listen to It's okay, even if it hurts by seohyun while reading this:

 

the next day, I didn't talk to him

I kept distance

I tried to be happy so that his family think we're okay

sigh

I need to do this

 

I got up and entered my room

It was beautiful, I bet they have lots of money

I fixed my dirty clothes and took a warm shower 

I think deep

"what If I didnt met him?"

"what If  I woke up early that day?"

"what If  I didn't walk past that direction to where he was chased?"

I'll be living in a normal life for sure

 

the whole day I was on the room

I just slept

when I woke up I browse some books from the shelves

there were so many interesting books

I wish I can bring the whole room to my home

I picked romeo and juliet

I read it for like a million times but I still like it

 

I sat on the balcony while reading the book

few hours passed

I'm on the of the story

 

I heard a knock on the door

"who is it?" I said as I walk towards the door

I opened the door and I dropped my book

 

"heechul.. oppa"

he picked the book and gave it to me

"hey be careful with those books" he smiled

he entered the room and sat on the edge of the bed

I sat next to him

"_______." he said, making my heart beat fast

"oppa?" I looked at him

"I ... " he stopped

he faced me and held my hand

 

"please, let's forget that we met"

he said

 

my heart dropped and crashed

he walked out and closed the door

 

I cried and cried

I packed my things and changed my clothes

I'm getting out of here

 

I dashed downstairs and his mom asked me

"hey, are you going home? what happened?"

she looks worried about me

"something happened, I need to go home.. thank you !" I bowed

"arasso, just be careful okay?"

I just nodded

 

I checked the time it's 3pm

good, I'll be home at exactly 7:30 or less

I was crying while walking

people kept on looking at me

I didn't care

I only care about myself

my heart is broken by the man who I taught me how to love

 

I hopped in the bus and stared at the window

I feel so numb, I can't feel anything

I stopped crying but the words kept on repeating on my head

"... forget that we met"

 

hours passed I reached my house

It was dark inside, I opened the lights and brought my case upstairs

I opened my room and I saw heechul's posters everywhere

I tore all of them

I deleted the songs of super junior in my ipod

I deleted heechul's pictures on my laptop

I threw all the magazines and clippings about super junior in the trash

and his phone number on my phone

 

FORGET THAT WE'VE MET, OKAY. YOU SAID IT HEECHUL.

YOU ASKED ME TO

 

Its okay ______-ah.. its okay

I just sat on my bed, blaming myself

I wanted a new life

a new me

I opened my laptop and log in to skype

I called mom

"mom"

"yes dear?" she smiled and waved at me

"can I continue my study somewhere, where your company's branches are?"

I asked

"uh.. here in states, its hard. but we also have in manila"

"manila?" I asked her

"in the philippines" she smiled

"where's appa?" I asked

"he's in manila now, he's  fixing some documents there"

I smiled

"I want to study college there" I announced

"sure why not, when will be your graduation?" she asked

I checked my calendar

"3 weeks from now, march 26, 2007 monday" I said

"okay just prepare yourself and your passport, I informed you appa"

I bid goodbye and started to pack up some necessary things

 

the next day I got out to the mall

I bought a korean-Filipino book

I started to memorize Tagalog words

"ka-mus-ta means how are you" I said to myself

"a-ko means I"

"a-ko- si - ______ means I'am _____"

 

gosh learning a new language is hard

 

so I enrolled to a filipino class

near my school

 

with in 2 weeks my like is like this:

every after class I headed to my filipino classes

I was pretty amazed about the new language I'm learning

I'm learning to speak and write filipino now

 

Ako si _______, kamusta?

malungkot ako ngayon kasi dahil sa isang tao

trans: I'm _____, how are you?

I'm sad right now because of a person

 

I wrote on the back of my notebook while on economic's class

I wrote so many things at the back of my notebook

 

hindi ko magawang makalimutan ka.

trans: I can't seem to forget you

----

miss na kita, gusto kita makita.

trans: I miss you, I want to see you.

----

bakit pa kita nakilala? sinaktan mo lang ako

trans: why did I even met you? you just hurted me

----

 

I was writing again at the back of my notebook

but then mrs. park snatched it

"what's this?" she said

"I'm just writing random letters in the alphabet ma'am" I said, okay I LIE

 

after 1 week of the same cycle

no heechul

no super junior

My mom informed me that I'm leaving on the day of my graduation

and It's tomorrow

I packed my clothes and slept

 

I woke up and fixed myself

the ceremony has started and I got some medals

I'm so proud of myself

I hugged suzy and we cried

she knows that I will study in a foreign country

"aish! why do you have to go!" she whined

"I just had to"" I said

we cried and cried

 

after the graduation, We headed to the airport and I'm with suzy

she wants to see me before I wll go

the announcer said the flight *** is boarding

I hugged suzy and promised after 4 years of studying in college there

I will go back to korea and she will be the first person I will visit

 

I hopped in the plane and started to pray

"heavenly father, I hope my decisions will bring me to a good and new life"

______________________

TA-DA! chapter 7 is done!!

hope you like it!