Jinki groggily enters the dining room to have breakfast with Taemin. Taemin is already seated and eating. For the past few weeks Taemin has become quieter and bigger. The pregnancy has him eating like a farmer’s horse.

“Good morning.”

“Good morning, Jinki.”

Jinki takes a seat and digs in.

“When did it start?”

“What?”

“The cheating.” And Jinki drops his fork and freezes. “Last week? 3 weeks ago? On our honeymoon?”

Jinki’s mouth is dry all of sudden, his heart is hammering against his ribcage and he’s wishing for the Earth to swallow him whole.

“Huh? Answer me dammit!” Taemin slams his fists on the table, frightening Jinki.

“Taemin.” He begins calmly because he’s never seen Taemin so enraged before. “Calm down.”

“Bull!” Taemin spits.

“This is not good for our baby.”

“My baby.” Taemin sneers which triggers Jinki’s outburst.

“Our baby!” Jinki shouts. “I’m a parent of this baby as much as you are. Now, the child has nothing to do with my infidelity. Nothing. There is nothing, nothing that I can say to justify what I’ve done.”

“Then wny?” Taemin becomes teary eyed. “Don’t you find me attractive anymore?

“Taemin it’s not that-”

“Was it because I lost my job?” Jinki doesn’t answer. “It’s because of that, right?”

Taemin covers his face and sobs into his palms. The sight breaks Jinki’s heart.

“Don’t touch me! Don’t you dare touch me!” Taemin screams but Jinki holds him anyway.

***

Kibum opens his apartment door to find a crying Jinki.

“He knows.” Jinki says and Key doesn’t need to ask who or what.

“He knows.” Jinki cries. He knows. He knows. He knows. He knows and its killing him.” Kibum comforts him and guides him inside.

“He left this afternoon. He’s going to spend some time with his parents.” Jinki explains. “He didn’t say when he’ll be back, if he’s coming back.”

“I’m sorry, Jinki.” Kibum says.

“Let me stay the night. I don’t want to sleep alone.”

“Of course! Of course you can stay.” Kibum kisses him.

Taemin is away for three weeks  before he tries to call Jinki but is forwarded to voicemail. Even though Jinki cheated he still loves him because love  is not an emotion you can switch on or off. He still loves him and the baby inside him. Taemin thinks it’s safe to say that he’s forgiven Jinki and he desperately wants to see him again. Also, he’s puzzled as to why Jinki hasn’t made an effort to contact him since. He’s hurt by that.

When Taemin returns home he doesn’t expect to see Kibum searching through his fridge.

“Kibum?” He asks, bewildered and the latter freezes. “What are you doing  here?”

“Umm..” Kibum hesitates. What can he say? He’s caught off guard.

“Kibum I can’t seem to find…Taemin.” Jinki says when he sees Taemin. Taemin glare flitters from Jinki to Kibum then back to Jinki again. Kibum notices the tension and quickly excuses himself, not wanting to linger for another second. Taemin hears Key’s car drive away. He closes the door and glares at Jinki once more.

“Taemin.”  Jinki begins hesitantly. “You look..great. How’s the baby?”

Taemin doesn’t answer.

“Is it him?” Taemin finally asks and Jinki plays the idiot.

“Hm? Kibum?”

“Don’t play with me anymore. I’m not your toy!” Taemin sneers and his eyes are wet. “I’ve been gone for a month. You make no effort to contact me and when I think I’ve forgiven you, I come home to see another man searching through our fridge, in our house!”

“Yes.” Jinki gives in and the tears cascade down Taemin’s flushes, inflated cheeks.

“Why?” Taemin gasps. “He’s a friend of mine. How could you?”

“I’ve known Kibum since high school, many many years ago. I only found out about your friendship with him a few weeks back.” Taemin takes it all in and he feels like he’s falling apart. The man whom he loves very much has done him so very, very wrong.

“You don’t love me.” Taemin wipes his eyes.

