“You better burn it now.” J.Y.Park throw the books on Jinyoung lap.

His expressionless face makes Jinyoung even more afraid.

He took the books and realize that it might be the end of him.

J.Y.Park sit next to him. He put his hand on Jinyoung shoulder.

“You should really burn it. It’s not that I ask you to burn your feeling.

No. I have no right to ask you. It’s good thing I found this book.

What do you thing will happen if someone else found it?

How if it’s create a rumour later? How if you became the talk of town

because you –a kid– who’s still immature like a boy.

You’re gay. Are you ready to face it all?

If yes, then how about Mark? Don’t you think that it

will give an impact to Mark’s image as well?”

He stop for a while and then continue again.

“You have every right to love and to be loved.

I told this because I see you as my son.

Why do you think I pick you to debut first with JJProject?

Why I choose you to play on Dream High 2?

It’s because I’m sure you will be big oneday.”

J.Y.Park stand and walks away. When he already in front of the door

he turn his head back.

“You know, you’re handsome, kind, decent singer, good rapper, great dancer,

there’s no way Mark do not like you.” He smile calmly.

Really like a father who comfort his son.

“It’s not that I’m support you nor prohibit you.

It’s your life, it’s your choice.

Be wise kid.” Then J.Y.Park really leave him alone.

A second after, Yeeun come in. “Jinyoungah, see what I bring for you.”

She bring a CD on her hand.

“The tittle is ‘If that was you’, I’m not really sure that it’s that good.

But I try my best not to disappointing you.”

Jinyoung take the CD and play it. The instrumental is good.

He listen the lyrics seriously. And then smile.

“You’re really a great composer noona. I love it.”

“Of course!”

“Noona, can you please give this to Mark. He must be love this song too.”

Yeeun lift his eyebrow up. “Actually it’s still a secret.

But since you ask me, then okay.” Yeeun stand up.

“I’ll make sure Mark will listen to this song.”

Finally Jinyoung allowed to back to dorm.

The first thing he do is burning the books.

Mark suddenly appear. “Hi, what are you doing?

Burning a bad memory huh?” ask Mark. “Yes, kind of. Haha”

“Sorry I couldn’t visit you on hospital. They didn’t allowed me.

They won’t any member also got contracted.”

“It’s okay.”

“I wonder what actually happened that night?

And are you really have a swine flu?

It’s irrational since we talk a minutes before it happened.

And it’s not like you have any flu.”

“Yes I’m contracted swine flu. Maybe you just didn’t realize.”

Jinyoung smile so pathetic.

“I already listen to that song.”

“hmm?”

“The one Yeeun noona gave to me. You ask her right? It’s nice.”

“Yes I think so.”

The situation become so awkward. Mark blinks his eyes several before he finally talk again.

“Do you like me?”

Jinyoung shut his mount up. “Of course. Everybody like you!”

“I mean, do you love me?”

Jinyoung just look at the fire. He’s so confused.

He remember J.Y.P’s advice. He should be wise.

“Please answer me. I don’t know but after you gave me this song,

I realize something.

Why do you always so kind to me?

Why do you help and take care of me?

Why you always be there when I need you.

Why I’m the only one who asking for help

and you always the one who offering. Do you really love me?”

Jinyoung looks at Mark’s eyes.

The he take his face closer kiss Mark’s forehead gentlely.

It’s the longest forehead kiss that they ever do.

Slowly Jinyoung put his lips next to Mark’s ear and whisper.

“Because............  I’m your Eomma.”

Then he take his head back and sit normally.

“Well, I’m you Eomma. I take care all the member not only you.

I’m pretty sure you misunderstand but don’t make it even worse. I’m kind to all people.”

Jinyoung put his arm around Mark’s shoulder. Then he hit Marks head.

I sould take a rest now.  Jinyoung leave Mark alone and back to his room.

He play Yeeun song ‘If That was You’. He cant hold his tears anymore.

His heart already broken since long time ago,

that i wouldn't abble to broke any worse.

The song make his heart hurt even more.

Too much pain.

“It could have been, though

I don’t know if you believe it

If that was you, if that was you

Even if I lost everything, even if I lost

My dreams and future,

It could’ve been okay

If that was you, if that was you

Even if the only thing I could do

Is to sit and wait for you all day

I could’ve been happy,

Though you won’t believe me

You’ll say it’s only talk

No way, You’ll say never,

You won’t believe me

But I could’ve been like that it that was for you,

if that saw for you

It felt like I had the whole world

So I gave thanks again and again

It was the first time I loved

Someone more than my self

I didn’t want to be apart from you for a single moment,

I’d rather be in pain

If only I could lay beside you

If I could just stay lying with you

Sometimes, I wanted to run away,

Sometimes I wanted to fight

I wanted to scream that I am in love

You

Your love was worth fighting for,

You were the one I’ve been looking for

You’ll be listening to this somewhere

This song I’m singing for you"

Ever since that day, Jinyoung’s feeling didn’t canged.

He try his best not to look so obvious.

Today Mark look so perfect on Younha’s Starry Night. 

Mark wear a hat but he put it backward. His lovely Red hair covered.

His blue clothes make him even perfect.

Today on Younha’s Starry Night radio,

Jinyoung keeps looking at Mark.

“Hello, I’m Mark. I’m a flying member. ”Mark smiling preciously.

‘You’re flying angel mark, please stop smiling like that

or my feeling won’t be stopped.’ Jinyoung said on his heart.

“Yeah I’m Wild and y Jackson! Hehe”

‘You’re wild and y but also stupid.

Stop act innocent or I would hit your face.’ Jinyoung added.

“I’m Park Jinyoung, Junior, I’m an Eomma!” ‘Ah, yes I’m an Eomma.

That’s why I love Mark endlessly and didn’t need any feedback.

That’s why I’m also happy when he is happy and I’m sad if he is sad.

I’ll 100 times bleeding if he is being hurt.’

The DJ ask them to sing ‘I like You’. They all stand up.

Jinyoung stand next to Mark. And Jackson In front of him.

When the music played Jinyoung sing with all his heart.

‘Mark would you feel it that I like You?’

Jinyoung can’t keep his mind right. He hold Mark’s hand and sing.

It’s good Mark didn’t reject it. He hold it tight.

He want to send his love trough his touches. Trough his act.

Not by words. And Jackson also start to hold Youngjae’s hand.

‘Heiss… Stop following me Jackson. I know that you envy.’

Jinyoung mock Jackson on his heart.

At the end of the song suddenly Jackson add “You know I like you!!”

and point to the camera. So, it’s really a war from now?

Jinyoung know that until now Mark still only look at Jackson.

But he never going down without a fight, aight?

-END-

A/N: Aaaaah finally TT_TT after i read it 1234567x i realize that it's not angst?

ah since i'm confused i'll let it be like this. originally, Jr should be stabbed by a knife.

but i edit it. my heart so weak. and also J.Y.Park should prohibit their love.

But once again my weak heart can't endure it.

Is it enough to let this story ended like this?

Anyway it's better if you listen to Sunmi - If That was You when you read this chapter.

Really thank you to all the readers. All the subsriber, those comments, yall makes my day.

Thanks a lot to Ema Eonni who make me create this acc.

Thank you for editing my really poor FF, and also for the picture.

Thank you for Zidny to stay with me untill this mid night.

I know i can count on you.

thanks for all the support !! ^^