“let’s break up”

 

“b-but why? Why L.Joe why?”

 

“I’m sorry Chanhee-“ L.Joe takes a deep breath. “I can’t.”

 

“ah” Chanhee lets out a desperate laugh. “is it because of Chanmi? Because she’s back?”

 

L.Joe nodded.

 

“so you never loved me all this time?”

 

“I’m sorry, but yes. You’re just a distraction for me so I can forget everything about her, and now she’s back. I can lie to myself, especially my heart that I only love her all this time. Once again I’m very sorry”

 

Tears already came out from Chanhee’s beautiful eyes.

 

“never once?” Chanhee just stared at L.Joe’s eyes, searching for a tiny lie. L.Joe shakes his head.

 

“well then what can I do right?” Chanhee smiled at L.Joe for the last time, perhaps. “I hope your relationship with her will last for a long time. Annyeong L.Joe goon.”

 

Chanhee turned his body and walks away from L.Joe, crying and lost in confusion. ‘What should I do now?’ thought Chanhee in his mind.

 

While L.Joe in the other side feels guilty after seeing Chanhee’s smile with tears rolled on both of his cheeks.

 

‘God what have I done. I love him. I always do’

 

x x x

 

So Chanhee lived his life. It’s different since he’s alone now eventhough he have friends but he need someone. Two months after his brokeup with L.Joe, he finally moved on. Not fully but at least he doesn’t think about L.Joe all day, he can focused on his studies. Sometimes it’s hard though since Chanhee and L.Joe are classmate. Now Chanhee doesn’t give a damn about L.Joe anymore, he’s tired already.

 

Chanhee’s POV

 

“Hello-“ someone greeted me.

 

I’m shocked. This person and L.Joe’s face are look alike.

 

“uh? Hello”

 

“alone?” he asked.

 

“well for now yes, but in an hour my friend Niel will come and pick me up”

 

“my name is Uhm Si Woo by the way” he sits beside me.

 

“Lee Chanhee” I smiled.

 

“no wonder you’re face is cute since your name is cute too”

 

“w-what did you say” I blushed. Freakin cheeks can you just keep it cool.

 

“nah continue your reading”

 

“fine”

 

30 minutes later.

 

Siwoo suddenly gives me a paper. I look at him with confusion.

 

“my phone number, keep it. See you tomorrow cutie!” then he leaves. So I write his phone number in my phone contact.

 

“what a freak, geez” I rolled my eyes and leaves the library to meet Niel.

 

Without Chanhee’s knowing, there’s a pair of eyes watched him behind the book he is fakingly read.

 

‘Siwoo hyung is going to make a move on my Chanhee’

 

x x x

 

“teacher, can I sit beside Lee Chanhee?”

 

“of course Siwoo-a, ppali go to your seat”

 

“thank you so much” Siwoo grinned.

 

Siwoo took a seat beside Chanhee and put his arm on Chanhee’s shoulder.

 

“hey cutie I miss you” whispers Siwoo on Chanhee’s ear.

 

“hey there Siwoo-a, welcome to my class” Chanhee pinched Siwoo’s cheek.

 

“aww appo Chanhee-a don’t pinch my cheek” Siwoo pouted.

 

“stop that, it doesn’t suit your face” Chanhee laughs.

 

“then which expressions suit me?”

 

“hmm? I don’t know, we just met yesterday pabo”

 

“don’t make me kiss you now”

 

Chanhee smacked Siwoo’s head.

 

“I was kidding okay, let’s go to the canteen together cutie”

 

“alright”

 

x x x

 

L.Joe’s POV

 

I’m just walking along the hallway when I feel a tap on my shoulder.

 

“Hey there brother”

 

“Hyung? What are you doing here?”

 

“lets go to the canteen together”

 

“you’re alone?”

 

He just smiled and walks while pulling me behind him.

 

“how’s Byunghun?”

 

“ah he’s fine hyung, don’t worry”

 

“I still can’t believe that you two are twins” he ruffled my hair.

 

“he’s too smart for his age and he’s already in college now”

 

“yeah and you’re not”

 

“at least I can have a lot of fun as a High School student”

 

“whatever L.Joe”

 

At the canteen we’re walking passed a lot of students and he walks directly to Chanhee. Oh no.

 

“Hyung-“ it’s too late.

 

“Siwoo?”

 

“Chanhee meet my brother L.Joe, and L.Joe meet my cutie pie Chanhee”

 

x x x

 

And just like that, Siwoo and Chanhee gets to know each other. They officially dating two weeks after their first meeting. Chanhee was shocked at first because he doesn’t know that L.Joe and Siwoo are step brothers. After his meeting with L.Joe at the canteen, both of them promised to not let Siwoo knows about their past relationship. Chanhee is happy now since Siwoo treats him very well, he felt loved. It’s different from L.Joe’s way of showing love and Chanhee likes it.

 

“yah Uhm Siwoo- I love you”

 

“I love you just as much or even more Lee Chanhee” Siwoo pecked my lips and hug me.

 

x x x

 

L.Joe’s POV

 

“Chanhee I’m sorry, I’m very sorry. Baby”

 

“Siwoo-a it’s okay, I’m fine here”

 

“how are you there? Did L.Joe protect you well baby?”

