I was only half asleep but my dream was starting early.

I was hearing Key's voice, a whisper of my name.

"Jonghyun, oppa!" I heard him call, his voice was not so far.

I didn't open my eyes, I was too tired, besides it's just a dream.

Then I felt a movement at the edge of my bed, as if someone sat there.

That's when I opened my eyes.

I would've jumped in shock but my body was frozen!

Key was sitting there, his body facing the wall in front of my bed but his face twisted to his right

so that he was looking at me.

"Key?" my lips did not move, but still I heard myself say his name.

"Oppa!" he smiled, his body was still...

"How did you get in?" I was sure my lips nor my tongue moved.

"You forgot to lock, oppa." 

"Really? Did I?"

Key just smiled. I smiled back.

That's okay. I wanted to see him.

I always want to. :)

"Why did you come?" I asked.

"Hmm... I wanted to hear you say it." 

He stood up and walked towards me.

He sat diagonally beside me so I could see his face clearly.

Beautiful.

Key was looking down at me and I was looking up at him.

Very beautiful.

"Hear me say what?" I continued to speak through my mind.

"Tell me, oppa..." he paused shyly.

"Tell me... You love me."

I was caught off guard by that request of his.

"Oppa, do you love me?" 

If I could move, I would've turned to the other side of my bed.

I would've ignored his question.

"Oppa, please... Please answer me... Just say, 'I love you'. That's all I want to hear." 

Key pleaded. I looked at his eyes. There was no sign of tears about to roll down from them.

"You know how much I hate that question." I finally said with a tone of anger.

He bowed his head. "Neh, I know."

"Then why are you bringing it up? I thought you understood." I tried to say the words nicely,

still without any movement on my face.

"Oppa, please. I just want to hear, do you love me?" Key forced a smile on his face,

trying to persuade me.

"You know why I don't want to answer that. Don't you trust me?

Everything I did for you and I would do for you, aren't they enough proof!?" I shouted.

I can't control my temper when it comes to this topic.

The topic I hate most.

"Three simple words, Jonghyun. Just say them. Please." Key continued to beg.

"What's the problem, Key? Tell me. What's the real issue here?"

"There is no issue. I just wanted to hear you say it...... for the last time." The last words,

that came after a short pause, were murmurs.

"Key, you know why I hate it, really hate it, when you ask me that question.

Because it's like you doubt it. You doubt how much I do." I couldn't say 'love you'.

"No! There's no doubt in my heart. I know you love me. But it would be nice to hear

before I go......home." Key defended.

"No. You're doubting me." I said.

"And how can you be sure about that, huh!?" Key's voice was irritated.

I sighed. "Because if you had no doubt then you wouldn't ask the obvious.

Because now that you're asking, if I said 'I don't love you', you would believe it."

Key's face was blank for a while until a tear drop rolled down his left cheek.

Then her tears came nonstop.

He nodded, still not speaking.

"Key, just go home, okay. Let's talk about this tomorrow." I couldn't see him cry.

I wanted to wipe away his tears, but since my eyes were the only part of my body

that could move, I chose to send him away.

"But what if there is no tomorrow? Will you tell me now? That you love me?"

Key said in between sobs that broke my heart into tiny bits.

"NO." I said firmly. But in my head, I was debating on just saying it or not. But in the end,

my pride was the strongest. How stupid of me! I'm such a stupid lover!

"Okay. Goodnight, Jonghyun. Go back to sleep. I love you so much."

Right after I heard his last sentence, my eyes involuntarily shut.

Then I felt his breath coming closer to my face.

Then I felt his lips on mine.

"I love you, Jonghyun."