"SHUT THE UP!" I screamed as loudly as i could. The others just scared at me, clearly in shock.

"you don't know anything you stupid ignorant people. You don't know what he was feeling, you don't know what anyone is feeling. A few weeks before Kris took of i heard him on his Phone Talking to his mother. He was Talking about hospitals and his mother wanted him to quit the band. It sounded serious. So don't just make assumtions. We are all angry, we are all sad. But that doesn't mean we should blame Kris. Afterall it was his desition to make, not ours. And it doesn't matter what reason he had, we should still be supportive and respekt his desition. He couldn't do this anymore, he was tired. I have had the same feelings and i am sure you all have to. So please stop badmouthing him. Please." I didn't realize the tear that was streaming down my face. It had been so long since i cryed last, and it felt painfully good. 

"Chen" i heard them say. I heard Yixing say it to. "Chen please don't cry. We are sorry. We are. Please Chen." 

My tears just got worse. "Please" i Said.  "Don't."

yixing slowly approached me, hand outstreched. "Don't do what Chen?" He asked. 

"That." I cried harder now. Why couldn't they see what i meant. "Stop calling me that." 

The others looked at me, confused. " you what?" 

And that was the second Time that day that i exploded. "YOU IDIOTIC PEOPLE CAN'T YOU SEE WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT? SERIOULSY ARE YOU STUPID, I HATE YOU ALL YOU" they started at me, shocked walking towards me with questioning faces. "DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH ME. OFF JUST OFF ALL OF YOU" and i ran. I ran and i ran. Out of the training room, up some satirs and out on top of the high building, looking down the short fence, staring at the cars.

Should i jump? It would end my pain, for sure. It would end everything.

But i would hurt so many people.

I wouldn't have Time to jump either, as the door opened. I spun around. I thought i had desapeared to quickly for anyone to follow me. But on the other hand, this one is fast. 

" what do you want?" I questioned.

the person stared at me. "At first i didn't understand what you were Talking about. I have noticed you being sad lately but not why. But now it finally makes sence, after your outburst."

okay, he had caught my interest. What stupid thing did he think i was sad for.

"It's the name,isn't it."

i stared at him, shocked. I never suspected he would be the one to understand.

"it is, isn't it? Please answer me. It's because of Chen? Please Jongade, please. Am i right?"

my heart was pumping. My eyes were teary. Finally after all this someone Said it. 

Someone called me Jongdae.

author's note.

heeeeyooo i am back with yet another chapter. Who do you guys think the mystery man is? Any ideas? Until next Time!!