So this turned out to be word vomit again. Plus, I had drank too much coffee today. This was supposed to be angst, but really it turned out to be something. I don't even know what genre I just wrote. 

                The annoying voice in his head did not shut up and Mark was contemplating if banging his head onto a wall was a good idea.  The red head was sitting next to the wall in their practice room, trying not to glare at his band mates. He clenched his fingers around the water bottle and let out a deep breath. Damn it, he was getting too old for this. Mark lifted his head a little bit and stared at Jaebum as his leader made his way towards him.

                Jaebum sat down next to the red haired male and patted the elder’s leg.

                ‘Don’t torture the poor bottle; it did nothing bad to you.’ Mark glared at the light haired male and had to fight the sudden urge to throw the bottle at Jackson’s head. This was his entire fault. The Hong Kong native was goofing out with BamBam and Yugyeom and the red head glared even harder. He felt Jaebum pinching the skin on his arm and he yelped out loud.

                ‘Don’t stare too much or Jackson might notice it.’ The red head covered Jaebum’s mouth with his sweaty palm and cursed under his breath. He really wanted to murder his leader sometimes. The younger male never knew when to be silent, especially when him and Jinyoung locked themselves in their shared room. But that was another story, maybe for another time. 

                Mark felt something wet running across his palm and he retracted the arm that covered Jaebum’s lips. He looked at the glistering skin in confusion. When the realization hit him, he quickly turned to his leader and accidently smacked him with the arm over his shoulder.

                ‘Dude, did you just my palm?’ Jaebum rubbed his shoulder and kicked Mark’s leg lightly.

                ‘, are you trying to kill me?’ The red head looked at Jaebum with an expressionless face. Okay, maybe I did hit you on purpose. Jaebum gasped when he scanned Mark’s face and clutched his heart in mock hurt.

                ‘My God Mark, you are trying to kill me. And to think that I wanted to help you.’ By that point everyone in the practice room were staring at them and the red head stood up to stop Jaebum from leaving him. He knew that the leader was only joking around, but that’s what he needed right now. He needed a person that would be able to take his mind off of things, or rather a certain person.

                The red head played around with Jaebum but his mind still lingered on Jackson. Why was the Hong Kong native doing this to him? Mark felt a pull whenever Jackson was acting goofy, basically just being his normal self. The red head wasn’t really like this before. He used to be comfortable with Jackson sharing his attention with other people, but now, whenever the younger male hung out with someone else Mark couldn’t help but to feel empty. His mind always questioned if Jackson was having more fun with the other person than he had with the red head. He started to wonder if Jackson preferred to spend time with other people.

                And Mark couldn’t help but feel as if he was acting like a jealous girlfriend. He never got jealous in his entire life. Not even when his ex-girlfriend had started showing attention to his best friend back in L.A. Mark was never the jealous type. So why in hell did Jackson manage to make him feel as if the Hong Kong native was supposed to belong only to him and no one else?

                The red head did not want to come off as possessive, but this was what Jackson did to him and to his feelings. He twisted them up and spat them back right into Mark’s face. And it wasn’t even that Jackson didn’t shower him with attention. No, Jackson still spent most of his time with the red head. He still picked him as his favorite person and preferred to joke around with him in English so that the other band members wouldn’t understand them.

                But sometimes, when Jackson cuddled up with Jinyoung or goofed around with the maknae line Mark frowned unconsciously. And during those times Mark tried to reason with himself and chanted the sentence that ‘He was just used to Jackson spending all of his time with Mark.’ And maybe that was it, but the red head still didn’t get used to the way his heart beat picked up whenever Jackson hugged him and how it dropped whenever the Hong Kong native was too touchy with the other members.

                To tell you the truth, Mark had figured out that whatever he felt for Jackson wasn’t just something similar to friendship. Jackson was his dorky best friend that also happened to be his crush. And really, wasn’t Mark a bit too old to have a silly crush like this?

                Sometimes his jealousy got the best of him and during those moments he thought that Jackson figured everything out. But really, the younger male was denser than the red head himself, and that said a lot. Once, Mark got so jealous that he dragged Jackson away from Jinyoung when the two younger males were simply talking. And it might have looked as if they were simply having a conversation, but in the red head’s eyes they were standing way too close to each other.

                Sometimes Mark wondered if he was acting rationally. He usually though things through and just then acted, but Jackson made his mind melt into a puddle of water and he just acted without thinking. Like for example right now. During the practice he glared at Jackson and the maknae line all of the time. And after practice his mind just decided that it was reasonable for him to just ignore Jackson. In some kind of a twisted way he hoped that his jealousy will melt away and he will be able to see Jackson as a mere best friend and roommate.

