That’s why when WGM ended, it broke our heart especially mine. That time when we filmed our last scene, I badly want to tell our fans that our show will still continue. But sadly, it’s off-cam. And yes, it’s private.

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We continued seeing each other, whenever there’s a free time even for just an hour, we’ll see to it that there’s no time wasted when we’re together. I’m amaze with all the efforts he’s exerting, since day one that we met until the present time that we’re still together, AND going strong.

He’s not just an ordinary boy, he’s extra-ordinary in his own ways.

That’s why when I moved to my own apartment, few months later, he surprised me that they also moved to the same villa as mine. He even said that it was only coincidental, they just randomly picked a villa and voila! We’re neighbors, oh wait, I can even count in my 2 hands how many steps is our room’s distance. Even though it costs that much, he still pleads for his brothers and manager to just stay in that place. I asked him why, and his answer made me tear up.

Since the day you stepped out of the SNSD Dorm, you made me worried. I even stayed late at night just by thinking about your safety. Although you told me that the security here is tight, but still, there’s still danger that awaits you, especially that you’re one of the sought after artist. I am your bodyguard remember? I’m your Yongwall, when there’s your fanboys looking at you with those predator eyes that I badly want to poke. I’m your clown that makes you happy when you’re sad, and nada nada nada. But among all the things I can be just for you, I AM a boyfriend who worries a lot about his girlfriend, call me overprotective, but still, I’m just protecting you, I’m just protecting my treasure.

Since that day, the gogumas raised higher and higher.

You’re a perfect boyfriend, and with that it scare’s and pressure me. I’m always thinking, am I good enough for you? Am I repaying all the things you’re doing for me? All the sacrifices, am I being selfish who only knows how to take care of myself? Am I making you happy as much as you’re making me? You’re so perfect that it scares me, you became my world, that’s why I’m half scared that it might get stolen and worst? I’ll be homeless.

You can’t blame me with all the insecurities I’m feeling. Because of you being a good hearted sunbae and hoobae to those other artists that gets to know you, you gain admirers. It’s not that I’m expecting you to just easily have a change of heart, I bestowed my trust upon you, that you not need to be scared of.

As much as you’re worrying about my fanboys, I am twice worrying about those fangirls surrounding you, especially in music shows, awards night and nada nada nada. Although you’re doing your work as my yongwall, I’m also doing my best to be your Seowall, even though you don’t know it, but sorry to say, I already beat twice your fangirls than my fanboys you beat. It’s childish yes, but as your Girlfriend, I want to have you ALL, all of you, as possessive as it sounds, but hell yeah, you’re all mine Jung!

My thankfulness of having you as my boyfriend won’t end here, because the list would go on and on and on. I promise not to let go of your hand, to be understanding, to be the best girlfriend you would ever have. To the point that no one can overcome me in your heart, I’ll own it until it’s very last beat. I’ll own it, as much as I own all of you.

I may not be as showy as you in public, but allow me to be the most cheesy girlfriend that only you can see privately.

Nae Namja,

Nae sarang,

My love,

My aeyin,

And the one whom I want to spend with the rest of my existence here on Earth,

My Jung Yong Hwa

I love you! I love you! I love you!