Surrounded by his Demons
Description
Oh Sehun had a problem.
He has never felt good about himself, ever since his father slapped and beat him, calling him a trouble-making bastard.
He doubted the Ahjumma who ran after him for half an hour, who insisted that she'd seen "talent" in his eyes.
He had zero confidence when he'd auditioned for SM Entertainment, and convinced himself that he was only accepted thanks to Lady Luck.
His self-esteem was brought down even more when he started comparing himself to other trainees in SM.
If only I could sing as well as Baekhyun,
If only I could be as toned as Jongin,
If only I could be as domestically talented as Kyungsoo,
If only I could be as thin as Luhan.
Sehun didn't like Luhan as soon as he met the older, something about him just made him feel so... unworthy.
Oh Sehun hated himself.
Foreword
Hellooooo! ^O^
So this is my first fanfic on here! Well, actually no because I've authored some other stories on my other account(which I shall not tell you what it is muahaha). But it is my first time writing a fic like this, based on personal experiences. Over the past year I've gone through several problems such as self-harm, anorexia nervosa, depression and anxiety but fortunately I'm getting treatment now (: And I've gotten heaps better! And for anyone out there who is struggling with any of the above illnesses: PLEASE get help. There is no such thing as not deserving to eat, not deserving to be happy, not deserving to be good to yourself. Everyone should be happy, it's just that your demons tell you otherwise. If any of you guys have problems you'd like to share with me, you can always kik me at "aristocunt" (yes, my UN was based of a fic here) ((and you should totally check that fic out if you haven't)) so yeah! I hope you enjoy this fic as much as I hope I'll enjoy writing it! ^^
xoxo,
yonnicorn
WARNING: this fanfiction may be triggering to any of you guys out there struggling with eating disorders, depression or other mental illnesses. please read with caution and stop reading if you feel triggered, the last thing i would want to do is trigger you angels out there! love you! xx
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