“That’s not true!”

“Yes, it is!”

“No, it’s not.” Jinki moves over to calm his husband down. “You can’t be stressing out yourself like this…the baby.” He places both hands on Taemin’s swollen stomach. Taemin adheres to his advice and calms down.

“I’ sorry Taemin for all I’ve done to you, I’m really sorry and if you’ve had enough and you want a divorce..”

“Divorce is not an option…yet.”

Jinki smiles a little and embraces him.

“Uh!” Taemin gasps.

“What? What is it? Jinki asks, panicky.

“He’s moving.” Taemin grins , grabs Jinki’s hand and places it on top of his belly.

“He’s moving.” Jinki laughs. “H-He?”

“Yes. We’re having a boy.”

Jinki hugs Taemin once more.

“I’m glad we’re having this baby because it’s been awfully lonely around here with you gone all the time and it’s about time we start a family but if you’ll continue to hurt me. I won’t be here any longer.”

“I understand.”

***

Jinki stands aside so that he’s out of Jonghyun’s and Kibum’s view. He sees them laughing and talking about something and it looks quite interesting and intimate. His jealousy flares up again and he’s trying really hard to not march over punch Jonghyun in the face. A sigh escapes his lips and he returns to his office and let his thoughts overwhelm him.

He doesn’t know where he stands with Kibum right now. The love is still there and still as strong as ever. Taemin’s ultimatum is on replay in his head, leaving no space for him to concentrate on the files on his desks which he gently pushes aside.

He keeps it professional that day. There is no hidden glances, secret touches and office kisses. Not that he has a chance to entertain those things because Kibum doesn’t give him the time of day.

He returns home early to Taemin who happily greets him by the door.

***

Jinki hasn’t spoken to Kibum since the incident and it’s been a week. As much as he’s trying to maintain the professional facade he can’t bare it any longer.

“What’s going on?” He demands when he enters Kibum’s office and closes the door not so gently.

Kibum doesn’t remove his concentration from the slides before him and continues working. “Nothing, Sir.”

Jinki bites his tongue and clenches his fists.

“Liar.”

“Excuse me?” The word garners Kibum’s full attention. “Last time I checked, I wasn’t the one cheating on my pregnant husband and running around like the world was perfect.”

“Listen.” Jinki breathes and paces the length of the office. “I want to be civil. I hate seeing you with Jonghyun. It burns my eyes. I know I have Taemin and the whole ordeal. I know . I know. I’m a mess but I’m not sure I’m ready to let you go. This past week has been torture. Not once did you look at me. I feel so uncomfortable within my own skin. Something’s wrong and I can feel it.”

Silence floods the room and Kibum fiddles with his fingers now avoiding Jinki’s eyes.

“I’ve..” He begins, his voice small and barely above a whisper. “I’ve been feeling off lately.”

“And?” Jinki urges him off because that sentence is too abrupt to be a proper explanation for anything at the moment.

“I think..I might be pregnant.” As the last word excapes the younger’s lips he begins sobbing and Jinki rushes over to console him. Jinki doesn’t know how or what to feel. His life is spiraling out of his control by the minute and he’s the reason why.

“If you are, I’ll be by your side all the way.” Kibum sobs even louder.

Jinki feels him pull away. “I don’t want it to be yours.” Kibum says.

Jinki feels like he’s been socked in the face with a baseball bat. “I don’t want another misfortune to befall me. I don’t want a repeat of the last time I was pregnant. I don’t want that again.” He takes a moment to ipe the snot from his nose. “Jonghyun’s wonderful. He’s nice, pleasant, caring ans single. He doesn’t hurt me.” Kibum spears Jinki a glance. “He doesn’t hurt me like you do. Even though it’s not intentional, just being with you hurts because your heart’s conflicted and so is mine.”

“Kibum.” Jinki tries, his voice breaking. “I love you.”

The tears stream down Kibum’s face unperturbed. “I don’t think that’s enough.”

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