One Year Of Hidden Pain

One Year Of Hidden Pain

NOTICE: English is not my first language! Thank you all if you read my One Shot SuLay. Sorry i had a new story better than the last. I'm very grateful if you read my One Shot really. You can write comments if you liked my One Shot and if you have advices please put a comment but don't be rude. Thank you.

If you want to read is One Shot with a music, you can read this one with the music: 

Kalafina - Kagayaku Sora No Shijima Ni Wa 


It was 14 years ago. 6:00:00PM

Yixing made is way in the building. He bumped into someone and said '' Sorry, I didn't see you.'' 

He looked down to see who it was. It was a boy with soft hair, a precious pair of brown orbs and milky skin.

''It's nothing, what are you searching for?'' the boy said with a sweet smile.

'' I already found it.'' Yixing answered with a smile. 

'' I see. By the way my name is JunMyeon, it's a pleasure to meet you.''

JunMyeon rarely goes at his father's building. He always stayed in the vocal room for practice.

''Nice to meet you too JunMyeon, my name is Yixing'' Yixing said with a mild smile.

''We are going to became good friends Yixing.'' JunMyeon answered with his biggest smile. 

 

JunMyeon was not right, they didn't only became good friends but also lovers.


Before 5 month of dating.

 

It was like they were destined to be together. Day by day JunMyeon gave all the happiness that Yixing never had after the death of his mother. They made one promise. For their love to never fade away. It was their promise. All the pictures, videos and memories are kept in their heart.Then JunMyeon wrote a song. The two lovers are very happy from their work. They had recorded videos with them enjoying themselves. When they saw each other, you can see sparkles in their eyes. All their soft touches are a little more of love.

Yixing was a horticulturist. He was independent, he never knew his father. He knew his mother but the sickness took her. He lived his whole young life in China but to realize his dreams, he moved to Korea. No one stopped him, who's going to stop him? No one there cared about him. He never had someone even before his mother died, no one took care of him, he always lived alone. Yixing is mentally very strong. 

JunMyeon was a compositor. His father was the boss of a building. JunMyeon is a soft boy, who likes to sing and compose. He grew up in a rich community. The money that he had, he gave it to charity, to poor childs and families. He has a huge heart. He never loved someone like the love that he has for Yixing. He smiled because of him. All days, All minutes and All seconds. He never saw his mother, she was too busy to take care of his son and his father spent the whole time doing business. Yixing knew that and he began to take care of JunMyeon 

One day, of 4 years of pure love. Yixing gave something to JunMyeon.


It was 9 in the morning, the sun brightly shining in the blue sky. 

'' Jun, wake up. I'm going to work.'' 

'' Humm, 2 minutes Xing.'' JunMyeon said half asleep.

Yixing answer : '' No no no, wake up Jun.'' 

JunMyeon said: '' Just in one condition.''

Yixing answer with curiosity: '' Which one?''

JunMyeon: ''I want a hug, a big one.''

Yixing: '' You're so cute, really. Come on Jun.''

JunMyeon start to cuddle with Yixing, he hugged him and stole a sweet kiss in the soft lips of his lover.

Yixing: '' Jun i need to go now.''

JunMyeon: '' Okay okay, I let you go''.



JunMyeon doesn't know that Yixing was working hard, for him. 

​Yixing was working around a lot of roses, this littles red flowers. All days intentionally, a thorn cut his pale skin. He thought it was nothing so he didn't pay attention to it. He wanted to show his love for JunMyeon in a other way. Yixing never thought about giving up. He work hard every day.

JunMyeon was tired because he doesn't have time for himself, Yixing comes back late in the night and goes to sleep. JunMyeon was bored with that. JunMyeon was preparing dinner, he knew that Yixing was going to come back late. He's going to ate alone, like always. JunMyeon was asking himself if he did something wrong, if he missed something. Maybe Yixing is bored ? He didn't care about they relationship ? They needed to take a break. Just for make the things clear.

The same day, late at the night. Yixing came back home. JunMyeon was waiting for him in the living room.

Yixing was surprised to saw him at this hours. Maybe something is wrong? Something serious happen? 

JunMyeon ''Let's take a break.'' 

The heart of Yixing was beating fast. He shuttered '' W...what? w..w...why? Is there something wrong with us?''

JunMyeon grew irritated and he began to cry and say '' I'm sick of all of this, you come at home and go to sleep. You don't care about me? I'm tired, I'm so tired of this. I'm always alone, I eat alone, I cry alone and I wake up alone. It's hurting me, don't you know that?''

