-First Chapter-

"Erin, did you ate your lunch?" -I asked her

"Yes, Jake with max" -she replied

"Are you dating him?" -I asked

"Yes, is there a problem?"-she throw back a question at me

Yes there is, I hate seeing you with other boys, I hate seeing how they make you laugh and I don't,

"Nothing"

It hurts deep inside, You're just fingers away from me, but your heart is million miles away. I can't even get to touch it
I hurried back to my seat and just stared at her from a distance,

"When will you tell her Jake? When its too late?" -Jeric asked my bestfriend

"Stupid, I can't, I don't have the courage to tell it to her" -I just gave him a smile

I'm an idiot for being too weak. I can't even tell you how I feel.

"Jake, You better tell her before those feelings burst out" -he tapped my back

I stared at her from my seat. She's everything I want but I'm everything she doesn't want.

-5:00PM

"Hey jake, can you come with me tomorrow?" -erin asked

"Where?" -I asked

She smiled, those smiled were the ones that killed my heart

"On my mom's tomb, its her birthday tomorrow" -She said

"Yeah sure, I'll pick you up on your house" -I replied. Yeah Its her mom's birthday, before she died she asked me to protect her of course I agreed.

Erin stopped walking

"Are you having a hard time breathing again?" -I asked then quickly get the inhaler on my bag

"Thanks jake" -she whispered

I got her back, she's so fragile, I gave her a walk home. Her daddy is not with her, he have other families what a hard father leaving my princess alone. I grew up with her, I shared everything with her but her heart seems to locked deep within her.

"Thanks jake, see you tomorrow" -she smiled then walked inside

"I love you erin" -I whispered

as I walk my way back home, I passed by a book shop. I decided to go inside

"Hey boy, how are you?" -the old man asked, he's the owner I think

"I'm fine sir" -I replied

"Ways to make her know how you feel" -the book title says.

I checked the few pages

"Are you inlove young man?" -the old man said

"Uhm, I think so sir" -I humbly replied

he closed the book that I was reading

"No book can teach you how to love right. Loving someone is not by eyes and the brain but how the heart interprets the feeling you have. Its your heart that knows everything. Follow it and it will lead you to what is right" -the old man said

"I guess you're right but I don't have the courage to tell her" -I replied

"Courage is found deep inside" -he said then left

Courage, courage is not easy to achieve, especially when you have to think of the responsibility first

-next day-

"Erin where are you? come out!" -I shouted

I've been ringing her doorbell for about 25 minutes, so I decided to jump over the wall and sneek inside

"What the hell erin!" -I shouted she's lying on the floor unconscious "WAKE UP ERIN !" -I can hear my own voice, the voice of pain and fear

the fear of losing someone..

not just someone

the fear of losing my world

"HANG ON ERIN!" -I was crying

! Don't get her yet!

I opened the car door and drove her to the nearest hospital

When we reach there the nurses and doctors quickly brought her to the emergency room

"Do everything for her! I beg you" -I weaped on the doctors foot

"we will" -then they got inside the room

-after 5 hours-

I felt like my whole world is starting to get destroyed

"She's still unconscious, and I might tell you honestly, her heart can't take it anymore. She still have 5 months boy but she's dying" -The doctor said

"No. No! PLEASE! try again! She's not dying please!! She's strong" -I begged

"Stop jake" -my bestfriend came

"Jeric!" -I cried

"Sorry bro" -he tapped my back

"Is there anything we can do?" -Jeric asked the doctor

"A heart transplant" -the doctor replied "but it would take a lot of time of finding one" -he added

"You can test me" -I desperately said

"ARE YOU STUPID JAKE?!" -jeric shouted

"Please doctor test me!" -I kneeled

"I will, follow me" -the doctor said

"If I past the test, I want you to do something for me" -I said before leaving

I left him with a sad eyes

I promised I would protect her even if giving up my own life

 

Narrator: As days passed the doctors continued the test on jake and they found out that jake can be a donor

"Everything is done as what you've asked jake" -jeric said

Only few days left before the transplant occur.

"Are you ready?" -he added

"Of course for my princess" -I smiled

When you loved someone truly, you can do anything for her, even death can't stop you.

"I love her too much" -I sadly said "too sad that I won't be the one to wait for her in the altar" -I added

"Stop jake, you're making my feelings worst, I'm losing my bestfriend" -he chuckled sadly

"Take care of my world jeric" -I closed my eyes "remember what I told you" -I then added before totally closing everything

"I will bro. I will" -I heared him wiped his tears " you for leaving me" -he added

 

Narrator: It was time for the operation

"doctor, do everything to save her" -I smiled happily and took the last glance of my world

"I love you to the depths of my soul Erin, please be happy. I love you" -I whispered to her then closed. I reach for her hands I hold it tightly for this is the last time I will be able to held my world. my life. my everything. my love.

