***I NEED YOU ***

 

i couldnt believe what i've read ... he needs me

he only needs me to distract him

i am nothing but a distraction for him

it hurt .. it really hurt.

this is the only thing that i will get outta him ... Pain and more Pain

i guess everyone were right about him .... To Forget HIM, THEY said

but ... i was againts everyone because my heart was controling me

those feeling that were true and innocent

an innocent love that started to destroy me

 

i didnt know what to say right now ,,, what would i say?

how would i explain my feelings when i stil dunno my feelings yet ..

even though it is just something that i know it wont come true One Day but why does it Hurt that much ??

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its been 3 days Again that he didnt text me in ..

AGAIN ,,, as usual , he would show up and dissapear like nothing had happened

that man really ... how did i fall with this kind of man ..Am I that stupid .... * i think so *

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a week passed ..

i was busy with studying for my exams and that made me so busy to think of him ..

even though i had alot of pressure to do well in my exams and some other problems but i was in peace Mentaly

after he stopped talking to me .. my heart was at ease ... i guess i'm better off

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after about 2 weeks i got a message again From Him

 

he kept saying sorry and that he had some problems he need to solve AND..

 

I need you

 

But ....i didnt need him.

i want him out of my life   ...  i've decided

i really need to put an end to this ..

as mush as it would hurt to lose him but keeping him in my life was worst

i knew that this was the right decision .. but ...

i still didnt know how to tell him ..

 

i stayed all night figuring out the words to say .. to make up One sentence was hardred then any exams i ever had

by morning it was ready ... my break up message ..