Yixing was shocked, he didn't knew all of that. He left JunMyeon during 1 month like this. He blames himself for being like this. For him now he was so heartless for leaving JunMyeon and don't take care of his love. He regretted this but in a way he end up his project.

Yixing said with pain in his heart '' I'm so sorry, I'm so selfish I don't take care of you.''

JunMyeon wanted just something. He muttered '' I want a bear hug.''

Yixing walk up to JunMyeon and give him a tight bear hug. 

'' Jun I'm so sorry, I'm going to stay with you more.'' 

JunMyeon heart was batting so fast then he back hugged tight Yixing, he didn't want to let him go. He wanted to stay all like this forever. 

All these emotion was so big for them. They feel the lack that they have for not seeing each other during 1 month. They wanted to feel all the love that they had for them. Yixing wanted this, JunMyeon too. They made love during whole the night, with all the love that they have. Like there was no tomorrow. 


 

They had found the complicity that they have before. Yixing was more often with JunMyeon and JunMyeon was filled with the presence of Yixing. Yixing was always working in is special thing, he work at home but he don't want that JunMyeon see it. He work hard for achieve this.Just be himself. 

Everyday with each other was beautiful. These days Yixing takes a rest with JunMyeon. JunMyeon prepare breakfast, Yixing prepare the dinner and it's always like this. Every day was nice. 


1 month later.

​It was 1 in the afternoon and JunMyeon was sitting in the couch while Yixing was cooking dinner.

Yixing shouted so that JunMyeon could hear him ''Jun can you come here, please?''

JunMyeon anwered '' Yes Xing I'm coming.''

'' How can I help you?''

Yixing '' Can you cut this vegetables? My arm is over.''

JunMyeon was concerned then he took the arm of Yixing but when he took it, Yixing scream. His arm are in pain. JunMyeon up is sleeve right, he saw a bandage who cover his wounds. 

'' Ying how did you do this?''

Yixing say '' It's when I'm working with flowers sometimes I cut my skin with thorns. It's nothing, don't worry.''

JunMyeon was concerned. He was worried about Yixing. '' You don't want to go to the hospital?''

JunMyeon was very careful with his moves, He caressed his back while he was saying this.

''No need to be so worried, I'm fine.''

JunMyeon answered '' If something like this happen again, you tell me. Okay?''

Yixing was sure that JunMyeon is going to be worried, he is the kind of person who takes care of people a lot. '' Yes, sure.''

JunMyeon was relaxed to know that. He was sure about this. He had confidence in Yixing. 


It happens again but Yixing never says a words to JunMyeon, so that the latter won't be too worried. He was weakening day by day. He doesn't want to scare JunMyeon about this. He was scared of himself for he began to weaken.

The same morning he says to JunMyeon that he is going to bought some things. JunMyeon trusts him and let him go while he is sleeping a little more. Yixing was going to the hospital to consult a doctor. He arrived and he made is way until the office and entered to saw his doctor.


3 month later.

Yixing and JunMyeon are laying in their bed. They are taking a rest together. 

Yixing said with sadness in his eyes ''Can we go away from city for 5 month together ?''

JunMyeon understood his question and answered him '' Of course, where do you wanna go?''

Yixing was full of happiness now, he smiled and said '' Far away, I want to go far away.'' 


5 month later.

Tree month passed and JunMyeon proposed to Yixing if he wanted to be with him until the death and even after and the said guy agreed. They had their honeymoon. They passed 3 month in ultime happiness. Cuddling, hugging and laughing. The two lovers, didn't saw the time pass. They had so much unforgettable moments together. 

Sometimes, Yixing go to the bathroom. With any reasons. JunMyeon becoming curious and asked to him, why he go often to the bathroom.

''Xing, why did you go to the bathroom often?''

Yixing reply '' I have stomach ache, these days.''

JunMyeon was alleviate to hear that. '' I was worried, I thought it was something serious. ''

 If only.


2 month later.

Christmas will soon arrive. They bought gifts for each other, the Christmas tree and all the decoration. Christmas was the favorite season of JunMyeon. It's not his first Christmas with Yixing, they had many Christmas together. Yixing liked to see snow fall. 

JunMyeon prepared a surprise for Yixing. '' Xing this Christmas I have a surprise for you.''

Yixing replied '' Oh really? Jun, can I know what is it? ''

JunMyeon responded back '' Not now, we have to package our clothes.'' 

Yixing wanted to know what it was. He always successfully surprised Yixing when he really wanted too.

JunMyeon blindfolded Yixing and junMyeon made his way to Yixing's car. 


JunMyeon open the door and he goes out, he opens the door for Yixing who still had his eyes covered by the blindfolded. ​He took Yixing by the arm and he reached the front of the house. 