"We will start the procedure" -the doctors said

I closed my eyes, then every single memory I have with her came so fast. I started to lose breathe. I felt my heart is leaving away from my body. I gave my last breathe

"Bye for now my Erin" -I whispered in my mind

-after 5 years-

"Hey happy birthday Erin!" -Jeric greeted me

"How are you?" -he asked

"I'm as fine as ever buddy!" -I replied

Its been five years since jake left. I wonder where he is

"I have gift for you" -he gave me a tape

"What is this" -I asked

"Watch it later" -he smiled

Its my 23rd birthday

everything went smooth. I was able to celebrate my birthday alive. I was cleaning up when I saw the tape Jeric gave me

"Oh I forgot to watch you. I think you are a movie" -I whispered to myself

I put it on the DVD

 

A man appeared

"Jake" -I whispered

"Hi, Erin Happy 23rd Birthday young lady" -he said

He looks so pale

"I hope you're watching this. If you are I'm probably dead, wanna know why? The heart you have right know was mine" -he continued "I miss you my erin even before I forgot what I have to say. I want to let you know how much I love you, you were my world, my everything. I lived for you. I promise your mom that I would protect you and know I have fulfilled it" -he continued

"Sorry I wasn't there for you all the time" -he started to cry

"Idiot! You were always there for me" -I replied

"I know I'm idiot for not letting you know how I feel. I don't have the courage to do so." -he continued "take care of my heart it belongs to you" -he said "I love you erin from the deepest depths of my soul" -he continued

I was crying before I knew it. you jake why didn't you tell me. I love you too

"I LOVE YOU TOO IDIOT! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME!?" -I shouted at my Television

"Erin, please don't forget about me. I wasn't able to wait for you at the altar. I'm sorry erin" -He said then the video was out

 

"I hate you how can I marry someone when the one I want to marry is dead idiot" -I cried myself out

I was about to turn off the T.V when another video played

"Sorry nalobat yung videocam ko, pero siguro ngayon sasabihin ko na sa iyo ang lahat erin, I loved you eversince you helped me become who I am. I love your smile, I love everything about you. You were just what a man needs. Did you remember when you first fell in love? We stalked on him each day, did you know how I wish it was me? It really hurts inside my heart, seeing you go crazy over a stupid man whom don't want to love you back? Geez I'm really idiot for making it happen. He was you first heart break." -he paused

My tears keep on rolling down my cheeks

"but what hurts the most, is that I don't have enough courage to tell you how I feel. I don't have it, all I can do is gave you my shoulders for you to cry on. Gave you my advices to follow, gave you my courage to stay strong, gave you my hands to hold on, You know what erin an old man once said to me No book can teach you how to love right. Loving someone is not by eyes and the brain but how the heart interprets the feeling you have. Its your heart that knows everything. Follow it and it will lead you to what is right, and I do believe him. I gave my all, the day you collapsed on your house was supposedly the day I was going to confess, but I have no regrets my erin." -he started to cry

"Please love again my dear erin. Don't close your heart for love" -he wiped his tears

How I wish I can wipe them off, but I can't

"Erin" -he pulled a red box from his pocket

"If ever I was alive, will you marry me?" -he asked his eyes were begging to say yes

he opened the box and showed a diamond ring. I imagined myself wearing it

"Yes I will" -I answered starring blankly on the ceiling.

"Erin, I love you so much." -he cried again "Oh how I wish you can love me too" -he added
he was like screaming but his voice began to crack

"Hey erin, this is as far as I go. Happy Birthday to my world" -his voice was fading

"I will and always will love you" -he bid good bye.

"Bye" -he gave his last words

 

There's nothing I can do now. I was kneeling infront of the television.

"Come back to me jake, I need you" -I just whispered while crying hard

I touched my heart.

"Thank you for everything my love" -I sniffed

"Your love cannot be compared with anything else" -I added

I stared at the distance feeling lifeless, after everything I've known, how can I continue to live on?

"Jake, you really are a man crying in front of the camera like that" -I smiled

"Tears of a man" -I chuckled then dugged my face on the floor hopelessly crying
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I felt someone kissed my hair
"Why are you crying my princess? You will marry me right? You just answered yes!" -a familiar voice

I stood up

and saw him smiling at me

"I love you so much my erin" -Jake whispered then kissed me

This is real
-the end-