Beeb beeb 

The music tune of my line beebing announcing for a new chat message but I ignored it cause I just got home from college and I feel like a mess so, I wanted to take a shower before anything else

 

..

 

That moment I froze .... 

 

After finishing my shower I took my phone to checkout my line new chat box and say hi to some friends world wide but something unexpected happened. ... 

After months of dissappearing.. without any word Without any news about him .. 

He .. 

He sent me a message ... 

I at that moment didn't know what to do or what to say or even what to feel. .. 

I couldn't think of anything at that moment

I thought that I got over it and that I moved on

right now My life is more stable and my emotions are in a peaceful mode but He decided to show up .. Again to ruin everything I worked on to fix ... 

I hate you ... I whispered with a tear falling without me knowing why it fell 

I reread his message over and over again .. 

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Hi ...

Do you remember me ...? 

Its been a long time since we last talked 

I am really sorry for my sudden dissapearing but there was things I had to do

Im geniunly sorry that I left like this

I miss you

I hope you will forgive me .....

 

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hell no ..

I will not

I threw my phone over my bed and decided to ignore the message like he never was there I continued my daily routine as in a normal day like nothing happened earlier ..

I tried hard to forget

BUT , it wasnt that easy to do

there's a part of me that ... still loved him or ??

I don't really know

...

it was at night when it was the hardest, when I was alone and nothing to do nothing to distract me out of my thoughts

later on at mednight i recieved another message from him 

 

* are you ignoring me 

* i know you read my message 

* you still mad at me

* please forgive me

 

........

i put my head on my pillow and shouted out my frustration after reading that message

i knew that if i didnt answer him and feed my curiosity i will not manage to sleep or rest abit

so, i decided to reply .... 

 

my heart was bumbing so hard and my hands were shaking 

i didnt know what to answer him,,, what should i say 

i decided to gather my thoughts first and write everything that i wanted to say in a piece of paper then type it for him 

but then,,

i changed my mind and decided to act like i didnt know him 

or that he means nothing to me but , who could i fool with that ??

i cant even fool my self and make me act like he's a stranger ...

 

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hey there 

i sure remember you and yeah its been along time 

you just dissapeared without saying aword and now you showing up like nothing happened

i just cant understand you yet ..

what do you want from me after all this time ??? 

 

* forgive me for what i've done 

i didnt meant to , but i had to go .. to dissapear 

 

he replied me in just seconds after my message that i sent 

he was waiting me to reply,

he was never that fast to reply me now .. what had changed in him ?

...

what happened ,, could you tell me ?? i wrote back 

* i dont know. can we just start a new beggining 

now you want us to start new without telling me what happened .. i got angry and wrote back, he didnt even want to tell me what happened and why he left me 

* im sorry baby, but its something personal and i dont want you to worry for nothing , just forget bout it please .. he begged 

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i got angry from his reply and i threw my phone away without replying him .. 

but then i heard my phone beebing again for a new message so, i took my phone and put it in a silent 

i just ignoredhim and went to sleep ... Hardly