'' Are you ready Xing? '' JunMyeon asked to Yixing.

Yixing answered back ​'' Yes, I'm ready Jun.'' 

JunMyeon removed the blindfold, and Yiwing saw a beautiful house in the mountains, with a beautiful view. With the snow, who fall down in the wild grass. Yixing was amazed. '' It's like he knew.'' Yixing thought. It's the best present that he never had before. He wanted it, a beautiful House in the mountains. With white snow who recover the wild grass. With the sound of the birds singing.

'' It's amazing, it's all i wanted. Thank you so much Jun, Thank you.'' Yixing kiss JunMyeon with fiery.

JunMyeon speak with pride '' I will do everything for you.'' 

The thing that Yixing wanted all is life, was here. ''Thanks for everything JunMyeon.'' 


During the Christmas. Everything was perfect. Yixing gave a very beautiful necklace with written on it the date of their meeting. Who was quite a clumsy meeting. And JunMyeon gave him a bracelet with wrote on their names.They made wishes, a beautiful shooting star passed and gave them hope, for a far better future. They are going to stay in his house. His house was the house of JunMyeon, he go rarely there. JunMyeon can have a lot of proprieties because of his dad but he asked just this one. To relax, away of the city.


1 month later.


A sunday morning JunMyeon woke up, he touched next to him but no one was here, he didn't saw Yixing sleeping deeply. He opened his eyes quicly, and get up. He searched for Yixing. In the bath room, in the living room. In all the rooms. He searched for him but he didn't saw him anywhere. He made his was until the kitchen, he took a look behind the counter. And he saw Yixing laying on the floor. His heart was beating so fast, the world around him stopped. He runs next to Yixing and began to flurried and he was so shocked. His hand was shaking and he fell kneeling next to Yixing. He took is pulse,this one was weak. He took the shoulders of Yixing and began to cry and shake him.

JunMyeon shouted while he was crying profoundly '' YIXING....YIXING......WAKE UP!... please.....don't left me....''

Yixing was dying seconds to seconds but he was fighting to stay woke up, he muttered '' Jun don't worry, everything will be alright.'' 

JunMyeon replied back with difficult breathing '' I'm going to call the emergency, stay with me.''

Yixing was hopeful but he was gone for himself, the sickness win him '' No need to call a emergency, i just want to stay with you. For my only last moments'' He took the hand of JunMyeon and interlace his fingers with these of JunMyeon. 

JunMyeon was panicking, he tried to say something but nothing get out.

Yixing understood what JunMyeon tried to say then he said it '' Anemia.........I have anemia........ during 12 month.... that's why......''

JunMyeon was crying with no words, he still shocked. He understood now, why he go often to the bathroom,why he's so skinny, the dizziness, the loss of appetite. And he never asked more to Yixing...... He regretted it to never asked more to him.

'' You gave me all I wanted, one pure year of love. All the moments are unforgettable. This 3 month with you in this house, far away from all, Thank you. Never forget it.'' Yixing was shortly dying in the arms of JunMyeon.

'' Why didn't you tell me?'' JunMyeon said with incomprehension while he was crying big tears.

'' I love you, Jun.'' Yixing muttered 

Yixing close his eyes and a tear fall down in his cheek. '' I love you, Xing.'' JunMyeon muttered back while he was hugging tight Yixing. JunMyeon was crying a river. His own world was gone, his happiness left him. He was alone, with his lover in his arms. He saw something in the left hand of Yixing, it was a note who says :

                                                   '' You asked me why I didn't tell you.

                                I could've done so but I didn't want you to be eaten up by worry, 

                                           constantly asking yourself if I'll live until tomorrow.''

 

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ellin_kim #1
Chapter 2: this is so sad, idk.wht to say,.can I recommended this story for all my friends,, kkk~
naznew #2
Chapter 2: So beautiful.sad story..
LittleStarinthesky
#3
Chapter 2: Do you mind if I translate it into Chinese? It is really beautiful. Please reply, thanks.
LittleStarinthesky
#4
Chapter 2: That's always the thing about the loved one of the person that will leave isn't it, worry when his loved one will finally leave and count down the days with worry. YiXing did what he thinks was right for Joonmyun, and personally I think he did the right thing, for that way Joonmyun will only remember happy memories with him.
hunhankyumin #5
Chapter 2: hi there ^_^ this story is so touch :(( it's very beatiful.
can i translate this into Vietnamese? i'm sure everyone will like it when they read it.
reply me soon, ok? thanks
poppycorn #6
Chapter 2: Omg, so sad :(
But this is beautiful, thank you.