                He did all he could to avoid the younger male. Heck, he even hung out with Jaebum, and he was sure that Jackson noticed the change in him. He had caught his eyes when Mark was glaring at the way Jackson was cuddling with BamBam and Jackson simply smiled at the red head. , was the Hong Kong native doing this on purpose or what?

                And Mark kind of regretted developing a crush on the younger male. Jackson was too touchy and it seemed as if he did not care who was volunteering to spend their time with him. Sometimes the red head wanted to lock Jackson in their room and to make the younger male promise to him that he will never again cuddle with someone else.

                Maybe Mark’s jealous not only because he kind of has a crush on Jackson, but also because cuddling used to be their thing. They always cuddled before they slept, they still do. But the whole magic of it seems to be a bit lost when the red head knows that this action is done between Jackson and BamBam or Jackson and Jinyoung.

                The red head blamed his stupid mind for the decisions he made. At first it didn’t look that bad, but after a few moments the situation got a bit complicated. Mark had asked Jaebum to show him this new game on his Ipad when Jackson tried to ask Mark to go and grab some snacks with him. The red head only asked because he wanted to try and steer away from the Hong Kong native. At first it seemed like a logical solution, but right now all the members of Got7 could see that Mark was trying to avoid Jackson. And of course Jaebum didn’t help even one bit.

                ‘Seriously Mark, you are such a failure in this game.’ The red head furiously swiped his fingers over the touch screen of the technology and cursed under his breath.

                ‘Yeah, well, so was your dad’s .’ Jaebum gasped in mock hurt and punched Mark in the shoulder playfully.

                ‘You son of a .’ The red head laughed loudly and kicked Jaebum’s leg with the heel of his foot.

                ‘Was that supposed to be an insult? My mom sometimes calls me that, so I’m used to it. Although she never saw the irony in calling me a son of a .’

                ‘My God, can you be pleasant for even one day? You either are silent or always insult me.’ Mark grinned at Jaebum and nodded his head. Actually, Jaebum was right with this one.

                ‘I can only please one person a day. Today isn’t your day, and tomorrow doesn’t look good either.’

                ‘Seriously Mark, I don’t exactly hate you, but if you were on fire and I had water, I’d drink it.’

                ‘Nice, you are finally getting the hang of it.’ Jaebum showed him the middle finger and Mark laughed loudly. Sometimes he wondered why Jaebum was his second best friend, but during moments like these he understood that they were both equally weird and fitted each other perfectly.

                ‘I don’t get it how you two fight like this one moment and the next moment you are all buddy buddy.’

                ‘You have a lot to learn Youngjae.’

                ‘Yeah, but at least I’m not as close to Mark as Jackson is. God forbid if that happened.’ The red head blushed a pale shade of red and glared and Jaebum. How dare he betray him like that?

                ‘Yeah, well, you aren’t that pleasant also.’ This time it was Jackson that stood up for Mar and the red head blushed even more. Jinyoung noticed that and pinched his oldest hyung’s cheeks.

                ‘Look at this, our hyung is so cute when he blushes.’ . Mark was hoping no one would notice this. He could almost hear his mind saying something between the lines of Dishonor on you, dishonor on your cow.  Well, if he had a cow he probably would bring shame to even that innocent creature.

                The red head closed his eyes for one moment and he felt something soft touching his lips. His eyes fluttered open and wow. Jackson has long eyelashes. And his eyebrows are fine. Wait. Hold that thought. Why could he see Jackson’s features up so close? After a few seconds Mark finally wrapped his mind around the fact that his crush was kissing him in front of all of their band mates. Just as Jackson was about to pull away, the red head gripped the back of the younger male’s head and tilted it a little bit in order to have more access to the inviting lips.

                Mark felt how Jackson wrapped his arms around his waist and there was a playful and loud eeewww coming from one of their band mates. Really BamBam, now is not the time for that. The red head ended their kiss and looked at Jackson’s smiling face. The Hong Kong native had a eating grin adoring his face and Mark started pondering if he made the right decision. Jackson leaned closer to his ear and his hot breath caressed the red head’s neck.

                ‘You don’t have to be jealous. Mark is my favorite hyung.’ That little . He did this on purpose. He just wanted to see if Mark would get jealous. The red head cursed at Jackson in his mind again, but was distracted as his lips were kissed for the second time.

                Maybe jealousy isn’t so back after all.