree got my attention so I ran and end up sitting under the tree. At least I’m not all soaked, I thought and looked around.

“…..” Damn, why is he here too?!

I saw Choi Min Ki giving me a glance and quickly looked away. He was sitting under the tree too, but he’s in front me and was leaning against the tree.

I noticed him giving me another glance but immediately looked away as a voice called him. I clutch onto my chest as I saw a girl smiled at him happily and he smiled back with that bright smile I love so much. I know her. She’s a friend of mine who manage to get along with him, both of them always fight but end up having fun together. I must admit that I do feel jealous every time they got close together, they could be a very cute couple and I realized my lack of confident in myself.

I’m never ready in having a relationship, I am scared. I never dated a guy seriously, never go for a real date, I couldn’t help but to feel overly shy and screwed everything.

She was chatting with him happily and I saw her leaving and went somewhere else. He didn’t look at me after that and I just ended staring at his back in complete silence.

“Babe!” I heard another voice and I saw a beautiful girl ran and hugs him tight, she rested her forehead against his and was smiling playfully while wrapping her arms around his neck.

He got a girlfriend.

I keep the feelings till I quit school, I still remember him even after 2 and a half years until now, I do miss him but I don’t want to be overconfident girl because it used to disappoint me once. While in school, I found his facebook, sending him a message but he never reply it.

Then, after 2 years leaving school, I found his WeChat from a friend of mine and he accepted my request. I was so happy but I tried to cover it up by not sending any message.

One day, out of nowhere. He send me a message but our convos always end up awkwardly.

I was thinking that he might be bored with me so I decided to not bother him anymore. He did ask me out to accompany him because he complained that he’s hungry, but I declined his offer because I don’t want him to think I’m such an easy target for him to kill time. Then, I found out that he got a girlfriend few days after. That girl is so damn pretty that I questioned myself, that I’m not a match for her at all.

Another encounter with him is when we accidentally met in the same driving school during driving test. He still looked handsome as usual but I can’t even look straight at him. I’m embarrassed. I’m embarrassed of myself, I didn’t look pretty enough on that day and keep my head down for the rest of the day. He did send me messages and I replied it without looking back. He was sitting behind me among the crowds but I don’t have the guts to turn and smiled at him.

When the driving test ended, we parts and he was like “ Where were you? I didn’t see you around?”

I replied saying that I’m already on the way home and after few more words, we end the chat awkwardly as always.

And now I saw him in another girl’s arm, smiling happily with happiness.  I guess I’m too late.

To be honest, I am a person who rejects others without noticing it.

I ran away after seeing enough scene to make my heart explode, toward my house.

During night time, I received a message from him and I replied with “ -_- “ emoticon.

He was like “What’s with -_- ?”

I almost dig my nails on my phone angrily and was going to throw it out and suddenly..

“____-chan!”

Choi Min Ki was standing there in front my house, phone in hand and he was gasping.

“Why did you come here?” I questioned.

“It’s not like that!”

I guess he’s referring to the scene I saw earlier.

“I don’t understand.”

“I saw..you.. I saw the future!”

“…..”

“You re in it, in my future.”

“!!!” I woke up while gripping onto my blanket, heart beating furiously.

“Tsk, a dream. AND WHY HIM AGAIN OF ALL SUDDEN?!”

It’s a weird dream. We haven’t talked for a while now and he’s all about his girlfriend so why should I bother? Although I do have the urge to meet him again every time I went out from my house. And why the hell did he appear in my dream so suddenly?

“…” I reached for my phone and updated my WeChat statuses.

*My WeChat friends could relate. :3 *

 

A/N : This is 100% from my experience, all of these are the truth except Choi Min Ki as my crush~ XDD I have a crush on my former classmate “F-san” No need to mention him fully.

The bold one is the reality and normal font is a dream I had recently.