Final.

Happy

Minseok laid in bed with tears rolling down his puffy cheeks. His throat felt like it was being gripped on. He bit his lip to keep himself from just bawling. Jongdae was sleeping on the other bed in the room. He didn't want to wake him. He didn't want him to hate him too. He breathed heavily as he laid there. He felt sick. He felt very sick. The hateful comments kept reappearing in his mind.

'He's so fat!'

'He's a whale!'

'He's not even talented. No wonder SM doesn't let him have any parts.'

He felt his breath collapse as he squeaked. Tears came faster making it harder to breath. He hated himself so much.

Why couldn't he have the body of Jongin?

Why couldn't he have the voice of Jongdae?

Why did he have to be Minseok?

He hated it.

He hated it all.

He rolled over and buried his face into the pillow. He couldn't remember how many times he had been in this position. Weak, crying, dead inside. He just wanted to give up. He wanted to give up his life. It would make everything so much easier for the rest. He stood up and headed to the bathroom.

If he didn't hold everyone back, EXO would be so much better.

He filled the cup with water and popped open the bottle.

If he wasn't so useless, the manager wouldn't scold him often.

He closed his eyes before looking into the bottle full of sleeping pills.

If he wasn't so fat, he'd actually be used in SM's promotions.

He tilted his head back as he took in a large amount of pills. He gulped them down with the water. Once they were gone, he looked into the mirror. His body shook slightly. His eyes were puffy and red. He was still fat. He looked terrible. He pushed himself back to the bed and fell onto it.

He wanted to sleep. He laid there waiting for the darkness to take over him. He swallowed the guilty feeling away. He was finally going to be happy. He was finally going to let the other members be happy. He slipped into a deep sleep soon after.

-

A bright light blinded his eyes. He blinked away from it and looked around. The cold realization that he was still there, slowly began to set in.

Tears filled his eyes. He sat up to see Jongdae and Kris sitting near his bed. He wasn't in his shared room with Jongdae. He was at the hospital. He bit his lip before he began to cry. He didn't want to live. He didn't. 

 

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noloveintheworld #1
Chapter 1: :( sooo sad. But amazing! ^^
VHope_XOXO #2
Chapter 1: MY POOR BABY!!!! I LOVE YOU!!! dont think that!!! ur not fat you are thinner than me!!! also nice writing i wanted to cry but my whole family is with me XD i dont want them to see that
Eezabelle #3
Chapter 1: Dear everyone who hates on xiumin,

, I bet xiumin is thinner than you. Xiumin is ing perfect the way he is. He's a ing stick now, and you can blame your fat for causing him to be so. His cheeks were ing fantastic and now they're gone. You murdered them.

Second, Xiumin has a glorious voice. He was one of the finalists in a singing contest. Again, he's better than you. Xiumin is talented as hell, thank you very much. He DNA dance and sing and he's fabulous.

So if youre hating on xiumin then GTFO.
haissa #4
Chapter 1: and lmao the comments xD some are really funny like LOL xD i mean you're not just successfully write an awesomely depressing minseok drabble but also successfully made minseokkie fans rage lol daebak daebak~~ <3 yokshi dragontopsthepanda :D
haissa #5
Chapter 1: it's minseok . depression. sleeping pills. about untalented and being fat. it pierced right thru my heart. short and powerful. love your writing :')
Liajiya #6
Chapter 1: NO! I really hope minseol doesn't think that way. I love him the way he is.
Thank you for sharing the story :)
kurama-ssi #7
Chapter 1: all it takes is a single thoughtless comment.
it doesn't matter that there are people (like me) who love Minseok the way he is, and think he's talented. Because that one negative will always outweigh all the positives, and they will always been taken to heart.
Minseok ah, please take care of yourself. I don't want this to become a reality.
stardust667 #8
Chapter 1: its sad because even though a lot of people think the opposite of those statements, like myself, rude comments seem to hold the most power :( he's so beautiful and handsome and if people have a rude comment, they should keep it to themselves, or at least keep it out of the media. celebrities get enough as it is, they don't need clueless morons shooting them down when they work so hard just to please.
ailee_exo #9
Chapter 1: Ahhhhhh. Frick. This is perfection. Why is this only a one shot omfg there needs to be more because you write so amazingly. <3 Im about to cry because Minseeoookkkk ㅠㅠ
This one shot is amazing. Thank you so much <333
iluvcutestuffandidky #10
Chapter 1: to all of the es that judge xiumin
first of all
have looked in the mirror ?
second of all
you blind cuz he aint fat there is a clear difference between fat and chubby
third
stop judging him
what right do you have to judge
hes up there while youre just waaaayyyyyy down there where my is
in fact your lower than
you might as well have come from the earth's core cuz das how low you are
and lastly
get the hell outta yo cuz it aint a hat or some 's gon get cut and i mean you
sorry for the rage but really dem es really need to get some glasses and contact lenses aint count

also the the drabble was and is awesome love ya and bye ^3^ /kisses/
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