I know, I know I should be glad. I'm getting more known. I get invited at Tv shows, radio station and even more idols wants to get to know me better. They see me now like a funny, charming singer and not like a the ugly, awkward of 2pm anymore. They are all acting nice to me now. I even ''stole'' some of Nichkhun's fan. They all like me now. I should be happy right?



I got a busy schedule and I'm not really used to all this. I don't slept a lot these days. When I get some free hours to sleep, my eyes won't shut down. My body is numb from all those broadcast but my heart is fully awake. I miss him


I have no time left to see him and I miss him. I didn't realize how important he was to me until I couldn't see him as often as I wished I could. It have been almost three weeks since the last time I saw him. It have been three weeks since I couldn't sleep normally. I miss him so badly that even when I'm dead tired, I still can't sleep.


The only way we can talk to each other is through text messages and twitter. But those are not enough. I want to hear him call me homie and mock me by calling me Jundyu, I don't want to just read it. I want to hear his voice.



But why does I miss him so much? Why do I wish I could see him every day? Since when I got so addicted to him. I know it's crazy to say but sometimes I feel the bond that him and I have is stronger than the one that I have with everyone in 2PM. It's a bit weird to say but I think of him a lot



Since I always sleep better when I hear his voice I decide to call him that night


I composed his number nervously since I didn't knew if he would answer his phone since it was very early in the morning.



'' Yoboseyo? ''


'' Hi, bro!'' I said in the most fluent English I could.


'' Jun, is that you??? Did you see the time!!! It's three in the morning, yo."


'' I know Chance, but I really can't sleep.''


'' Again?! You should really go see a doctor bro.''


'' No, I already know why I can't sleep but there's nothing I can do.''


'' So what is the problem?''

'' I miss you.''

'' What! You miss me?'' His voice sounded shock and I felt like he was a bit panicking so I try to calm him down.

'' Not you, you. But I miss like creating songs in the studio and all. I don't have a lot of free time so I can't relax with you and create music.


I heard a deep sight coming from the phone. Why is he sighing like that is that not what he wanted me too say?


''So what up, Chance!'' I tried to change subject and to hopefully turn this conversation into a positive subject but I wasn't that lucky.


'' I can't sleep too.''


'' Really! Why?''


'' I'm not sure. There's a lot of things in my mind so I can't sleep. I been writing songs instead of sleeping but they all sound the same.''


'' You wrote a new song. Let hear, sing it to me.''


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