 

“it’s just a week and you already worrying me that much?”

 

“I can’t baby, I love you too much. I hope L.Joe will protect you well”

 

“I love you too”

 

I backhugged him and listening to their conversation.

 

“Good bye baby, we will meet again in 5 years. Wait for me ne?”

 

“Of course I will”

 

The phone call ended. I feel Chanhee’s hand rubbing my arm.

 

“Chanhee did you miss him?”

 

“so much”

 

“I’m here Chanhee-a, I’m here”

 

“Thank you L.Joe”

 

I kissed his shoulder.

 

“L.Joe, how’s your relationship with Channmi?”

 

“we’re fine”

 

“is it true that you and her didn’t get back together?”

 

I nodded. Chanhee lets out a sigh.

 

“why are we like this?”

 

“because we want to?”

 

“L.Joe don’t”

 

“I know all this time you never stopped loving me Chanhee”

 

“are you planning to use me again because you know that I’m still in love with you?”

 

Shaking my head, I pecked his cheek.

 

“let’s just stay like this, you and I together”

 

I know I’m selfish but what can I do?

 

x x x

 

Chanhee’s POV

 

“break up with my brother”

 

I choked on my drink.

 

“why?”

 

“because I wanna get back together with you”

 

“you never loved me”

 

“I lied okay? I LIED” he screamed on my face.

 

“it’s not gonna change anything L.Joe-a”

 

“please I’m begging you, break up with my brother and come back to me”

 

He kneeled down in front of me.

 

“are you serious?”

 

He cupped my face and kiss me.

 

“yes” he breathed out his answer on my lips.

 

That night we did it again, we let out all of our memories together. After we finished our night together, I cried.

 

I cried-

 

I feel weak-

 

I can’t choose.

 

I love both of them so much.

 

But Siwoo hadn’t contact me at all these few days.

 

Is it a sign for me to break up with him? Just like what L.Joe told me to?

 

L.Joe always there for me, everytime I need him.

 

Oh God what should I do?

 

x x x

 

Chanhee decided to break up with Siwoo. Chanhee was at lost in his first week after breaking up. But L.Joe always there beside him, cheering him up. Ah yes they got back together now. Chanhee felt stupid for accepting L.Joe back but he doesn’t care, all he need is love.

 

Someone’s POV

 

“Lee Chanhee, one day I’m going to make you mine. And once you are mine, Siwoo either L.Joe hyung can’t never touch you. I will make you happier, there would be no tears. Just wait. I love you.”

 

I kissed Chanhee’s pict many times.

 

x x x

 

Chanhee’s POV

 

He’s changed. I don’t know what did I do. His attitude is very cold towards me now. For the past 2 months he was so caring to me, now? Nah I don’t wanna talk about it. This is breaking my heart, being treated cold from L.Joe.

 

Lost in confusion.

 

Why is he like this?

 

Did I do something wrong?

 

I didn’t talk to Siwoo anymore after our break up just like what L.Joe wanted.

 

Now he’s cold like this.

 

I really wanna bang his head to the wall and screamed ‘CAN YOU NOT BREAKING MY HEART FOR ONCE’ on his face.

 

I’m mad.

 

I can’t stand being treated like this.

 

Niel always nag to me, telling me to break up with L.Joe.

 

But I can’t.

 

I love him.

 

Am I not worth fighting for this love?

 

x x x

 

“I have to focus on my college, once again I’m sorry Chanhee. But it’s better if we break up”

 

“okay” Chanhee smiled.

 

“are you mad?”

 

“no I’m not, good luck with everything”

 

L.Joe pulls Chanhee into his embrace. He kissed Chanhee’s lips deeply. Feel the tears are coming. They both cried.

 

“I love you Chanhee, I always do”

 

“I love you too”

 

And they went separate ways.

 

Chanhee’s POV

 

Is this a bad luck or something?

 

Now I’m single again.

 

Lee Chanhee is single again, can you believe that?

 

I let out a laugh and took a sip from my coffee, feeling the hotness coming down in my throat.

 

Maybe God is planning something for me.

 

I’m still in my deep thoughts until I feel someone tapped my shoulder. I look up to the hand’s owner and-

 

“L.JOE?”

 

“huh?” his face showed a confusion.

 

“L.Joe what are you doing here?” I asked.

 

“L.Joe? Did you call me L.Joe?”

 

“you are L.Joe right?” I stared to his face, looking at his features. He laughed.

 

“can I sit here with you?”

 

“why?”

 

“look around you then”

 

I look around and noticed that every table is full.

 

“o-okay”

 

“Lee Chanhee right?”

 

I nodded.

 

“Lee Byunghun”

 

“what?”

 

“can’t you hear what I said?”

 

“you’re not L.Joe?”

 

“meet me, Lee Byunghun. L.Joe’s twin”

 

I gaped my mouth in shock.

 

“nice to finally meet you Lee Chanhee”

 

x x x

 

this is a fail angst.

thank you for reading.

anyway Chanmi is Chanhee's girl name if I'm not mistaken.