Kai POV

After I find Kyungsoo yesterday, I get to know his house, I get to know his number, I get to know a lot of him.

He's a little bit different from the first I know him. He seems a little gloomy.

Maybe because he doesn’t get a good sleep. He said to me yesterday. Poor him.

Today I come to the school with him, surprising me there’s no trace of Chanyeol everywhere.

Aren’t they inseparable?

Hum. But it’s good then.

I look at Kyungsoo who’s busy playing with his food.

This is lunch time. And I’m here at the school bench eating lunch with my crush, how wonderful is my day.

He brings his own food, a great meal through. Meat, egg, vegetables, and rice.

But why he isn’t eat?

“Soo, aren’t you gonna eat?” I poke him with my shoulder.

I really want to call him by ‘Soo’ like Chanyeol did. It’s my first time calling him that, I always call him D.O or maybe several Kyungsoo. I know this we aren’t that close. But I hope he doesn’t mind.

He looks at me surprised. And then frown.

My heart pounding really fast. What will he say about me call him by ‘Soo’?

“Um.. I’m not hungry yet.” He closes his lunch box.

Hmm? What happen with him frowning so suddenly?

But he’s not complaining, so I can call him Soo now?

“Okay, hum.. Soo..What—“  I want to ask him but he holds my hands.

“I’m so sorry Kai, but can you please don’t call me with ‘Soo’ it’s only remains me of him. I.. I already try hard.. but I, I..” He stops palming his face.

“It’s alright Kyungsoo, if you said so. I’m okay.” I gulp.

Somewhat it’s really annoy me, the one who called him ‘Soo’ it’s only Chanyeol right? So, I can’t? But it’s okay I’ll wait.

“No.. I’m sorry Kai, you can call me with anything you like, but.. for now just don’t call me with ‘Soo’. I’m just tired. I’m sorry Kai.” He admits.

“Why you’re tired? You don’t have a good sleep again?” I ask concernly.

He laughs but his laugh is bitter, like mocking at something.

“What so funny?” I ask.

“No.. it’s not funny. It’s frustrating.. how am I get a good sleep? I can’t sleep Kai.” He sighs.

“Why? Do you have a nightmare?” I look at him.

It’s true he looks really tired, his eyes swollen and a bit red, his eye bag is real dark.

“No. I just can’t. It’s all disappear now. I can’t smell it again.” He sobs in frustration.

I just so confused.

Why he can’t sleep? what disappear? What he’s smell at?

“Okay, if you can’t sleep at